The world doesn't stop for anyone.

Well a rather close relative just passed, and here I am at 7:43am, waiting for mother to be here to prepare for the wake. I'm not early, she's late. So I'm just sitting downstairs, watching the world getting busy.

Life goes on, the wind still blows. The world doesn't stop and stare at you grieve or anything. If you stop, you lose out and that's that.

This is probably the first time I've sat down outside so early in the morning. It does feel good actually, to just feel the wind and the calmness of the morning. No wonder the old folks enjoy it so much.

K, mother's here now. Bye.

{from the iPad}

Saturday.

I may have left school, may have forgotten how to play it properly, may have gotten very unfit. But the joy it brings cannot be replaced, I think I will always love volleyball. And my very awesome team. ♥

I can't wait to leave this place.

OH AND IT'S FRIDAY!

Damon, Sheldon and Jack. ♥

Inspiration.

I wanna stick decals like this on my wall too! But my wall is grainy to touch, not the usual smooth ones you'll find in new houses. ): The decals won't stick! Maybe I should spend my free time sandpapering my wall so that it becomes smooth. Hahahahaha.

And I need a bed frame, something glamourous like that. I think I will buy it with my next pay cheque. And a side table/drawer. And the lights, my old one burnt out.

Urgh, I just want a new room in a new house!

@#$!$%@KTJIAHVAISERUQ*Wuasdvao8druyge80arg

I am awesome.

Finally, after much research and effort, I have an awesome Facebook profile. Not that I care much but it's cooler than all your loser profiles. :D

Hi, I can haz X'mas dress. (:

Trying my utmost to fit perfectly into it.

And I've found a perfect present for Melissa already, see you at church! 

“The violets explode inside me

When I meet your eyes

Then I’m spinning and I’m diving

Like a cloud of starlings.

Darling, is this love?”

— Starlings, by Elbow

imy baby.

Friday.

I shall not lie, I woke up and realised it's Friday. Jumped outta bed and started downloading it.

Dearest Jack,

With all my heart, Nicole.

December.

You have no idea how much I want to go on a holiday with Jack.

I can't wait for Christmas to come, I'm already in the crazy holiday, Christmas-y mood. Listening to Christmas carols and writing my Christmas cards. My favorite time of the year is finally here! I just wish that Jack and I can go away on a holiday, just for a few days, spend more than a weekend together. It's been a long time since we've spent more than a weekend together, I miss him so bad. ):

On the other hand, I've stopped working as a salesgirl and I've realized that I have more time to myself - I have time to read my book, watch T.V, eat my ice cream slowly, wake and sleep whenever I want, snuggle in bed when it's pouring outside, and time to write about what's happening in my life.

I'm not saying that if I go to work, I can't do all these. But work at where I used to be sucked the life outta me, I reach home exhausted and lifeless, close my eyes and the next thing I know, I have to pull myself outta bed to go to work. That's not what I want. And I've less than a month's time before school starts anyway.

I'd really want to spend one Christmas away from home, in an awesome winter-wonderland someday.