everything matters

not in this a way, Lord.

A letter from Nic's heart to Nic.

Dear Nic,








































Love,
Your Heart.

so you took my heart

see, he taught me

how to disappoint again and again.
how to push responsibility away.
how to disrespect, even his parents.
how to idle and do nothing.
how to cast burdens on loved ones.
how promises are meant to be broken.
how to split a happy family up.
how to be a good for nothing bastard.
how ego can tear everything apart.
how pride can bring one down.
how home sweet home can become hell.
how marriage never last even when your kid is grown up.
how such a pretty thing like love can turn out like rubbish.

im so sad and jack's not here.


Oh my God, please please please help me. ):

i'm not okay, i promise.

home's a bitch

will you still love me in the morning?

it's like a thunderstorm now.
all i hope, is for these forty days,
to be peaceful and enlightening.

do let me stand by you babyy

we've been there and done almost everything.

from mama shops to NTUC.
from coffee shop to high class buffet.
from bookshop to borders.
from value dollar shop to Louis Vuitton.
from ice kachang to high end desserts.
from walking to cabbing.
from Causeway Point to Takashimaya.
from char kuey tiao to spaghetti to sushis.
from dvds to movies.
from beaches to shopping centers.
from chinese songs to english songs.
from rain to shine.
from quarrels to smiles.

and i love you babyy :))

to hold you closer than you already are.

Day One clothes :)

look at nicholas. eeeyew.

the boyfriend. ((:

and his hockey.

mdm lee asks: jack, can you dont look so retarded anot?

food and jack always cohere well.

TODAY =))

joelle baby and i

we're spastic together.

like totally spastic.


and when no one else was free to take pictures with me,

but, they still look good.

cos it's me

HAHAHAHA.

i was about to sleep

but cam whoring sounded more exciting

i look drunk. tsk.

i go solo in all the pictures.

okay, dont laugh.

princess nicole

okay, not.

done darlings.

good night.

i finally get to see my babyy tmr!

as close as you are

adelia is retarded.


they are super cute.


and they like talking to jack.


joelle thinks that jack is handsomeee.


this is adelia, she looks warped.


look at the fantabulous food.


that's what cousins always do.


uh huh.


just in case you forgot how pretty i am. HAHA.



fourteen february two thousand and seven.

that silly boyfriend made this specially for me!

jack'll be nic's, from now till forever. :)

Love Can

我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐 像绿洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 我也可以 付出一切 也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝 要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你 有悲有喜 有你 平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你 甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是你
我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐 像绿洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 真的愿意 付出所有 也要保护你
Oh 在一起 时间继续流逝 请记得我有多么的爱你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你 不弃不离不在意 一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你 放在你手心 灿烂的幸福全给你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你 我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你 要我们在一起

JACK SANG SONG FOR ME.
HO HO HO! =)))

man are insensitive creatures

nic : first lemme ask you
nic : picture this
nic : you and your boyfriend are now happily together
nic : and valentines is coming.
nic : and you wanna get your honey a shirt for new year
nic : would you or would you not ask your exboyfriend for opinions on what kinda shirt you should buy?

enqi : hmm, it depends. i will ask my frns. im nt close to ex.
enqi : bt if im close to ex,
enqi : i dont see e deal bout it.
enqi : frns only ma

nic : second, picture this from another perspective.
nic : your boyfriend opened his phone in front of you and reads his msg
nic : and you conveniently just look over knowing he wouldnt mind
nic : and he ask you where was that shop yall last saw this shirt he wanted to buy.
nic : and you look at the name of the sender.
nic : his ex gf.
nic : how would you feel?

enqi : i will feel ...
enqi : fucked up.
enqi : bt i wont scold him or wadsoever, i will jus tell him i forgot.

nic : exactly how i felt. thank you.

so easily

boyfriends are not obliged to tolerate mood swings.
but when they choose not to, fights like these happens.

i miss jack so much, but he's being a fucktard.

He will provide

Father Chong was preaching,

when i was in the States, while i was on the streets. i saw this tramp, he was searching thru the bins, and he held out a blue plastic bag containing a half eaten burger. and he opened it and ate it. for us, if we had ate that burger, we would have gotten food poisoning. but God provides these tramps with an immune system so good that'll withstand these germs. He protects these tramps, He provides for these tramps.

see, i've always believe that God will provide. in times of despair, it's God who comforts. and when people ask me, how's it like to trust in the Lord. and i'll often wonder how am i supposed to go about answering this person. and then today, i read the bulletin. and it says.

jane and peter were talking about scorpions, and jane told peter that she had been stung by one before. so peter asked jane how painful was the sting. jane pinched herself until it was as painful as the sting was in her memory. and she pinched peter the same way. peter said, that's not very painful. and jane replied, i cannot feel the pain for you, but that was just about how much it hurt me.

it's like watching a rainbow, or sunrise and sunset. maybe even how a fall may hurt you. you cannot witness it for another person. you'll have to experience it yourself. the same thing applies with God, you'll have to experience God yourself to know how great, and how wonderful He is. i cannot explain the gladness for you, because it's your own personal encounter with God. that's how im gonna answer anymore questions like these. =)))
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yay yay! i bought my new year clothes! eh, top and shoe only tho. thinking of getting a dress and another top. teeheehee =D oh, it's kinda frustrating because i dont really like most of the clothes i see, and when i finally eye on something, it'll always be the last piece, or there're no smaller/bigger sizes, or it's defected. i dont know why, but it always happens. rarr. still, i love shopping when i have money. then again, who doesnt.

Jack's always here for me when i needed him. that's just about everything for me. he'll do little things to make me smile, and words he say always makes me weak. he maybe be nothing to all of you, but he's my prince, and always will be. jack's my angel.

because you are jack, that's why i love you((:

seperated, we're delicate and small.

Status: Hiatus

okay, done with common tests. if i was good, i passed. if i wasn't, i failed. easy as that yeah. for a moment, i felt like the aftermath of promos came back. but now, i couldn't care two hoots luh. fail means fail. hehs. and the boyfriend's as always. never had enough time to finish all his stuffs. so disappointing. sighs. oh wells. =/

that aside. new year's coming, meaning new clothes coming too. =D supposedly to have 200 bucks for all my stuffs. but only left with a hundred, no idea where the other hundred went to. if mummy finds out, she's so gonna kill me. bahh, but i dont really care. what i do care is i only have a hundred for my new clothes. oh big fat purple dinosaur.

Nicole has been eating a lot, she needs a new diet plan. mmhmm. hell yeah. strictly soup for dinner now. yuh uh uh. the boyfriend's been eating a lot too, stop eating so much luh honey. your beer belly's protruding. teehee.

indeed.

Separated, we're delicate and small.

butterflies in my tummy

that's the boyfriend.


and this is love. (:

Status:

HIATUS





i suppose.

ilovetheboyfriend.always.