OMG, it's raining madly now.

3 years and 1 month.

Now that wasn't so difficult, is it?

Loves.

We're good now.

Yay, we're good again. (:

So Boyf woke up early, and came over. Opened the door himself and sneaked up on me while I was sleeping. How cute.

Anyways, I'm spreeing, wanna buy? It goes to Bangkok Trip fund. Thanks. Lol.

I'm starting school on Thursday, and the thought of it suck my toes. Omg, I just saw a streak of lightning flash across the reddish sky! Okay, I'm hearing thunder now. Wait, or is it the motorcycle down stairs? Hmm..

Illuma is boring, dreadfully boring. Bugis street is crazily populated even on a Tuesday. Bugis Junction is filled with people. What is wrong with these people? Don't they have work, or school? Madly crazy. Okay, I officially heard the thunder.

I watched Basic Instinct, I know, old movie, I'm slow. Sharon Stone is sexy, and psychopathic. I knew she wouldn't kill the detective guy, I don't know what's his name. Suckers for love, or sex, I don't know.

I watched The Proposal too, I think that's a pretty awesome movie. I liked it. I wouldn't mind watching it again, pretty hilarious at times. I watched Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill too, the new episodes of course. I can't wait for the rest to be released so I can get them. Bye.

It starts all over again.

So I've been talking a lot to Julian lately. He knows almost everything, things that Jack doesn't know, things that I don't want Jack to know, and things that Jack won't know even if I told him.

I kinda like Julian, more so recently.

6 entries a day,

because I was ignored.

(you'd better be sorry because I won't let you off)

Do you know what we really were?

The couple everyone pulled for.

You and I, years ago, we acted like we loved each other. Pretended to be dating like every other couple would do, because we didn't know. But really, we were just really awesome friends who are a little too crazy about each other. So please, can we go back to being friends, before we started to pretend that we were made for each other.

Don't initiate a talk with me, type a few lines, say you're sorry and go off without a notice. Please, because it sucks. Really. Make an effort, at the very least. Because it matters. Not like you read this space anyways. Heh.

Ya, of course.

My man isn't the most romantic man I've met, nor is he the most sensitive or thoughtful guy on earth but I'm happy with him. Just that sometimes, he forgets to care as much as he should, as much as I care for him.

My phone used to ring about every other 5 minutes, and I would smile myself silly at the texts that he sent. I would switch off my lights at about 11PM and snuggle myself in bed and wait, because he would call, and we would talk on the phone about everything until about 1 or 2 in the morning. We would go out and walk even if we didn't know where we're headed, without arguing about where to go of course. And he would send me back to my doorsteps, no matter how late it was. But then things started to change, and got boring.

Sometimes a relationship becomes boring because one person forgot to care(as much). People often wonder why does everything looked so perfect when a couple started going out together, it's really simple. Because the two were so engrossed with each other, concentrated on caring for the other. And as time passes, we get distracted by so many other things, and slowly, gradually, we forget to care.

Of course, it could also be the fact that one was so focused on getting the other, he spends the whole time, devoted to her in the beginning of the relationship, just to make sure that she's not going anywhere. And when he knows and is very sure that she won't leave, he stops caring and stops devoting as much, if not at all.

(Of course, not talking to you at all for one whole day isn't going to be tough for him at all. It would be best if you don't disturb his peace, it would be best if you don't even exist for that whole day.)

So i figured that how come some people cannot stay faithful to their spouse, it's because things got boring, one forgot to care because he thought that she should know that he cares. So he doesn't put in as much effort to care, well, because she should know. With all the talks about how you should know I love you, right? So she forgot about how it is like to be in love, to be wooed, to be spoilt, to be hoaxed.

So you tell yourself that you should return such behavior to him, tit for tat. And you find it almost impossible to do the same to him. Because if you stopped caring too, you know for sure that the flame will be distinguished. Naturally, if this other random guy comes along and expresses interest in her, although she's attached, she'll play along. Because this guy is reliving those days.

I should know, I was guilty of it, a little bit at the very least. I should know, because I've seen friends done it. I should know, because I miss those days. But, I should know better, to play along with any other guy again. Because it nearly cost me the love of my life, who ironically is making me feel lonely, very much by myself. Then again, I love him too much to make any silly mistakes like this again.

If my man is a time traveler, I wouldn't be so lonely even if he stopped caring, because my younger man would come and visit me. But my man is not, so I'm going to wallow in selffuckingpity, and I suggest that if you feel the same way, wallow in your pathetic plight because mistakes like these have too grave a consequence to bear. I'm pathetic but I have the man I love, bye.

Talk cock.

Some days.

There are some days when you feel like a total baby, grumpy, demanding and annoyed at nothing. Today is my day.

& all I need is for boyfriend to come over and hoax me, and leave me with all his attention. & that is what I don't get, ever.

Just because he thinks i'm strong on my own, and I can handle it all by myself.

Sensitivity.

Sometimes you just need to remember that not everyone is in the same financial position as you are, especially when they don't have a job and is still studying.

I liked yesterday, there were only Jack and I, me and Jack. (:

Autumn.

All i want is for the big A's to be over fast. It's like a torturous sentence, slowly dragging because it enjoys watching us flinch in agony, stress and annoyance. All i want is one day, without having to worry about the big A's. Maybe if I ate all my notes, the big A's would be waay easier, that would prolly work.

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Looking out of my window, if I weren't living here, I should see beautiful brownish red leaves spiraling down into the pool of Autumn leaves on the floors. The weather would be just perfect, not too cold, not too hot either. Just imagine the kind of clothes I could wear, instead of just tank tops and shorts because the weather here is murderous.

Photos not in any order.

I dislike being chronological, so I don't post photos in their respective order. Actually, I have no idea why I'm explaining it to you, because you don't have to know. Okay, now look:

She's scarily happy, I don't know why.

We finally made a trip to Ann Siang Hill after so long, only to find that there's nothing much special about that place. What disappointment.

Okay, Sylvia was posing for this picture, but I took a picture without her head instead. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA.

The greedy chicken feet couple.

This is Jack and Nicole.

Some people refer to them as Jacole.

They've been together for 3 years and counting.

This is Sylvia and Razaleigh.

I call them Syleigh.

They are the craziest couple I've ever seen.

Okay, I'm happy. That's all. Bye.

For one more day, baby.

& I could spend everyday just like this. (:

Like a Tai-Tai.

So I had to redo the testimonial thing, and I had to be very politically right and check those boxes that describes me. Then Ms Choo asked us to make a list of our achievements, so Jack was doing his and he said he cannot think of anymore to write. Then I started reminding him of all his hockey competitions and floorball competitions, until his paper was full.

When it came to mine, I could only fill up half a page, in huge handwriting. That instance I felt like the whole world fell upon me, damn sad. Lol. So I wrote all the volleyball competitions I played in and all the other insignificant miscellaneous stuff.

Ms Choo is going to have a hard time churning out one page's worth of testimonial for me. Good Luck. Lol.

On a lighter note, I just woke up about 15 minutes ago and I need to get ready to go for DimSum now, life's good, I really cannot deny. (:

Greg and Mel's going diving at Tioman, Jack and I were so close to joining them, but because of the big A's, we declined. And I'm damn sad because I was so excited when Greg texted me about it. Next time, I'll make Jack go no matter what!

Syl, Leigh, Jack and I are going BKK most probably in December. Found the suitable return tickets and hotel already, all we need is saving up. So much for the excitement about going to HongKong this year, I suppose BKK would be good too, since everything will be backsidely cheaper. Okay, bye.

No rhyme or reason

Have you ever felt like doing something really silly and dangerous just for the fun of it? I feel like doing something silly right now, especially after Prelims. -break- I have no idea what else to say, weird. Okay, bye!

P.S: I adore my Jack ♥! (:

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She's hot stuff, I adore her. Brucas ♥ I can't wait to get my hands on the new season!

P.S: I'ma go get GG as well, crazy drama days, welcome back!

Update

Okay, so Jack really did score a goal in his last game. The one that I missed because I overslept. Looks like I won't be watching his games anymore. He only scores when I'm not around, I'm sucha distraction. Hahahahahahahahhaa.

My love.

Look at his new play-space. He's as cute as ever, and getting rounder by the minute. Loves him! :D

Kinship, my motherfucking backside.

Since your laptop is the best, then don't ask me to lend you mine.

You didn't wanna buy me a laptop, so shut the fuck up.

You bought this lousy Malaysian DVD, don't complain if you can't watch it.

I lent you my laptop because I was being nice, I could have refused like Brother.

So shut your fucking mouth and appreciate it instead of criticizing it.

Please don't act like you have the best computer skills, just because Mom and I helped you in all your projects.

I HELPED YOU ADD PICTURES, SOUNDS AND EVERYTHING ELSE.

Please don't come and act superior with me because just about 5, 8 years or more ago, you've lost my respect.

Even though you're my father (if my mother should read this entry) that doesn't give you the right to be rude and less considerate to my feelings.

I'm 20 and I can feel every emotion a lot better than you do.

Just because I keep my mouth shut, you should know your limits and be kind.

Keep your useless ego, you have nothing impressive to flaunt at all.

Fuck off.

P.S: Should he have any requests from me, I'ma contemplate 3 times before helping.

Makes me sleepy already.

Just look at all these awesome daybeds, i like, i like, i like, i like!

Love.

I'ma lay my hands on you sooner than you know it baby!

Seafood makes Nicole happy.

So we were at Manhattan Fish Market last night, and we finally tried the Seafood Platter for 2. I think it's alright, because everything tasted yummy. There's the prawns - which they burn in front of you(?), there's the deep fried calamari, there's oyster balls(?) - which Jack mistook as fish nugget and greedily chowed it in his mouth only to realise that it's oysters and very naturally he gagged. There's MFM's Fish, and the rice and fries of course. We topped it up with the Perfect Catch - drinks and soup of the day.

Just that paragraph alone makes me salivate. Damn it.

I'm supposed to be at Hun's game right now, but I overslept. Cabbing there would be madness because it's at Sengkang. So i'm gonna have to miss his game this week. He says he can only score when I'm not around, so Imma test his lameass theory this week. Will update!

Okay, ta!

P.S: I don't know what I'm gonna do, shit.

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I had my nails done in pearly white - which appeared light pinkish, and rose pink. It looks awesomely pretty. I'm not a bimbo. Bye!

Okay, today's the start of my prelims 2. Bye.

P.S: I screwed Econs up. ):

Born in the right place, right time.

What do Lindsay Lohan, Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen, Daniel Radcliffe, Hayden Panettiere, Rihanna, Hilary Duff and Katie Cassidy have in common?

If you don't already know the answer, these stars are people around our age, and younger. Why am I mentioning them? Because they don't need to study their asses off or save every week's allowance in order to hit their first million dollars.

Just don't grow up to become Paris Hilton or Linsay Lohan, rich kids.

Now I'm off to try and concentrate.

New phone! :D

Decided to do away with my kick-ass phone. After a while, it gets boring. But nonetheless, I'm glad I had it for a year or thereabouts. And ever since I got my sidekick, Mom has been asking me to lend it to her, so I guess imma pass it to her when I get my new phone. (:

So now, the big headache. I cannot seem to make up my mine. I don't know which one I should change to.

I like the storm for the fact that surfing the net would be way easier because then, I wont be confined to that roll-y ball thing.

And I like the curve for the solid qwerty key pad and the design.

Argh. Help! ):

P.S: After posting this entry, I have the sudden liking for curve more than storm now. Hmmm.

See my little lovely.

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♥

New Bangs, Old Boyfriend.

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Prawning day!

Syleigh decided to go prawning, and so we went. It was eventful, but we could have a better harvest though. Oh wells, visual orgasms below, watch out.

NB: Please refrain from salivating.

OKAY BYE!