neos

ENQI, HUIFEN AND XUEHUI <3


enqi AA. lols.


hahahaha.


enqi attract attention lah. and xuehui looks fat. tsk.


we've known each other for 33 mths.


love vs scandal


bimbos. hahaha.


was trying to act cute lah. tsk.


hao jiu mei you ju zai yi qi ler.


huifen says: not scary at all loh. =/


31ST AUGUST 2006 ((:

my love

wo de ai ren ((:

i adore you

PHOTOS.

WITH MY SCANDALS.

NICOLE LOVES HUIFEN. muahs!


my laogong. HAHA.


nic and enqi


i so love huifen. hahaha.


it's been a long time since we took pictures TOGETHER.

IN MILLENNIA

marilyn's nuts.


slap her arh. HAHA.


i dont know what were we doing.


JANESSA and NICOLE


i always manage to take UGLY pictures of MARILYN.


hazel's pretending. she's actually very GLAD to take picture with ME.


i like this. i dont know why. hmm.


HSIANGLIN first time pose for me. im so honoured lah. HAHAHA.


five girlfriends. i so love them.

OKAY

actually got a lot more lah. but its quite tiring to load pictures here. hahahas. anyways. today's quite boring.

aiyo. i talking to jack no concentration to blog lah. HAHA.

anyhows, eh. i really cant remember what to blog about. no substance all of a sudden.

OH. it's been a looong time since i saw huifen, enqi and xuehui ler! wo hao xiang ta men arh. now i know, these people are the lamest shit in town lah. and, they are the coolest people in my life. we can like sit there and talk crap and laugh at EVERY single thing. it's been a long time since i laughed like this lah. oooooo i love them so. muahs. i wonder when is the next time we'll meet up and crap our afternoon away again. its either im not free, or huifen's not free. or enqi's not free or xuehui's not free. oh man. =/







for jaaaaaCk. ((:

i swear, by the moon and the sun in the skies
i'll be there.
and i swear, by the shadows that's by your side
i'll be there.
for better or worst,
till death do us part,
i'll love you with every bit of my heart,
i swear.

muahs.

happy birthday darling.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY boyfriend. =D

and he said:
cos jack and nic shares a heart.

30082006 <3

and hayley's retarded.

- /-\ `/ _ . /-\ \ says:
please ah
please.
dont make babies
PLEASE

i wonder what's wrong with her.

jack's my boyfriend =D says:
is ian ignoring you?
LOL.

- /-\ `/ _ . /-\ \ says:
hahahaahahah
no
why

jack's my boyfriend =D says:
cos i thought you went into post boyfriend neglected depression or sth.
LOL

anyway, i have decided to give up on the Adidas Airliner and invest and save my money in order to buy the orange crumpler with JACK. (: its hundred and seventy nine bucks and im seventy nine bucks short. damn. im gonna start starving and start putting my money to good use. no more shopping til i get my orange crumpler!

my boyfriend's not home yet. and he has to do mdm za's lit by midnight. and it's eleven fifty six. HAHA. i havent started either. and. i think im super lazy. LOL.

AND. i updated. FOR HAYL. hahaha.

argh this is so shitty. i dont feel like doing lit all of a sudden. and i havent done cuphead's essay either. i. am. so. gonna. die. hurhur. like i bother. *rolls eye...

AND. melissa NG blogged bout me. i am oh so touched. HAHA. and no. im not JILL, i look like a nicole, dont i? hmmm. -.- and yes. its been centuries since i last saw you and greg. and when i see you and greg, you start teasing me bout jack. how nice. im oh so touched. -.- greg and mel. how loving. HAHAHA. you people, i love. =D

i love you.
two hearts beating just like one against the world. <3

A penny for my thoughts

a penny for my thoughts

nah, I dont want any penny. I just wanna empty my head, heart and frustration vault.

for a start, i'd like to empty the benjy vault. HAH.
I can still remember clearly, the day he came up to me and asked for my number. it's quite a miracle how a question can bring us to where we are now. haha. I know i've been unreasonable, I know i've been absurd, I know i've been selfish. I know it's my fault we ended up this way. and I am quite disappointed with this outcome. gone are the days where by I weep and cry alone at night, before I close my eyes and sleep. yes, I no longer cry over us anymore. but, whenever these thoughts pass my head, there's this sense of disappointment and resentment. because, it almost caused us our friendship. however, i'd still wanna thank you so deeply, for the little sacrifices and the choices you made. you know I loved you. ((:

now, as for my life.
I suppose I leaped over the identity crisis bit of my life. and I do feel that there's this load of burden missing from my chest. like, its easier for me to breathe. I know this is just a start of my great journey in life. and I know that this whole identity crisis is but a small setback. and I cannot believe that I took it like an immatured kid. probably because I dare not face the reality, because I dare not make decisions, afraid that it'll affect the near future negatively. i thank God, for letting me find myself and bringing me closer to you. like chari has said, God let this happen because he wanted me to learn somethings. and, it's great. i love my life, now. ((:

iJACKyou.
and between now and then, till i see you again, i'll be loving you. love, me.
you make me smile allll the time. buay tahan you lah. xD

this is your conscience talking to you.
i feel.. urgh! sighs. once and twice, the thought of letting go scraped pass my mind. and i feel stupid. i mean, like what chari has said. like what enqi has said. but still! i feel baaaaaad. )): walan. buay tahan liao lah. i think i should go sit in the middle of the road and wait for an on coming car to kill me. or maybe for someone to pull me away. tsk.




ijackyou. x)

sacrifices.

"our da xiao jie, only attends EARLIER masses for one reason. Our Almighty God and Father. BUT, today, she attended the 9.30am mass. we all wonder why. hmmmm."

thanks arh shar. -.-

in love, there's bound to be sacrifices made.
if it means nic going to the doc's or eating medicines,
or to brave thunderstorms alone in the night,
or watch a lizard crawl pass without making a sound.

i'll gladly do it in the name of love. ((:

this assurance he gave,
is like none other. =DDD


and i thank God.
cos you crossed my path. ((:


the whole world teasing me lah.
early in the morning GREG and MEL tease me. -.-

and then,

you are my beautiful disaster says:
what?
go grow beanstalk with who issit
LOL

lien is spastic. -.-


God made me put down the love before,
so i can have a greater love. ((:

you make me sooooooooooo happy.
hahahahahahahaha.

econs

MUGGED

i did econs ((:

ahahahahahahahahahahha.

hah!

MEL, GREG IS MEAN.

greg iop says:
u study econs?

demand for nic in jack's economy is price inelastic says:
yupps

greg iop says:
demnd for nic?
highly elastic
lots of substitutes

demand for nic in jack's economy is price inelastic says:
HA. oh shut up

greg iop says:
ca be found in ur nearest convenient rubbish bin

demand for nic in jack's economy is price inelastic says:
YOU ARE A MEAN PIG

greg iop says:
LOL
kidding lah

demand for nic in jack's economy is price inelastic says:
HAHA.
i knew it.
HAH.
i know lah.
in your economy, mel is HIGHLY price INELASTIC LAH.

but, then again,

i realised, i should be alone says:
different economy different needs
HA

=D

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

and when we were talking..

i realised, i should be alone says:
demand for nic in jack's economy is price inelastic
HA

i realised i got no brains says:
LOL.
JACK DOING ECONS?
HAHA

i realised, i should be alone says:
nope
LOl
but this is confusing

i realised i got no brains says:
lols.

i realised, i should be alone says:
its a neccesity, but also a luxury good
HAHA

i realised i got no brains says:
HMMM.

=DDD why am i so happy? HAH.

=DD

BUT,

nic feels ecstatic now.

elated
athrill
beatific
blissful
crazy
delirious
elated
enraptured
enthusiastic
entranced
euphoric
fervent
frenzied
in exaltation
joyful
joyous
overjoyed
rapturous
ravished
rhapsodic
thrilled
wild

i think i might go crazy. wheeeeee..! =DDDDD




wondering why? hmmm.
i wonder why too. =DDD

i hate myself

SELF-RESENTMENT

nothingness

nothingness

i didnt thought i could actually spend one whole day without having anything on my mind. i didnt know i was capable of doing that.

nicole, i nothing am. lol.


dance with me ((:

changed in life

i take it like a man

in my life, there're always oncoming problems. i've always tried to avoid. this time, not only i confront it face to face, im trying all my best to solve it. =)

emotions are not gonna put me down. i've been trying, and its not really working.

and.. sighs.
i broke my promise, tho i didnt cut.
but i still inflicted pain on myself.
and i broke my promises, to God.

dear lord,
you know sometimes, i try so hard to take things like a man.
but lord, why does things keep coming my way? it's not like
i am some supergirl who can take things as and when they come
i know sometimes, its not you who let things happen, and i believe
everything happens for a reason. but this reason isnt getting to me.
i forbid tears to flow, because i know you wouldnt want me to cry.
and because i know if i cry. people around me will be affected too.
i take it like a man. but it goes against the way i am, to put my
human nature down. i confront things when they come. and this
courage, came from you. i thank you lord. for all my friends, for all
the smiles, for all the happy things in my life. and i pray lord, that
all the unhappy things will go away quick, i wanna be happy, i wanna
be myself again. i do miss me. alot. ever since i broke with benjy, i
feel that i've been hiding my true self beneath. i suppose benjy didnt
have a good time either. i ask God to help him to move on, if he hasnt,
and if he already did, then i ask God to give him all the strenght he needs.
this ought to have came earlier, but better late than never.
iloveyou. ((:
loves, nic.

i love CHARISSA AND SAMANTHA.
and i want you to know that God is always here for you like he is for me.
God loves you too. ((:

i love XIE ENQI.
i love you i love you i love you.
muahs* ((:

i know this is a feeling i just cant fight
you're the first and last thing on my mind. =D

zealousness

Lost in wondering contemplation

yeah. lost. this contemplation is killing me. i just cant take it anymore.

just because i value friendships more than anything else. just because i cannot go against my conscience. sighs.

today, went to church. then i was early. and so i went up to sit alone. and then SUBRA came and attended with me. and then BENJY came and sat beside me. it was kinda awkward laah. but, oh wells. and then benjy was flipping the psalm book. and i happened to glance across. and, i saw..

but it goes against the way i am, to put my human nature down. and god's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

it is so true. it goes against the way i am. my thoughts, my words and my actions. and god's soft prompting is easily ignored. im impeached, really am. sighs. i am only a human, but these trials keep on coming my way. it's not that i lose my self-esteem, it's not that i have no confidence in myself, it's not that i wanna give up on myself, it's not that i havent been thinking for myself. sometimes, i tried. tried to think about of myself before others, tried to regain my confidence, and tried to find myself.

this zealousness in me is impalementing me. like it's turning my rights to make my decision into an obligation. and this obligation sucks.

&*^*&amp;amp;amp;amp;;^%$#$%^&*(;%^$#!#$#%^&**(*&^%$#!#$%^!&*(&^!%#!%#$!*^$&*)(*^@!!!!!!!

infatuation sucks. especially because i like you and i know i shouldnt have in the first place. because it's not right to like someone with a girlfriend, i know it's different now, but because i value friendships more than myself. this contemplation is killing me, this imperceivable affection is clouding my mind. i am losing my sanity. baah!

ilikeyou. ((:

now, i feel like..

3 SCHOOLS I WENT TO:
xingnan pri
hong kah sec
millennia institute

3 THINGS I PUT INTO MY BAG:
handphone
wallet
mirror

3 THINGS I DO WHEN I AM STRESSED:
blast my music
read my books
go crazy

3 PLACES I GO TO ON A DAILY BASIS:
school
westmall
my room

3 FAVOURITE FRUITS:
apple
mango
seedless grapes

3 TYPES OF MY FAVOURTIE FOOD:
cabonara
katong laksa
fish and chips

3 NAMES I GO BY:
nic
ah girl
nicole jiejie

3 THINGS I AM WEARING NOW:
t-shirt
short shorts
undergarments -.-

WHO'S IN THE HOUSE WTH ME:
mummy
daddy
nick
earthfy

WHO AM I THINKING OF RIGHT NOW:
the contemplation

WHO DID I LAST TALK TO ON THE PHONE:
mandy

WHO DID I SIT WITH DURING MY 5TH PERIOD CLASS:
monday econs- depends, charissa and binxiang or jack and sam.
tuesday chinese- hazel
wednesday ht- hazel
thursday hist- depends too
friday gp- hazel

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON I TOLD THAT I LOVED:
God

WHO DO I WISH I AM WITH RIGHT NOW:
nobody

ARE YOU ATTACHED:
nope ((:

NO, WHEN WAS YOUR LAST BREAK UP:
011005

WHO GETS ON TO MY NERVES IN SCHOOL:
neh, that stupid chinese teacher loh

WHERE IS MY PHONE:
main phone in my room
spare phone beside me

WHERE DO I SLEEP:
on my QUEEN SIZED bed

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING I ATE:
choco mini peppermint ((:

WHAT COLOUR SHIRT AM I WEARING:
white

WHAT IS THE CLOSET ITEM NEXT TO ME THAT IS BLUE:
my spare phone

WHAT DO I LIKE MOST ABOUT SCHOOL:
f-r-i-e-n-d-s!

WHAT IS MY FAVOURITE COLOUR:
isnt it obvious?
orange and lime green!

WHAT DO I WEAR OFTEN JEANS/SHORTS:
shorts

WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE I WATCHED:
the break up

WHO DID I WATCHED IT WITH:
jack and sam

WHEN DID I START SCHOOL:
when i was 3 or 4

WHEN DID I LAST GO TO THE MALL:
mall, what mall? oh. yesterday.



feel the intensity of my boredom.
byebye, i am going jurong point.
pizza for dinner. mmhmm! =D

hmm

it's kinda amazing to have a movie of your love life.

today's a super tiring day. maybe cos i woke up at four again last night. =/

went to novena with mummy in the morning. when we reached we realised we were too early. so we went to far east to walk. and then went to novena.

after that i went to city hall to meet sam. jack was late as usual. =/

we went carl's jr to eat. i think it should be called carl's jumbo instead. oh wells.
then we went to watch the break up.

the movie was everything i meant. it was everythiing i was feeling. it was everything i felt. it was everything we were. great movie tho. ((: benjy, you really should go watch it. it has jennifer aniston =)

maturity

this pharse in my life, plays a significant part in my days on earth. this, is my turning point. a point where i break from my comfort zone. hopefully, i'll change to a girl, with that maturity of thought. with that controlled temper. with that determination. with that smile no matter what.

chinese teachers sucks. i never liked any one of them. and neither do i like chinese at all. dont ask me what happened. im super fished up. the anger is still inside me. not that im petty or unforgiving. JUST LOOK AT HER ATTITUDE. baah. what the blue blue baraccuda.

and, these people, i must say, are the best people who's crossed my paths.

Enqi
Charissa
Hsiang Lin
Janessa
Hazel
Marilyn
Jack
Sam
Grace
Rachel
my da jie. LENIS
my er jie. STEPH
my san jie. HUIMIN
HAHA.

made me smile thru this sucky period of my life. thanks lah. =D

esp sam and jack. haha. tho they dont lemme emo.
and chari, i know God cares.
enqi, sighs. my identity crisis.
grace, lols. i know i very crappy lah.
da jie and er jie. hahaha. she wanted to pia zhui cos the chinese teacher bully me.
aye. and so many many people lah. =D

you people are Godsent lah. i love you to bits! muahs! hurhurhur.

i've been reflecting quite a lot for the past few days. and i search deep within me for an answer to my doubts and frustrations.

and. my answer's quite heart-wrenching: i am quite confused. sighs.

what to do? =/

emonist.

ms ong spoke to me. and i started reflecting. and i realised.

i have a problem.

with myself. an identity crisis. i dont like myself.

dont mind me. i think i suck. im so frustrated with my inner self. !#$%^&*^%$#!#$^&. rarr!

BLOODY HELL. this person in the mirror looks like she needs a beating. i think she needs reflection. and i dont like her at all.

waddahell

ygolocin* says:
but last time can leh
walau got watch hulk?
hahahahahaha
damn nice laah

`- kokai saki ni tatazu. says:
gt..
ahas.. my mum asked me 1 stupid qns.
at e last part.. whr hulk turn back norml..
girl.. why e hulk like that girl..
=.=
dan she say.. he nt norml human lehs.
=.=" so i asked her.. y superman n batman gt gfs..they oso nt norml human lehs.
=/

ygolocin* says:
=/
why you use my =/
rarrrr
)=<

`- kokai saki ni tatazu. says:
HAHAHAHAS.
=/ wad does this mean anw.

ygolocin* says:
you dont know still wanna use!


as the saying goes: kiang jiu hor, mai gei kiang. =/

photo feast

Adidas Airliner- $80 bucks. woot.
there's the white and black one tho. =/
i want this bag. i want this bag. i want this bag.
i want this bag. i want this bag. i want this bag.
i want this bag. i want this bag. i want this bag.
i want this bag. i want this bag. i want this bag.
muahahahahahahahahahas. XD

Product of sleepless nights. =D

affair with tiger. XD


i look saddistic here. lmao. =D


i love you. *muahs ((:


i cherish you alot. muahahahas.


L-O-V-E


if i should cut my hair. hmm..

During GP lesson

look at hazel. i wonder if she's acting. =/


stop doing work hazel. lols.


i got 5 G2 in my pencilbox. lols.


picnic. =DDD


it's not just me being retro.


told ya. XD

vision

a vision

yeah, i had a dream last night. and, it was quite scary laah. here it goes..

i have no idea where i was cos my vision was blurred. but as i try to make out the surrounding, i saw ben kor kor walking towards me. and he came up to me and said:

"here's my advice, once you have made up your mind, dont look back. because in a relationship, once things have been decided, no matter how many chances you give it, it'll still turn out the same way."

okays, so he disappeared. and i continued walking, and then i came upon this girl. and i tried to find her in my memory bank. and so, i realised. she's enqi. and she came up to me and said:

"since you made up your decision to let go, then dont dwell on the past anymore. and besides, you got your target now."

she smirked and walked away. then i decided to venture forward, and i wondered what else was installed for me. just as i took my turn, jack walked towards me. and he said:

"yup, life's simple. you make choices, and never look back."

then i realised it wasnt coincidence anymore. so i started to make sense of what they said to me. and i took my turn, and saw this garden with a fountain in the center. so i convinced myself of sitting there alone. i walked towards the side of the garden, and sat on the bench, as i sit down, i saw two silhouettes opposite where i was sitting. then i thought this girl resembled the girl i saw in the mirror for the past 17 years. it was me, myself. and this person beside me, is God. i tried to listen to what we were talking about. but, apparently i couldnt hear a thing. but, it was so peaceful, the sound of the water flowing from the fountain, the birds chirpping up on the trees, the gentle breeze brushing across our faces, the sweet smiles that was on my face all the while, the blue blue sky with birds soaring across, little children playing on the green green grass, the melody of nature. and then, i woke up. what a dream. phew.

through life of weary exile

as i was reading my book on my way home from novena, i realised that there's this sentence which seemed familiar..

When you lose everything you thought you needed, you may just end up with what you really wanted all along...

hmm. heh heh. im super bored laah. i tried doing homework. but i couldnt think hard enough. hahahahahaha. =D

shall blog later. i cant think now. =/

Through life of weary exile

i cant upload the pictures here. =/ so i uploaded it on friendster.
http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/orange_suicide_note/album?.dir=/f7a1scd
hahaha. wait til the next time i can upload. oh wells.

protected

Mr Joker made me feel protected

yeah. sounds dumb. but yeah. =/

you dont wanna know what happened during PE today. you seriously wont wanna know. *shakes my head* uh uh, nah, you probably wont wanna know. okay, i'll tell you. i fainted. lmaos. yadayada. nic is weak. whatever. but i didnt realise i fainted laah. hahahas. until i open my eyes and see Mr Chua directly opposite me, and at that moment i wished i never gain conciousness. hahahaha.

"you ran too fast, your first three rounds is equivilent to guys timing you know. you should just slow jog, confirm pass one. i think you controlled your breathing, just let your breathing go normally. you ran too fast already. 1.14 for the first round, thats too fast. if you persist and was consistent you could have come back in 10 minutes."

aye, if i had slow jogged all the way then i'll never achieve my target liao pass also meaningless liao. everytime olso like that run one mah. baahh. he wouldnt understand lar. sighs.

volley was quite rarrring. i was pissed off by stuffs and some certain person. i cannot set the ball i cannot set the ball i cannot set the ball. how many times must i say. rarr! i don tknow how to set ball laaaaaah. what is wrong laah. argh. and then i threw tantrum. to coach and my mates. lmao. darn hilarious laah. coach was like- never seen a girl throw tantrums. HAHAHA.

yup, life's simple. u make choices, and never look back. says:
of cos la, i tink he never see 17year old college girl throw tantrum like 1.7years old

whatever jack. what ever.

baah.
my name is spell as such
nicoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooole.

bothersome

my wait.

and i didnt thought some stranger's words would bother me so much. bother me as in, it sets me thinking bout the affairs of my heart, not anyone in particular. my oh my, i suppose it's the chances that i've given up, that prevents me from giving my all. if it shall come look for me again, if he would love me with everything he has, i'll give my best. my promise. ((:

life is a journey that i wanna keep going,
love is a river that i wanna keep flowing.

wasted day

wasted day

im superduperultramegawhooping
bored. can you feel the intensity
of my boredom? tsktsk.

i wasted yet another day. =D
not that im super proud. but..
well not that i can do anything.
i woke up at erms.. 11 i suppose.

today is the first time in the
longest years mummy made
breakfast for us. half boiled eggs.
so blissful. right. =/

i spent my day downloading
songs into my phone. now i added..
hmm.. 14 plus songs to my phone.
muahahahas. so darn cool. =DDD

and then downloaded games into
my phone too. downloaded quite
a number of games. four of which
i already completed in the afternoon.
lmao. my eyes were dying and my
fingers were having cramps. lmao.

im gonna eat dinner now.
byebye computer. :))


sing a song of home
where dreams are born everyday
my home,
whereever i may be,
i believe,
you will always be a part of me.

feel so patriotic all of a sudden.
i feel so darn stupid. =/
muahahahahahahhahas.

retro hotness

so retro, baby

national day is so superultrawhooping
boring. so boring i think chickens
stopped laying eggs and started
taking swimming lessons.

mummy and daddy's at it again. bahh.
im pretending not to hear anything.
but mummy just keeps on yaking.
yadayada. =/

oh my fishing baboon.
i thought i used to love holidays.
i think i've changed my mind.
i suppose as one grow older,
they'll just grow outta holidays.
nada, holidays are boring,
just because mummy dont
lemme go out. lmao. oh wells.
maybe later i might decide to
sit down and take out my books
and start my obligation.
might.

bahh.
i changed my skin again.
lmao. cos im superwhooping boring.
hahaha. i search superultra long lah.
i think im crapping again. lmao.

aye.
my tagboard,
when has it become so heated up.

eh. read this.

firstly, i wanna be with benjy.
that was long ago. read that?
me and benjy already ended months ago.
i do still love him. im sure you will too.
[070705-090606] ((:

secondly, dont act like you know me.
because you know nuts. you'd prolly
like to get your facts right before
you start bullshitting around here.

and, you said let bygones be bygones.
what's with you and mark?
me and mark happened like how long
ago? you quite outdated arh.
sides, what happened to mark will
not happen to me. because i dont
two-time my bf and his bestfriend.

finally, take your stinking nose outta my ass.

hmm. eh mel, dont bother lah. lmao.
mind your own business lah arh. go away.

it occured to me that teenage girls of my
age, are so obssessed with comics.
and i wonder why. its in chinese!
feasibly, if english comics were cheaper,
i'd probably will act like one of those girls
patronize comic connection more often.
everytime i go out with my girlfriends,
they'll never fail to visit that shop.
and then i'll stand there while they start
searching for their craze. lmao. well,
i t ' s c h i n e s e .

just recently, we went kino after school.
and i was looking for proper books to
invest on. they decided to go to the comics
section. and they asked if im going to
stay there. so i said i'll go look for them
when i find my book. bahh. see the
gap in between there. =/
even hazel, janessa and marilyn
are addicted to chinese comics.
imaginably, chinese was the barrier.
nevertheless, i do read comics.
english comics. let me see hmm..
archie is superultrawhooping addictive.
lmao. and i cant remember what
comics i used to read. lmao. i think
i've grown outta comics too. hahaha.
i read books. which, in fact, i have a few
more unread and totally dewy books
lying around in my cubbyhole.
and i keep on buying. lmao. not that
i dont wanna read. but i dont even have
time for my blanket-drill. lmao.

eh, i think i sleep too much. XD




this retro fever is getting into me.
the songs in me seems foreign.
laugh my ass off. =DDD

Outrageous.

my life.
has been really preposterous.
I cannot seem to ferret out why.
perhaps I havent been a good girl.
or probably i havent been praying.
conceivably, if i become a better person,
my life might take its turn for the better
presumptively, if i study harder,
if i help mummy with housework,
if i come home early everyday,
if i do every single homework given,
if i spend 24/7 studying and revising,
if i pray everyday before bed,
if i'd spent more time with God,
talking to him. asking him for help,
my life, wouldnt have turn out like this.

nada. im not emo.
just pondering bout what
is happening to my life.

and, BENJY,
thank you for..
listening to me whine
bout my outrageous life.
i suppose it's my turn
for my life to be an ass.
oh wells. hahaha.
i'll be okay.
NIC has always been
a strong girl
despite the tears
and antagonisms.
right? ((:

sighs, ENQI,
why ENQI why?
i just dont understand.

daddy's an ass lar.
mummy's a nag.
nick is a pain in my shit.
hhhhaaaaiiiissss.

i dont like to stay at home.
at least not recently.
its so darn boring at home.
and its so irritating being at home.
home. HAH.

sometimes, i wonder,
what happened to my
quiet time with God.
i know its my fault
that i havent got time
for God. nada nada.
if you ask me,
i got a whole shitload of
reasons. no. excuses.
why i havent been spending
time with God.

honestly arh,
i think im wasting my life away.
its either i keep on going out,
or i'll laze on bed doing nth at all.

oh wells.
i'd better start mugging
for promos thats impending
like in another two months.
why do i not feel the
obligation to start being
zealous and enthusiastic
bout mugging away like
all other hardworking people?

bahh.
i sleep so many hours a day.
why do i still feel so
lethargic day and night?
must be my lazy bones.
laugh my ass out. =D

i need people to make me
sit down with them and
start mugging and doing
all my long overdued
assignments. that includes,
chinese, lit, maths, econs.
well. i suppose its almost
every single subject bah.
argh. spare me the throes.

mummy'll prolly go
"you chose to go to MI,
you better make your decision
a good one. dont regret i tell you.
you better start working hard.
better start studying on your own.
dont stay outside all the time.
your a girl you know. keep
going out all the time, you
should stay at home and help
me with the housework and
study on your own at home."
yadayada. imma girl. i know.

ahh. mothers. they tend to
start and not stop. i wonder why.
goodness gracious me.
will i become like her in the
near future. oh please.
oh. mothers are good link-ers.
they can link every single thing up.
like from using too much computer,
to staying out all the time,
to not studying hard enough,
to not helping her do housework,
to sleeping too much all the time.
smartness. *take my hat off*

i realise my entries have been quite
lengthy of late. must be the
amount of pressure im under. =/

now its my fault.

i decided to delete this post.

nostalgic HAHA

because we (i) love the cam

THESE are taken today. =D



cam whoring. LMAO.


like small kids on the MRT.


marilyn; nic; hazel


the other side of us.


train waiting is extremely boring.


never leave home without your cam


reflections


tired jan


where's the old me.. =/


see the pink thing? I WANT THAT!


we didnt see anything (p.s i wasnt trying to be an asshole here. but, we all know lar arh. LMAO)

THESE was yesterday

dinner at MOS.


norm in chinese lessons


JACK doesnt know how to spell my name.


had national day celebrations in school today.
MI is pathetic. seriously.
*shakes my head*
superduperwhooping pathetic.
hurhur-
the ceremony was deplorable.
the band was downtrodden.
the marching was contemptible.
the celebration was poignant.
sighs. it kinda reminds me..

reminisces
thinking back.
days in NPCC were quite pleasant.
and i do miss those days.
shouting at the top of my voice.
scolded at for any misbehaviour.

the endurings i tahan-ed.
the pumpings i kena-ed.
the laughters we shared.
the mud we've soaked up.
the tears we've cried.
the shit we've crapped.
the time we've wasted.
the fun we've enjoyed.
the anger we've surpressed.
the C-M-I juniors.

sighs. i do miss the days ya.
im sure its not only me. lols.
NP life has been the most memorable days.
altho the Uniform is superduper hot.
the trouble of polishing my boots.
the toil of undergoing the trainings.
the hassle of coming back to march every week.
the yucky digusting mud.
the depressing results.
the joy of making so much more friends.
the superduperwhooping hot sun above.
the superduperwhooping stern officers.
the superduperwhooping fierce seniors.
and most importantly,
the superduperwhooping cannot-do-without friends.
guowei, sam, gwen, yongquan, bobin, kenneth leong, rong chang, mark, muz, kenneth quah, sabrina tan.
and my superduperwhooping fantastic campcraft mates.
gwen, ronghui rong xian, rong yuan, stephanie, tricia, irene, and blah blah blah.

oh wells.
it's been years since i last went back HKSS.
lols. the guilt's bothering me.
oh wells.
and i heard,
the campcraft team after my batch,
is.. superduper cannot make it. =/

dear enqi,
love!
dont emo lar.
what's there to be emo bout?
LOOK,
nic is emo no more. =D
i think i've gotten over my pretty past.
now, all i can think of is..
LMAO. XD
cheer up lar. heh heh.
think of the person sitting behind behind you.
erms. altho he smokes,
but.. eh..
im not interested.
this time i wont fight with you.
LMAO.
anyway, since when have i fought with you eh?
im not gwen. =/

come to think of it,
i dont really blame her know.
in fact i'd like to thank her.
for taking mark away. =D

hence,
my pretty past.
and my magnificent crush. =DDD

duh. went out after school just now.
went to town. bahhh.
town is getting superduperwhooping boring leh.
how arh? lmaos.
ad lunch at taka.
everybody ate torri Q. hahaha.
so darn lame. XD
and then walked to far east.
far east is boring too. =/
adui. how arh?
lmao. eh.. and..
we walked and walked..
and then i got tired.
so i went,
my leg very tired leh.
lmao.
nobody bothered. =\
and then they decided to go bugis.
BUGIS got no aircon leh!
lmao. so i decided to go home.
heh heh heh. =D

ooooh ooooo!
i bought a new book!
wheeeeee~
lmao. lmao.
im so super elated.
its been a long time
since i read a proper book.
its time!

oh ya.
as i watching tv,
i saw this advert bout tonight's show.
and i thought i saw a picture of a place
i never fail to frequent.
since i was in my mother's womb,
all the way til im 17.
and still will frequent
no matter how old i may be. =D

my church.
is featured on channel 8 tonight.
stations of the cross.
imma true blue roman catholic.
that's my faith,
and im proud of it. =D



i know this is a feeling
that i just cant fight.
your the first and
last thing on my mind. ((: