Mel and Greg and Ben and Me (:

So Mel finally came and talked to me. Me and Mel and Greg, we all felt the same way about youth now. That's rather sad. But, it's how things are now. Cat's flown over to the UK, and if Ben decided to leave for Aust, it'll be just the three of us left. That's pretty sad, isn't it?

Now now, I can't wait for Bintan next June. It'll be when we finally can get together again! (: But it seems pretty far away from now. It's merely the end of June finally. And saving isn't coming along well, with me spending so much on I dont know whats.

Oh oh, Mel and I were talking about how weird it's gonna be, on one fine day, while we're flying to some place for a holiday about 2 to 3 years down the road, and hear:

"Good morning passengers, i'm Benjamin Lim your captian speaking."
(if it's not funy enough, try to picture Ben saying it in his super funny tone)

Hahahahaha. Okay Byebye.

I've shifted!

Thanks to the nosey relatives i have. There was no other choice but to shift.

new friends found

Hello, I actually contemplated about blogging here instead of the blog shifted to. But decided to blog here anyway. Made new friends, some really awesome people. (: I'd post photos of all of them, but i only have one guy's picture, hmm. Let's see, there's Jenny, Hong Lin, Dick and Wilson? So there:-

His name is Dick, he's really awesome (:

More in my secret place. Byebye.

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

Revived? Not.

Hello all!

Sitemeter tells me that even though I've shifted temporarily, there're still loyal readers coming here now and then to check if I've updated. I'll let you in on some happenings in my crappy life:

I'm going to buy a DS Lite. (Old news)

Boo's gonna buy a DS Lite too, upon realising that there's Guitar Hero!

I'm going to buy Nikkon S52 for $400. (New!)

Boo is going to buy his DSLR. (Should spend the money spreeing instead :X)

Exams have been a killer these past few days. (should be better tmr onwards)

Alright, that's about all. tsk.

Oh oh, MOOMOOCOOW is having super cool pre-orders! Not kidding. There's:

• Edible "Make Your Own Candy" kit going for just $10, directly imported from Japan. HOT! HOT, VERY HOT!
• Boho H-Bands, below $6. HOT!
• Mini Crocs Handphone Strap at only $4!
• Dresses!
• Skinny Shorts [FOR GUYS]
• Zedane Shorts [FOR GIRLS]
• Abercrombie and Fitch Polo Spree!! HOT!

How awesome is that! Visit okay? You won't have to pay just to view! Go on, CLICK HERE.
Oh yes, anyone can buy from MOOMOOCOOW, even Hello and Yay. :D

I'd say go to YELLOWUNDERWEAR too, but there's nothing opened at the moment. lol.

Okay, Byebye!

SHIFTED TEMPORARILY (:

STILL ON HIATUS

Hello, im back.

this space is still on hiatus though. I'm just here to complain about the crazily packed library. every table and every corner of the floor, is covered with people. People who have nothing better to do, people who are attempting to mug. So i thought i could go to the children's section of the library. BUT, wtf, all the people are here too! Kids running around, people trying to mug, malay kids reading aloud, and stupid chinese guy singing. So i decided to share a table with this chinese lady, and wtf, she's playing viwawa. zzz, comon man. im trying to mug and there's no space anywhere for me to mug.

I'm running on battery now. I need her to stop playing and give me the plug. zzz.

bye.

Change!

HELLO ALL.

I AM GOING TO CHANGE MY BLOG'S URL SOON.

Reasons being:
My mother's relatives are fucking nosey.
Anonymous taggers are irritating.
I don't like too much traffic here.

So, I'll just inform the people I want to read my blog. (:

Ta-ta!

P/S Hello Aunties, that wasn't my credit card, stupid. 40+ years of age, yet unable to realise that without my mother, I am unable to apply fo a credit card. ARE YOU STUPID OR TOO OLD TO THINK? Maybe yall would like to hurry and finish reading my 4 years worth of blog entries, because soon, you won't be able to find my blog anymore. Aww ):

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Oh yes, HIATUS until i decide on a new URL.

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hello i love hello

Hello hello, I just had the sudden urge to speak to you.

I would love to quote your words and laugh at you some more, but we all already know how dumb and contradictory you are. So I shall not quote you anymore.

I was just telling Jon Chua how silly you are, and how forget you tend to get while tagging at my board. Forgetful as in, forgetting to use your brains first. My boyfriend not spending money on me means that I am not worth the money. So... your boyfriend spends hell lots of cash on you, would mean that you are worth the money, which also means that you are a very good cluck cluck? tsktsk. Okay, okay, i shan't be so mean now.

and yes, as i have mentioned, i never liked to be dependent on anybody. Not my parents or my boyfriend. If you are so dependent on your boyfriend to get you stuffs and spend money on you, go find a sugar daddy, be sure that you find those who're really old in age (they die faster). Lolol. I don't see what's so bad about being independent. You'll have to be independent some day, well, unless you want to be useless and clinging to someone when you're 30+ of age? Im not saying you can't but im just not advising you to, it's quite demeaning for yourself.

Im not what you called me you know, it's actually called capitalistic behavior technically. You're guilty of it too, well, the fact that you proclaimed that your boyfriend buys you all sorts of rubbish. So in your own words, hey! you are a materialistic bitch too! congrats! rofl.

Im pretty super high right now, so im getting happier by the end of this post. It makes me wanna type more. Hayl might think me crazy, but lol, she's almost on par. You might think that this is stupid because you wont read whatever i should type for you to read. but by reading until this line, you've just read everything you didn't want to read! am i powerful? rofl.

ohoh! my boyfriend loves his independent girlfriend. so it didnt procure the type of reaction you wanted. awww, but then again, you should know that the kinda weird reaction you want from us, is rather rare. and you wouldn't be in the luck to get the kinda reaction you want from us. so, awww again. LOL.

Yes, i like your determined character, if i fail, try again and again. but, im just wondering, doesnt all these taste of defeat make you feel even more inferior than you initially was? boy, have you sucha big passion for this hobby of yours. But it's okay, as i would always say, try again! and again and again and again. even tho you know that you will never succeed.

You must be wondering why the hell am i sucha hard nut to crack. when everybody else provided you with the reaction and entertainment you needed, im not even budging. i can tell you that i dont know why either. you can keep on trying or you can find someone else, say your best friend? ROFLMAO.

IM STILL BUYING THE DS LITE. Sucka.
I think im kinda outta my mind at this point in time. ga gaw ho ga ha wee lol.

it's a capitalist world

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

I WANT TO BUY A DS LITE.

Yes, I want to buy a DS Lite.

But, they don't have a RED DS Lite. I loathe that Red + Black thing. So ugly. Damn.

im happy

I would post pictures if the stupid bluetooth is working.

Anyways, it's really good to see brother sticking his fuzzy wuzzies on his wall after confirmation camp. it makes me happy, it meant that brother felt God working in him and he knows that God loves him now.

I still have my fuzzy wuzzies on my drawer, those from the con camp i facil-ed two years back. Leadership in church is definitely better than anywhere else. Nothing beats helping others get closer to Him, and letting them know that He loves all of us, and we are precious in His eyes. (:

Oh yes, work officially ended today. Pay coming in at the end of this month. =D woots. made new friends, lol sat at starbucks and talked for about an hour and then parted. kinda fun lah i guess. hurhur, other than that golden shit head. HURHUR.

will post pictures of my brother's wall when the blue tooth works. hahaha.

MY BLOG

Hello all who reads this space,

this space is actually my personal domain: http://www.nicoooooole.blogspot.com/ I have the rights to type whatever i feel like typing here, with no obligations or restrictions.

Definition from http://www.wikipedia.com/:

Personal blogs
The personal blog, an on-going diary or commentary by an individual, is the traditional, most common blog. Personal bloggers usually take pride in their blog posts, even if their blog is never read by anyone but them. Blogs often become more than a way to just communicate; they become a way to reflect on life or works of art. Blogging can have a sentimental quality. Few personal blogs rise to fame and the mainstream, but some personal blogs quickly garner an extensive following.

The above shows the definition of a personal blog. If i should have readers who DO NOT understand the above paragraph, then i should think that you are not of the same calibre, and should not even be reading this space.

I have a few readers who, by right, should be closer to me, say RELATIVES. These people, i must say, are fucking nosey. I would first, like to emphasize that this space is my blog, and i can and will type anything i feel and want to here. You have NO RIGHTS, to comment, or to criticize. Next, I'd want to defend myself by saying that i know shit about whatever happens to my cousins' relationship with their partners, and have absolutely no fucking wish to know any fucking thing that's related to them, or THEIR PARENTS. Solely because i have never liked them ever since I started to know what is right and what is wrong. I'm not even paranoid that if they should read this entry, i might get into trouble, cos i simply don't fucking care.

You know, you can nag at me when you see me, lecture me for whatever shit, I DON'T GIVE TWO HOOTS, but what the fuck? You have problems with my blog as well? Fuck no. Respect, i gave due to you. But this, fuck you, no way.

Oh yes, not to mention, I can type anything here. My aunts suck to the fucking core. I have had sex with a million other men. Joey is fat and ugly. My uncle is crazy. I hate my mother's sister. My mother's brother's wife has aids. My cousin is mentally retarded. Benedict is gay. My cousin's girlfriend is ugly and unreasonable and spoilt. Practically everyone on that side on my family is stupid and stupid. I am clever and highly sociable and sexy and hot. My father is going to be the richest man in the entire globe in 3 days time.

Who gives a fuck about Benjamin and Cathy anyway, I've never liked them in the first place. Besides, I have better things to do. HURHUR. What a joke.

XOXO,
Nicole.

I hate these people who put words into my mouth. Please, have some brains before you try to assume. Wtf is wrong with you people, I hate you all, so i dont attend Saturday masses. And super amazingly, yall still can find faults with me. Whoa, yall fucking power, i have to bow to yall. Knnbccb. Fuck you lah. Everyday talk about praying to God, talk about being close to God and close to church. But the mouths yall have, fucking deadly, on par with Satan's. Go to hell lah ccb.

Oh yes, must be Joey who announced my blog to the whole wide world. Fuck you too, maybe that's why there is absolutely no reasons why i should like anyone of them from that side of the family. They all suck equally, like communism, suck cock.


Forgive me for being so vulgar, it's really something that i need not tolerate. Fucking pissful.


P.S oh yes, i forgot to add on. I am solely independent of you people, i wont die without you people, i don't need you, i don't wish to be associated with people like you. I do not depend on you for anything, and refuse to allow myself to accept any help from you. Moreover, i am more than elated to be detached from you. You have the rights to voice out your comments, like ALWAYS, but i will not be obligated to listen to whatever my mother will have to say after you complained to her.

From hereon, you shall just be my relatives in name, i have no obligations to treat you any nicer than i already am, and will not be committed be your relative.

stupid enqi, stupid boring night

Rules & regulation of this quiz: (YADAYADA BULLSHIT)

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves with answers.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Q: If your Lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
A: I will chop off his kukubird and make him suck it 500 times.

Q: If you can have a Dream to come true, what would it be?
A: I shan't tell you.

Q: What will your dream wedding to be like?
A: Like my dream wedding.

Q: Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
A: No, it's a wall.

Q: What's your ideal lover like?
A: Like my boyfriend.

Q: Which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone?
A: You should find it out yourself.

Q: Do you love your life currently?
A: Are you blind?

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached , what would you do?
A: I'll detach him.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A: You, an Enqi.

Q: Is being tagged fun?
A: Try being tagged yourself stupid tag game.

Q: How do you see yourself in ten years time?
A: Retired, around the world. rofl.

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
A: You could try guessing.

Q: What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
A: SHE'S A SUCKER, MY SLEEP TIME.

Q: Would you rather to be a single & rich or married but poor?
A: Single, rich, married and poor.

Q: What's the first thing you do every morning?
A: Open my eyes.

Q: Would you give all in a relationship?
A: Who is all?

Q: If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
A: Pick the one in the middle.

Q: Do you have a pet?
A: Yah, it's staring at you.

Q: Are you different at home/in private from what your friends know you from?
A: I'm a billion faced.

Imma tag
Hayl, she'll do it when she's bored.
Anita, if she's awake all the time.
Yuewei, if she comes here soon.
Hello, it's better than tagging anonymously.
YAY, do this 9876556789452345 times, i'll let you woo me.
Enqi x 3
, and i don't care about the stupid lameshit rules on top.

:D

I love DIY photo frames. :D

I spent the same amount of time hun took to go home from BoonLay to finish these three frames. I'm good. Dividing the costs and hard work for each frame, it's only about say $2 per frame? ROFL, the markers are stained on my hands, boo. ):

Starting work tmr, i hope the commission is shit high, damnit. Cos' i hate cheap labour, those you'd find at Macs, or any other fast food joints. Or or those typical data logger, or factory worker. To hell with these jobs man, what do they take us for? So right, if Challenger is gonna offer shit commission, imma stand at the HP booth, asking people to buy Samsung, or to walk opposite and buy from PC Connect. HURHUR. Then Challenger will be the Loser with the capital L.

Tear Drops On My Guitar

Yesterday was like a dream, a sweet sweet dream. One that I'll never forget.

Birthdays are cursed, at least mine are. Yesterday was a hoax, with lots of strings attached. My birthdays were never this happy, it was foreboding today. Yeah, it must be.

"From here on, there's no turning back, for your happiness."
He hit me at my weakest, I couldn't make a come back, there was nothing i could say, nothing would come from my mouth. He hit me spot on, I broke down.

For my happiness? There won't be any, the factor affecting my happiness is gone.

Birthday wishes never come true, I had no idea what was happening to me when i made them this year. Even the heart in Jilly, the one i rubbed with my palms, closed my eyes and made that wish. I'd give every other wish up for the one in Jilly. I swear, I promise. Silly me, wishes never come true.

I've been hugging Jilly the moment we started arguing, hoping that things will take a turn and everything to be alright again. Lol, I was the cause of today, why am I ranting?

This heart hurts so much, it's as if it wasn't willing to pump anymore blood for me. It's like refusing to do what it's supposed to do, it's starting to contract and contract and contract and contract.. I can't breathe. It's suffocating me, like it's bent on taking my life.

I took a look at Jilly and Yilong, they're not smiling anymore. They look like they've just cried, with blood shot and droopy eyes. Once upon a time, they had life within them, they could smile and talk to me. But today, they look dead, no movements, no smiles, they aren't talking to me anymore. They are like stuffed toys now. They have lost their purposes, like how I've lost mine.

I jolly well know that this post is going to invite nonames to go on a tongue wagging spree. I also know that he'll not do anything, what's more, I'm on my own now. Despite all these, I'm still typing my heart out. Allowing you to eat my heart out. You know why, because all these don't matter no more.

For here's the reason for the tear drops on my guitar:
I refuse to move on.
I hope that Jilly will keep that heart beating.

9th June 08

MAYIM with Mom, Dad and Nick.

BLACK ANGUS with BABY.

I'm a happy 19 year old girl. (:

AHEMSSS

Okay, Imma gonna say that Jon Chua is the best person I've ever known. Lol, I wanna say something out, but he'll kill me, lolololololololol.

KEEP IT IN YOUR PANTS. :X

and i hate you. RWARRR. And i know why you call me and talk already! Because the trip to Simei is ultra long! I thought you so nice all of a sudden. Stupid Kukubird. LOL.

P.S// I'm contemplating on whether or not i should change my URL and keep it from some people. Hmm.. After all, there should be a new start, isn't it so? (:

IM BORED.

EXCUSE ME jack, can you faster wake up and come over to grams? ROARR.

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Just where did i go wrong? What have i ever done? Why does things always turn out like that? I dont understand, I dont know anything, I dont like everything that's happening now. I know im not the best, but i've been trying hard, can you see, do you know? even if there's no more love, just tell me in my fucking face, i can take it. But please, dont do this to me. :(

Papa God, take my tears away please? Make me happy like i once was, I'm so sick and tired of everything.

The heart hurts like it's been brutally ripped apart, exposing fresh blood and meat, like it's a piece of prey lying superly dead infront of it's predator. =( Can you feel the pain too?

imj, ilj, iwj, but im so tired of us. :(

From hereon, am i supposed to put on a smile that doesnt belong to me? Do i have to go through what i fear the most once again? These uncertainty, makes me fear everyday. It makes me wanna escape, and run far away, where no one knows. It makes me wanna do the stupid things i used to do, to push the pain away, to try and smile like a rainbow.

There're tears, but i'm not allowing them to fall. I can feel their pain, they are all eager to drop and let everything out. But im not allowing them to, they must be contained. Cos i know if i dont, i'll never be able to get over this. Maybe a part of me, don't want to get over this. lol, silly me.

Joelle's home, I must be happy now. Lol. Oh yes, they are all celebrating my birthday today, so joyous. Rofl. Byebye.
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Find your own captions.

I'll be here, always. =)

Me is happy today, ily boo. (: