sighs.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?

I dont know who's this for but

Dear Mr Enqi's Boyfriend,
dont be a fucktard and control her okay, she's never so submissive you know. are you stupid? can you treasure my best friend before i pluck your balls and feed to the elephants. DONT you scold her for no good reasons okay, can you scold yourself before you scold her? GIRLFRIENDS ARE FOR BOYFRIENDS TO TREASURE AND LOVE, not SCOLD and IGNORE. dont lemme see you in person, or i'll slap you til your face turns blue and black like a fucking cow eating balls.
Love, Nicole.

Dear Enqi,
can you please tell me all you problems? we used to be there for each other, no matter what. from boyfriends to menses stains to the food we eat and family problems. what's left of that super duper ultra good friendship we had? you dont even tell Fen now, you dont tell me. so, you've got yourself a new friend? how can you ditch us just like that? hur? if your boyfriend's sucha fucktard, then you should ditch him. listen to me, i've never gone wrong. sighs, i dont know what more to do. i feel like a loser cos i cant help my best bud. i havent seen you in five million eons. sighs. i still love you girl, always. like best friends love each other.
Love, Nicole.

oh fuck, i dont think they will bother anyways. fuckballs.

boys and girls

boyfriends get really irritating when all they want is to sleep.
girlfriends never do that no matter how tired they are, dont yall realise?

boyfriends are fuckballs.

Random Is Good

`W850i =D
`having a PW lesson on the Last Day of school is bad.
`there's training tmr )(*&^%$#@!
`GPP is getting irritating.
`it's been a long time since i ate packet rice.
`Saturdays and Sundays are gonna be boring.
`jack took my W800i and traded in his V3x for my W850i (:
`Glade makes my room smells like =D
`jack's at delta having training now =/
`ENQI DOESN'T WANNA UPDATE ME WITH HER LIFE AND LOVER.
`i hope after all these months of hard work, we'll get a Band 1 for PW.
`i wanna watch Pirates Of The Caribbeans soon!
`i wanna sit HOTAIR BALLOON.
`ilovemybabyy <3

random is good

Tan Jack Long ask me to come to his house to take the charger and asks me to wait for him at his house downstairs to eat dinner, then we'll go westmall to change my phone. so smart, i've been scammed.

`Malaysians are airheads.
`some idiotic man brushed against my breast on the train.
`there's this cute lil babyy boy playing with me on the bus.
`jack's sister, little josey, is bathing.
`it's getting hot and i so feel like oning jack's air con.
`while i was crossing the road to jack's house, this stupid man blew his cigarette at me.
`my throat's hurting, must be josey.
`im omson bored and jack will only be back in another 35 minutes.
`OHOH, i saw this hot Caucasian guy on the train, but he alighted at Bukit Batok. =/
`josey just came outta the toilet running around. LOL.
`random is good.

bahbye pretty people (:

No More Dieting

VS

just look at that. i think, i look so much hotter and sexier.

if only...

School - Work - CCA = Ultramazing Fun

days like these are days of love(:

The Phantom Of The Opera was fantabulous okay. (:
*smiles the sillybabyysmile-

music of the night

yesterday was really eventful. today's tiring.

so i look forward to later.
steamboat with babyy (:

you had a bad day.

and my thumb hurts like omg.

Today is a Happy Day(:

Photo Madness.


Love's HairCut @ Chapter 2.

my daily love dosage.

im at babyy's, and he's taking forever to bathe.

i dont know what to type anymore.
okay bahbye.

Kiss From A Rose

somehow, i feel distant from all the people i used to know. school, competitions, camps and all other stuffs. this is weird, i've never felt like this before--i was given all the attention i want, but not anymore. it's okay, cos i didnt like those attention anyways. i just want, to be, closer to the bitches who were once like melted gummy bears. again.

i feel, very lethargic. i didnt go for YISS facil training, i dont think i intend to go for any faciling training or attending any camps any time soon. it's not that i dont want, but okay, maybe i dont feel like going. partly because i have project work and am afraid im not able to commit, and because i feel im not even ready myself, what more to facil other people.

honestly, i havent been doing a lot of things, but still i feel so drained out. i have no idea from what, but i am tired. my body's aching an i tear so easily. im beginning to loathe this life of mine, at least on my part. im really glad and blessed to have a 24 hour sweet and sugary boyfriend around my side, supporting and encouraging me all the time.

i know, there're a lot of things and people i should never have taken for granted. things like how inclined im towards math, people like jack always standing by me. all these little little insignificant things are what actually makes up my life. and to think im still taking them for granted, how unappreciative i can be ya. and damee, it's really easy to just say.

emotions are overwhelming, and sometimes after fights, i just sit and cry on my bed. my emotions are so paintaking, i feel numb all over. and sometimes, only sometimes i let asthma find me. and other times, i just take it outon myself, leaving ugly scars around. i know im silly, but i feel better this way. so i'll be like these, until i find some other better ways of relieving myself. scold me, hit me. i dont care. i maybe silly, i maybe dumb. but i know what i want.

and i want you to stay by me.
like today,
dinner with family and Jaaaack was there(:

Forever and Always

ooh oh, tell me about your week. tired? busy? dying? hectic? stressed? draining? man, i pity you.

really, im not trying to be an idiot here, but come on, tell me, who isnt lah. lolol.




i almost had to really sing "Always" to you.
but we're okay now, like we've always been(:

Project Work's really time-consuming and energy-eating okay. and worst still, it's A levels. no chance. no chance at all. i just pray my groupmates come to school everyday and do their part. yadayadayada, nobody gets perfect PW groupmates lah, but then again, every man for himself. damee, please lah, lets be serious now.

i dont like blogging anymore, cos i just simply cannot stand people blogging about every single detail about what happened earlier in the day. i think, it's sickening. but, it's their blogs, their wish.

bahbye, im gonna go back and slave my ass out.

so much for being friends

i hate Ex-Boyfriends.
Ex-Boyfriends are bastards.

honest.

Feasting=)

Seoul Garden with Baby - 5th May 2007, Saturday

i cook, he eat.


scooping like a little kid.


just like this little boy.


look, so excited like a small lil boy.

St Joseph Feast Day - 6th May 2007, Sunday

it takes three big bellies to tackle the beehoon.















look at this pretty baby (:


Jack, Nic and Adelia=)


Us and baby(:


She likes Jack(:


happy day today okay<33s

i dont deny that the volley girls are the best.

lmao.

ger is sane.

i still love her best okay.

when we go crazyy.

and crazier.

and crazier.

thats my handsome coach.

look, he's cool okay.

see, i told you they're the best.

and they are best at this.

Team MI

but there're times when things get really personal.

and they are oblivious as to how others feel.

coach too, but oh wells.

somehow, i loathe trainings nowadays.

its getting more and more sarcastic, and i hate it.

jack's asking me to join hockey, there's no politics there.

and i think, i can burn the rest with just walking. LOL.

im kidding okay, im like how noob at hockey lah.

---

feast day(:

and jack's coming to help.

oohh, im so excited for tmr.

feast day's pictures up soon.

bahbye=)

it's over.

im sad because im nosey.
and i dont like the past, therefore, i will not live in it.


oh ya, i wonder how can people go,
I is popular.
I is uber sad.
I is yadayada.



LOL.

if nothing else works, i'll do it myself

i dont care if coffee's gonna kill me,
but im gonna finish my PI.

i dont care.

phonies, so real.

on the soft pastures green,
all kinds of sweet things happen.
with birds soaring freely,
humming their joyous tune.
the sound of clear running water,
streaming through the river.
white rabbits play like no one's watching,
while horses gallop elegantly.
lying beside him, was the sweetest thing.
though he never speaks at all,
it's good to know he's there.

there i was, lying almost motionless.
feeling solitude running all through me.
he, my imaginary friend never complained.
the agony of being so helpless,
is almost overwhelming, and i let it reside.