The world doesn't stop for anyone.

Well a rather close relative just passed, and here I am at 7:43am, waiting for mother to be here to prepare for the wake. I'm not early, she's late. So I'm just sitting downstairs, watching the world getting busy.

Life goes on, the wind still blows. The world doesn't stop and stare at you grieve or anything. If you stop, you lose out and that's that.

This is probably the first time I've sat down outside so early in the morning. It does feel good actually, to just feel the wind and the calmness of the morning. No wonder the old folks enjoy it so much.

K, mother's here now. Bye.

{from the iPad}

Saturday.

I may have left school, may have forgotten how to play it properly, may have gotten very unfit. But the joy it brings cannot be replaced, I think I will always love volleyball. And my very awesome team. ♥

I can't wait to leave this place.

OH AND IT'S FRIDAY!

Damon, Sheldon and Jack. ♥

Inspiration.

I wanna stick decals like this on my wall too! But my wall is grainy to touch, not the usual smooth ones you'll find in new houses. ): The decals won't stick! Maybe I should spend my free time sandpapering my wall so that it becomes smooth. Hahahahaha.

And I need a bed frame, something glamourous like that. I think I will buy it with my next pay cheque. And a side table/drawer. And the lights, my old one burnt out.

Urgh, I just want a new room in a new house!

@#$!$%@KTJIAHVAISERUQ*Wuasdvao8druyge80arg

I am awesome.

Finally, after much research and effort, I have an awesome Facebook profile. Not that I care much but it's cooler than all your loser profiles. :D

Hi, I can haz X'mas dress. (:

Trying my utmost to fit perfectly into it.

And I've found a perfect present for Melissa already, see you at church! 

“The violets explode inside me

When I meet your eyes

Then I’m spinning and I’m diving

Like a cloud of starlings.

Darling, is this love?”

— Starlings, by Elbow

imy baby.

Friday.

I shall not lie, I woke up and realised it's Friday. Jumped outta bed and started downloading it.

Dearest Jack,

With all my heart, Nicole.

December.

You have no idea how much I want to go on a holiday with Jack.

I can't wait for Christmas to come, I'm already in the crazy holiday, Christmas-y mood. Listening to Christmas carols and writing my Christmas cards. My favorite time of the year is finally here! I just wish that Jack and I can go away on a holiday, just for a few days, spend more than a weekend together. It's been a long time since we've spent more than a weekend together, I miss him so bad. ):

On the other hand, I've stopped working as a salesgirl and I've realized that I have more time to myself - I have time to read my book, watch T.V, eat my ice cream slowly, wake and sleep whenever I want, snuggle in bed when it's pouring outside, and time to write about what's happening in my life.

I'm not saying that if I go to work, I can't do all these. But work at where I used to be sucked the life outta me, I reach home exhausted and lifeless, close my eyes and the next thing I know, I have to pull myself outta bed to go to work. That's not what I want. And I've less than a month's time before school starts anyway.

I'd really want to spend one Christmas away from home, in an awesome winter-wonderland someday.

Mel's wordpress (:

i barely have time to tumblr anymore, but Mel's awesome cos she tumblrs and when I read her blog, I reblog her. LOL.

Old Phone.

I was going through my old phone - the very first phone I had when I got together with Jack, which dates back to about 4 years ago. I had to delete my data in there cos' I'm passing it to my mom to use as a spare phone. (Some old Sony Ericssons slide up phone, it was the coolest during its reign.)

I was still a kid who had no money and back then, Camera and Mp3 player was still on a wish-list that seemed unattainable. The phone was all I got, and it was my treasure. I bedazzled it with red crystals in flower shapes at the back. The phone was uniquely mine. It was awesome, or at least until Jack got this phone with a higher megapixel camera, I can't remember what its called now. Motorola V3 or something, a flip phone with a what-was-considered-awesome-during-that-time cam-whoring front cam. 

Anyways, my Sony Ericssons phone captured our very first memories. All the good times and bad times, oh yeah, even the bad times I swear. I had mixed emotions while looking through them, I realized that we've come a long way to where we are now. We were different from 4 years ago if you were to compare us now and us then. I wouldn't say that we've matured a lot, nor would I say that we've changed to become another person. Part of who we were then still follows us, and it will follow us no matter where we go or who we've become. Part of us still loves each other very, very much, and some other irritating parts of us hates each other very much too, sometimes.

I don't know if I'm still making sense, but I hope you get what I'm trying to say because if you're reading this, and if you're who I know reads this space, you're probably in a relationship that's at least 4 years long (and counting of course). And I'm sure that when you look at old pictures and videos - if you have them - you'd feel exactly the same way. You can't put it entirely into words, you can only try your very best to describe it to another person. But you'll feel it, and you'll know it.

Boy, it sure brought back lotsa memories through the pictures, videos and MMSes. (Yes, we MMSed in the past, stfu.) Love ya TanJackLong ♥

P.S: I still have that photo that I took in your OLD ROOM with you doing something you've came to regret. ;P

Happy Birthday Uncle Ben.

That's why.

Jackkk.

Hi, both the mail client and web mail failed me because they didn't allow me to attach photos. So here it is!













I like the last 2 better. Let me know k love! :)

{from the iPad}

Location:On the train.

Hype.

you.

I love you, the love of my life

I need you, our love is right

I've found the one that my soul loves

No other love means so much

Could I have this dance?

I have become fairer, haven't I?

Could I have this dance for the rest of my life?
Would you be my partner every night?
When we're together, it feels so right.
Could I have this dance for the rest of my life?

I'll always remember that magic moment,
When I held you close to me.
'Cause we moved together, I knew forever,
You're all I'll ever need 

Friday is here, again!

I don't know if work has been fun or annoying. Well, I like work because I've a new eye-candy, and it's not really a secret and I don't give a fuck. Lol. And I hate work because some certain people really pisses me off ttm. You have no idea how much I wanna punch his face into a pulp.

I have a list of things I wanna accomplish before... Well, accomplish. So many things, too little time. :/

Gon' sleep nao, kthxbye.
{from the iPad}

Updates; though sometimes I wonder to myself, why bother?

Apple's 20th at Astons and then we moved the party to MINDS cafe at Princep. It was nice to see them girls again, after so long. They never fail to crack me up. (: 

Pastel coloured nails, inspired by the pastel colours of the iphone 4's cases we sell at the shop. So pretty, share the love with Blackberry please. Lol.

Photo frames are expensive, if I were to frame these up, the amount I'd spent on frames would have killed me. So I decided to just stick them up without the frames, not too shabby eh?

Kthxbye.

I wanna leave, on a plane, with you.

I need a holiday, with you.

It's Friday, and I've been waiting forever for Fridays.

Recreate copycats

Correct me if I'm wrong, but if I'm wrong, then it must really be mutherfucking uncanny coincidence, which will then render me at a loss for words. I don't want to be too explicit, because when you're not mirroring us, I really like being your friend. So I'll try to be as discreet as I possibly can.

How is it possible for the many coincidence that prevailed? I shall cut the crap about the superficial stuff like the things we own, but to see such uncanny coincidence in areas such as vocation and fields of study? I must say you prolly really look up to my boyf to follow his decisions, like he's the Alpha-male, so he says.

Although this barely annoys Jack enough to complain, it irritates me ttm. It's like you're both living in our shadows. I'm just a little away from the edge, from blasting into your face about originality.

Either that or airforce and law is a popular combination.

So much for being discreet, lawl.

Drum rolls and spotlights flashing.

I've always liked playing make believe.

Woke up to the sound of raindrops falling, and then it got worst, crazy drum rolls and spotlights flashing. I never liked thunder and lightning, it scares me and makes my heart jump out from my mouth. As I speak, thunder roars startle me. Stormy days like these, i hate. I just like it to drizzle for a couple of hours, maybe pour a little, not hippos and dinos of course!

I wish you were here with me to snuggle in bed on this wet wet day, honey. imy.

Dramamama

This is so adorable.

I'm so happy all my shows have returned this month! Crazy pirating and watching and smiling and crying and midnight and no need to sleep and I'm going to buy lunch now. Kthxbye.

tjl

We are crazy and in love.

(there's always this gap above my photo when I post from here)


This is us, about a year back.

I like how I still get butterflies in my tummy when I spot Jack from far, and how I have the crazy urge to run up to him and fling a hug at him. We disagree from time to time, but we'll always make up in the end.

NS has made us better, stay-in vocation makes him miss me more. Teehee. I could go on and on, and it'll only still mean I love you Jack. :)

;on the iPad.

Hi Stranger.

I got your postcard!

Only after friends abroad sent back postcards, that I realize Singapore has the ugliest/weirdest stamps ever. Examples:

Do we have a nice classic stamp?

0824 now, going to meet Xinya at 0900 for a swim. I just downed a big breakfast, I'm going to die of stitches and bloated-ness, not to mention embarrassment due to my big fat tummy. ):

imy.

Leftover chocolate bars?

I had some left over chocolate bars, so I decided to turn those 85% dark chocolate into a crazy, seductive chocolate ganarsh. Drizzled it over 2 slices of Sarah Lee all-butter pound cakes and it's mad delicious. I love chocolate. (:

Oozing madness.

Molten chocolate lava cake

After an hour or so of hard work, here's my prize. It's a pity the chocolate I used was a tad too bitter, I'm not too fond of bitter stuff. (Note to self: Remember to use 65% instead of 85% the next time) Otherwise, this cake is a total success!

I was so afraid that the chocolate in the middle would cook with the outside of the cake, cos' when I toothpick-tested it, the toothpick came out clean! I was so relieved when the chocolate flowed out when I cut it open.

I should share the recipe, shouldn't I? Teehee.

Ingredients:

2 large eggs

2 large yolks

5 tbs butter

3 tbs sugar

3.5 oz dark chocolate (65% for bittersweet, 75/85% if you like bitter stuff)

3 tbs flour

4 tsp high-quality cocoa powder (I used Hershey's)

Tiny pinch of salt

1/8 tsp vanilla extract (Could do with a tad bit more vanilla)

Directions:

• Generously butter 4 5.5oz ceramic cups/bowls, sit that in a casserole dish and set aside. (I used a small souffle glass bowl)
• Combine the eggs and yolks in a large bowl, add the sugar and whisk until it's light and foamy, lemony in color.
• Place the butter in a separate (microwavable) bowl and break in the dark chocolate. (3.5oz is the standard 100g chocolate bar) Melt that in the microwave on low for about 5 seconds, on defrost mode. Stir the mixture until it comes together to form a nice chocolatey color.
• Combine the chocolate mixture with the egg mixture and whisk. Sieve in the cocoa powder and flour. Whisk it altogether.
• Pour the mixture into your ceramic/glass bowl, and tap it down to remove air bubbles.
• Plastic wrap it and refrigerate for 30 minutes.
• Pour hot water into the casserole dish, halfway up the ceramic/glass bowl/cup.
• Pre-heat oven to 425 degrees F (218 degrees C) and bake for 15-17 minutes depending on the size of your cup/bowl. (Once it is cake-y on the top, it should be done)
• Allow that to cool for 15 minutes before serving.

If I can do it, you can prolly do a better job. :)

As happy as a lark.

Jack's 8-5 temporary posting makes me very happy! Dinner is never boring and alone anymore, as all good things come to an end, we're left with 2 such days. I'm going to dread his stay-in posting so much after this.

Frozen champagne grapes now! Bye.

Location:Woodlands Drive 73,Singapore,Singapore

Grow old with you.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you

Kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you

Feed you

Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink

I could be the man who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you

Who do you, who do you think you are?

I really like this hobo.

This hobo is USD$18, but it cost USD$40 to ship it over. In what madness is this? I'm so depressed now, I hope this hobo comes to Singapore's F21 soon. I like how it opens up, and I like how it's so hobo-ish. The lady looks pretty freakish though, I want a hobo like this! Singapore's F21 suck balls. Rawrr!

And on the 10th of September 2010, I bought my sports shoe.

It marks the start of an arduous journey for me. It's not all bad, I had laksa at Queensway and went to aeroporto to fetch mom, which means new clothes from Taiwan! I feel that the shop that sells laksa at Queensway needs to provide bigger portions of laksa, NOT ENOUGH LA.

Sunday is baking day at Grans'.

Baked muffins and shortbreads with Joelle! Well, could be better but it taste awesome despite the texture of the muffins and the shortbreads! Better luck next time!

Jack keeps rambling on and on, talking to himself, then talking to me, then starts talking to himself again. It's pissing me off to no end. He keeps saying that he's just telling me, but the way he says it is like omfg,  "freedom" of choice. When I've set my mind on doing something, he'll provide a suggestion. When I have decided on a school, on the brim of enrolling, he pops out another school and keeps reading aloud all the details and fees and rankings and whatnot. He keeps doing that, and he's subconsciously making me go his way. I can illustrate this, here:

This post will so start a fight.

(He haven't read this and he started calling me a fucking bitch, bastard.)

Tube Lovin'

I love this ruche tube dress, GBP$39, wants!

Tube Lovin' by szekaryin featuring a tube cocktail dress

I see, I want.

I see, I want. by szekaryin featuring topshop shorts

Dear friends,

thank you for making my readership pie chart so colourful. 

Gerlaine,

Mel

and you from the United States, whoever you are, leave a comment, I wanna know!

♡

Letters to Juliet

I adore films like these, yes I am a hopeless romantic, you can't blame me for that. Films like these makes me tear and smile at the same time, and it makes me reflect on everything. It's kinda hard to say what I'm reflecting on, but all I can say is this film is an apt portrayal of the saying: If you don't treat your girl right, some other guy will. And you can't blame her for taking flight.

I feel overwhelmed with emotions right now, yes, right now, at 0345. I'm just random like that.

Constant fear

I always panic when I see hammo lying in his home like that, because he's so old now, I keep thinking he dropped dead. And every time I will knock on the glass/poke him/shake his food bowl to get a reaction from him, and every time he will jump right up and scurry over to me. What a relief.

It's not funny Dugong, don't ever do that again. ):

I feel you.

My owl stuff, oohh.

Polaroids are crazy love.

Dinner at FEP.

And shimmery hammy being a bummy.