A penny for my thoughts

a penny for my thoughts

nah, I dont want any penny. I just wanna empty my head, heart and frustration vault.

for a start, i'd like to empty the benjy vault. HAH.
I can still remember clearly, the day he came up to me and asked for my number. it's quite a miracle how a question can bring us to where we are now. haha. I know i've been unreasonable, I know i've been absurd, I know i've been selfish. I know it's my fault we ended up this way. and I am quite disappointed with this outcome. gone are the days where by I weep and cry alone at night, before I close my eyes and sleep. yes, I no longer cry over us anymore. but, whenever these thoughts pass my head, there's this sense of disappointment and resentment. because, it almost caused us our friendship. however, i'd still wanna thank you so deeply, for the little sacrifices and the choices you made. you know I loved you. ((:

now, as for my life.
I suppose I leaped over the identity crisis bit of my life. and I do feel that there's this load of burden missing from my chest. like, its easier for me to breathe. I know this is just a start of my great journey in life. and I know that this whole identity crisis is but a small setback. and I cannot believe that I took it like an immatured kid. probably because I dare not face the reality, because I dare not make decisions, afraid that it'll affect the near future negatively. i thank God, for letting me find myself and bringing me closer to you. like chari has said, God let this happen because he wanted me to learn somethings. and, it's great. i love my life, now. ((:

iJACKyou.
and between now and then, till i see you again, i'll be loving you. love, me.
you make me smile allll the time. buay tahan you lah. xD

this is your conscience talking to you.
i feel.. urgh! sighs. once and twice, the thought of letting go scraped pass my mind. and i feel stupid. i mean, like what chari has said. like what enqi has said. but still! i feel baaaaaad. )): walan. buay tahan liao lah. i think i should go sit in the middle of the road and wait for an on coming car to kill me. or maybe for someone to pull me away. tsk.




ijackyou. x)