and then came this day,
when God saw right thru me.
the child who never fails
to smile and laugh
is the child with the
deepest fears and tears.
i feel my life
is filled with stuffs
that insist my decisions.
friday
after school
went home
bathe and rushed out.
met JACK at cityhall.
went to esplanade's haagen dazs
had FONDUE. =D
and then met SAM.
went to walk
ALL OVER THE PLACE.
and started to play
some dumb crocs/baii thing.
and guess who's the poor thing one.
HAHAHA.
and then walked to
NATIONAL LIBRARY.
met the rest.
and entered the dumb theatre.
the play was quite entertaining lar.
but then mummy was so jumpy.
made me so pissed.
like its my fault
the play ended late lar.
!#$%^&$#!#$%!@!!
saturday
slept in til quite late.
and then woke up.
JACK and SAM
were gonna get MANDY's present.
so i waited til mummy left before i leave.
and then went to meet em.
was quite pissed off as normal. =/
and then went to WISMA to look for them.
and we walked some more.
and then JACK has to go for some cip thing.
me and SAM went to starbucks.
started to DIG for money. LMAO.
and then SAM,
of all things go and spot JAMES.
well done SAM.
and then we decided to run away.
and JACK took FOREVER to come.
we went to cine.
and then saw STEPH and her bf.
and then i saw HANQI.
lols. and his gf. RACHEL.
from cj i suppose. lols.
he's like still so darn HAWT.
but then a lil fat arh. LMAO.
and then JACK came.
and then i became emo.
not that i wanted to.
but then SAM asked bout benjy.
HANQI asked bout benjy.
thus, circumstances made me
feel like a fool.
and then finally persuaded
JACK to watch movie.
caught CLICK.
well, not exactly very funny lar.
but it preached:
family comes first.
yupp. indeed. ((:
and then today,
mummy told me and nick
to decide
to stay or leave.
i pray that she didnt mean
anything she said.
i dont wanna choose.
i dont wanna make a decision.
so not willing to.
sighs.
this, is my life.
i suppose.
and because mummy's having pms,
SAM and JACK
went to watch
the fast and the furious: tokyo drift
WITHOUT ME. )):
bahhhh!
and enqi made me realise.
that loving benjy,
has now became
a habit.
a habit of loving someone dear.
a habit of having someone in my heart.
a habit of having the heartbreak.
a habit of crying alone.
a habit.
this habit i must try to break.
procrastinating this love.
now, its becoming
memories.
just memories.
that reminds me that
once in my life,
there's this person
who was willing
to give his life for mine.
thank you darl.
i love you still. =)
benjy and nic are friends.
just one question;
will you still love me in the morning?
my faith.
just recently,
i've been questioning God.
i know i should not.
but, things that happened.
made me feel..
feel..
unwanted.
where's mummy's trust in me?
why must she make me choose?
why cant i mend my broken friendship?
i've been trying hard.
sighs..
my passion.
faded. =)
there's this sense of relieve
in me that i cant explain.
it's been time it came. ((:
PICTURES!
SAM SAM SAM SAM SAM
JACK JACK JACK JACK JACK
LMAO. look like small kid.
SAMANTHA
guess who she's smsing. LMAO.
my passion = numb.
suddenly i feel damn nice.
cos i never put up the
UNGLAM pictures.
wahahahahahas. =D
and i shout:
i'm the new tardy queen! =D
no. wait,
why dont i find it surprising?
LMAO.
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