changed in life

i take it like a man

in my life, there're always oncoming problems. i've always tried to avoid. this time, not only i confront it face to face, im trying all my best to solve it. =)

emotions are not gonna put me down. i've been trying, and its not really working.

and.. sighs.
i broke my promise, tho i didnt cut.
but i still inflicted pain on myself.
and i broke my promises, to God.

dear lord,
you know sometimes, i try so hard to take things like a man.
but lord, why does things keep coming my way? it's not like
i am some supergirl who can take things as and when they come
i know sometimes, its not you who let things happen, and i believe
everything happens for a reason. but this reason isnt getting to me.
i forbid tears to flow, because i know you wouldnt want me to cry.
and because i know if i cry. people around me will be affected too.
i take it like a man. but it goes against the way i am, to put my
human nature down. i confront things when they come. and this
courage, came from you. i thank you lord. for all my friends, for all
the smiles, for all the happy things in my life. and i pray lord, that
all the unhappy things will go away quick, i wanna be happy, i wanna
be myself again. i do miss me. alot. ever since i broke with benjy, i
feel that i've been hiding my true self beneath. i suppose benjy didnt
have a good time either. i ask God to help him to move on, if he hasnt,
and if he already did, then i ask God to give him all the strenght he needs.
this ought to have came earlier, but better late than never.
iloveyou. ((:
loves, nic.

i love CHARISSA AND SAMANTHA.
and i want you to know that God is always here for you like he is for me.
God loves you too. ((:

i love XIE ENQI.
i love you i love you i love you.
muahs* ((:

i know this is a feeling i just cant fight
you're the first and last thing on my mind. =D