just as well

it's okay. (:

i've never really loved you anyway. haha. it doesnt really matter. lols. =D


enqi, im okay. hahas. this isnt the first time anyway. lols. i've gotten used to the heartbreak. oh naw. should i say, i didnt really loved him anyway. did my heart even break? lols. funny how i felt nothing last night. hahaha. i didnt cry and i didnt get angry. haha. ok mayb i did cry. but i stopped like after awhile. lols.


i sat on my bed the whole night and i stared at the ceiling. i didnt feel anything. it was until 4.58 i decided to try and sleep. hahahahahaha.


two times. two times you tried patching with an infactuation in your heart. haha. how fair was it for me? lols. it's okay. haha. like i've said, i didnt really loved you anyway. hahaha. just as well. ((: i'm still a very happy girl. cos i never loved you. HAHA. it's good to see you disappointed. did you cry? haha. that's pretty enjoyable. can we do that again? lols.


im going sentosa's! muahahahas.


5:41pm
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the second time my heart broke.
i lost you again.
i lost you in the end.
you can only be my friend.
it didnt feel any good.
not a single bit.
yeah, i dumped you.
i know that. of cos i know.
haha. how can i forget.
saying so many things i didnt mean last night,
but in the end,
with him around,
i just have to say how i really feel.
i was pretty vulnerable last night.
i felt like i was going to die.
i was gonna D-I-E.
my heart stopped beating.
i stopped living.
maybe if you'd just tell me,
i just dont love you no more.
i might feel a little better.
talked to God last night.
slept at 5 cos i had blocked nose.
started wheezing when i decided to go to bed.