twist my life pls.

HAHA. some times i wonder is my life really so perfect?

what i dont know cannot hurt me.

sometimes, there're quite alot of things i'd rather not know.
and sometimes, i only wanna hear the truth. not some very nice reasons that make absolutely no sense at all.

nic tells herself. give him some time.

but time is all he needed to make nic cry over and over again.

nic also knows that it's quite hard on him too. nic tries to understand. nic waits. but little did she know that love's not coming back.

enqi says, the more pain you felt in love, the deeper you are into love.

nic cant help but to agree with this.

nicdontwantyourpromises.keepthemforsomeonebetter.nicdontneedyou.bethereforsomeonemoreworthy.

nic tried so hard to prevent history from repeating. but nic failed. nic may excel in every other aspects in life. but nic has fail terribly in love. i think nic will never dare to thread on love again. i dont know how to let someone else in. i dont know how to make them stay.




i thank you. for showing me what pretty love we've shared. and this love, like you've said, is more then some people have had in a lifetime. ((: i thank you for trying so hard to fight for us. if i should realise that our love was so difficult and such a pain, i wouldnt have accepted you. maybe then, we wouldnt get hurt so bad.


you know sometimes, when your trying to forget a girl and make her give up. just make it extreme, and not drag and hold on. maybe you think she'll feel better. but reality is you'll make her feel like she's unwanted and made used of. it makes her feel very redundant and useless. and to think she shed tears for him.


a part of nic is now perpetually missing. i'll try really hard to find it back. and only then, she'll will be nicole.


maybe nic's glad it finally ended. nic thank God.





[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] lo v e.id on twa nty ou r es im orp. *twosevenfive. says:
HAHA. im pretty sure. ((:

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
ERMS.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
alright if u say so.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] wheeeee.. says:
hais.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
uhhh .. u stil hv me..((:

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] wheeeee.. i find nic retarded. LOLS. says:
HAIS.he ask me for permission. what does he really want from me?hais.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
he dont want u to be sad.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] wheeeee.. i find nic retarded. LOLS. says:
isnt he making me more sad? what i dont know cannot hurt me.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
he's makin u give up.tt's e obvious.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] wheeeee.. i find nic retarded. LOLS. says:
and he said he cannot put what he wants in first place. and now he's telling me he likes jack? why dont he just tell me he dont like me anymore..? why does he still tell me all the thing he said?

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
it doesnt mean he dont like u anymore.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
more like he divert attn to another girl.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
but at e same tym he cant let u go..

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
tt's y he's bein dis cruel.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
dumbfuck guy.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] wheeeee.. i find nic retarded. LOLS. says:
I DONT WANT. he's always making me cry. mark did this to me. now he's doing the same.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
relax... he's stupid to let u off. wasted.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
this so fucking sucks.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
e more pain u felt in love.. tt means hw deep u r in love.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
i dont understand. so many guys are there for me. why the crap do i hold on to this fucking one.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
enqi. im so sad. hais.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
MM..ya.. ((: try nt to think so much.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
if i could i would.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
hais.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
im sad too.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
lets drown in sadness tgt..dan get out of it.((:

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
im so fucking pissed. damn it. why am i even crying? for him?what the fuck.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
well..some ppl say if love hurts it aint love anymore.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((:

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
love shld b bliss n happy.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((: forget bout benjy

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((: n u wil b happy.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
love sucks.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
love that sucks aint love.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
dey are probably.illusions

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
yea. i think so. i prolly have had illusions all along. just that i didnt realise soon enough till it spank me hard.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
mmm.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
lets just say..guy's dumb dumb nature.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
if love was this difficult, i prolly shouldnt have accepted him in the first place. first was his sweet nothings. then came his lil nonchalent side. finally the lethal move.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
if any1 kno e future..((: dan dere wont be any disasters.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
unpredictability. kinda sucks.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
well... fate has it works.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
why not say man dont treasure what they have.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
maybe u will be with a person u love n love u more..((: in e unpredictable future.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
well..tt's their nature.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((: no 1 can change it.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
this im pretty sure. because nic has no lack of suitors! ((: HAHA. kidding.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((:hahas.im sure of tt too.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
lols.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
HAHAHA. so rubbish. lols.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
hahahas..ers..

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((: i share my xiaolong with u la

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((((:

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
LOLS

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
tsk. I DONT WANT. haha. i want Benahem. LOL.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
wahahahahas.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
wth is benahem? e volleyball guy? hahahas. erms.i tink he looks a lil...gay.. well..((: just my opinion la.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
OEI. thanks arh. what a friend hmph.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
hahahs.. i tink my andy low look like dumbfuck.. he looks like someone who ppl wil want to whack

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((;hahas

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
dont love you liaos. dont friend you liaos.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
i tink huifen's andy look tooo white..n too lame..((:

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
LOLs.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
but ur benahem...

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
he looks a lil cute.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((: a lil..((: n he knows hw to pose.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
HAHAHA. omg. STOP. nope dont even think bout it..

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
hahahas.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
stop wad?

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
LOLS

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
but enqi's xiaolong cutee

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
((:

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
TSK. dont pretend. my benahem better. HAHA. i think sr5 olso good looking can. but cannot find. HAHA. i think Jahem also not bad. least he makes nic smile ALL THE TIME. haha. ((:

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
no. i dont tink ben looks rili handsome.i think xiaolong looks bettter.((: ehs.jack.=.=no comments more.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
hahahahas.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
sorry. ben xiao jie zhao dui xiang bu kan wai biao. shi kan nei xin de. ((:

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
hahahas....xiaolong's nice.. he make me LAUGH. andy's nice..he entertain me oways..

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
ahahahas.

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
wai biao hao kan ke shi nei xin xiang da bian. omg. xieenqi. dont split heart. AHAHA.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
enqi wants to sleep . enqi's tired about evyting. tired of watchin soapy dramas whn life's alr dramatic..hahahas.so i wan to sleep le..((:

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
orhs.dont split ah

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
but both looks cute n both makes me laugh..n both are rili nice

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
nic wanted to tell you i wanna slp too. HAHA. got volley tmr. omg. tireds. HAHA.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
hw to chooosseee

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
lols.

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
alright.sleep..(((:

`恩其- the never ending scandals. [..ah..misaki..ah..xiao long...hahahas.((: ][Lolita.] says:
nighttsss LOVE~

[ ..nniiccooooLe-* ]] and i tried so hard to prevent history from happening. says:
slp sweet. ((: nic is sad. hais.




that's my enqi for you.
that's a very saded nic too.
*shrugs-

































































































enqi says:
forget bout benjy and you'll e happy.

nic, do you think so?
love sucks.


oh and my laptop's working.












-drowns in her tears and sorrows.