suicide note.

same time last year, i had my fair bit of fun. (:

this year, its a lil different i guess. i wonder why.




sighs. i know benjy's a nice guy. it is my fault this time and i admit it. maybe lets just leave it here and not mention bout it already okays? =)



hmmm. had volley training today. lols. coach is a big bully lar. omg. apparently only bully me. wth lar. the balls he smack to me damn hard lar. then all like so hard to recieve one. then say me. )): sad lar. hais. say i dont know how to recieve ball. den say i lazy. HAHA. OOPS. =X not exactly true lar. but.. HOHO. im nicole man! HAHA.

joining the pre u 2s on wednesday i think. if the rest going lar. HAHA. damn enthu right. LOL. aye. i wanna play lar. lols. so sians one. but training's cool. takes the load off my back. =D




ahhh.. i am going shopping again. hahas. with hazel. lols. again. was jus figuring out where we have yet to set foot in. LOLS. hazel says chinatown. WTH. hahas. and we go on thinking..






i found the reason for me. =))

i hope he has found his too.

his new reason. im happy for him. ((:









omg. no one is going for the syf thing tmr. HAHA. sad lar. everybody's using the same reason. lols. omg. wait kena detenion. LOLS. damn sad lar. HAHA. too bad. HAHA.

going shopping instead i think. hahahahas.





oooooh.. i got one of my presents already. HAHAHA. mickey mouse watch. HAHA. unclegary give one. HAHA. so nice lar. got crystal on it some more. must be damn ex. hahas. he gave me my adidas watch last xmas. wahahahas. heused to buy clothes for me ALL THE TIME. ahahas. now watches. LOLS.









i realise ive been bloggin for the past two hours plus. im lacking the substance to blog. omg. how can i. HAHA.


ok. lets see.. omg.its the secind week of the holidays and i haven started studying. HAHA. and i haven started doing my holiday homework. omg. so MUCH. hahhahs. okays. hazel and i have decided to go study tmr. HAHA. at the esplanade. HAHA. hmm confirm mahs? wait wonder off to some shopping center. HAHA. i must start! i must i must. hahas.

time i put down every other things and study. ((: i hope. hahas.





omg.paul's in singapore idol?! HAHA. dumb lar. lols. BUT they didnt win the last CHMA. =D HAHA. that brings me back to being a lil emo. hais. oh wells. oh CHMA stands for Catholic High Music Awards. ((: reminise.






OH. and the bad camp story. we're not gonna continue going on. cos our conscience spoke to us and made us realise we're being mean. HAHA. =D

















im bored. its 12.26. im not slping. omg. lien and kenneth reads my blog. i know benjy reads too. omg. HAHA. lien said. "the whole world knows your sad" wth lar. i wonder who else is reading.


ok.i admit. the previous post was done out of a lil anger and all. but.. i dont entirely mean it. sighs.






























i am oh so sad. ):