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MERRY X'MAS!

lols. yepp yepp! its x'mas again! haha. "that" time of the year.. yuppidoki! and everytime this year, i'll be spending it alone. no doubt! haha. well, get used to it nic, its not the first time.. haha.. yepp yepp! got used to it somehow or rather. haha..! oh well! ohkay! now i'll try to blog what ever that comes to my mind, cos obviously i haven been blogging.. haha!

sighs, this is life. life is cruel. yes. let me tell u a bit bout my job.

JOB.
this job, kinda sucks, but its damn good.
ok lemme explain..
it is good when u can find ppl. it sucks when u work and there's noone whose willing to stop and listen to u speak. and u'll work for nth. that explains why enqi is so damn pissed with the job. (: haha. oh well, it isnt that bad for me lar. cos i managed to get 2 up.. haha.. well more then two but only those two help me get 60 and 80 bucks. haha. oh well, anyway, i alr quit.. lols.. well, cos firstly, mummy didnt like me doing that job cos i get home late, sencondly, daddy olso didnt like me doing that job which, he jus told me recently like yesterday i think. thirdly, i was getting tired of that job and thot i could earn more doing an easier job some where else. forthly, its taking up TOO much energy doing this stupid thing. ((: thus, i quited after 4 days! (: cool right. lols. i made 80+60=140 in 4 days. oh well. haha. and in these 4 days, i only like worked 2 hours per day. LOL. swells!

OK. next up, its... bout.. hmm.. wat.. lets see.. ok!

MAPLE!
maple sucks. not cos i dunnoe how to play, in fact, imma magician lvl 12! lols. right, that's besides the point. point is, COMPUTER sucks. i cannot play after they repatch the stupid maple thing! i log in and den walk a few steps den auto log out! OMGosh! im so irritated by it lar.. til i decided not to play and blog instead! so there!

next hmm..

FELIX CHIA!
lols. i do not, do not, do not, look like hello kitty! ok! omgosh! i dont look like hello kitty lar!!! aiyoyo! cannot stand u lar.. haha.

KING KONG!!!
this is a truely remarkable show, this show depicts how u can stil find love and compassion in this stupid and cruel reality. its VERY touching. trust me when i said that, i cried watching it ok! and mr lien! i dont cry for every show i watch kay! tell me, which movie and when? hur hur hur! hmphs! king kong and ann darrow. so nice. sighs. curse the stupid script writer of king kong man! why did he have to write such a SAD ending? sighs.. actually, i olso dunnoe how to describe the relationship/feeling king kong had for ann darrow. love? lols.. i dunnoe.. too bad king kong is king kong and ann darrow is ann darrow. haha. oh well.. the person is so mean lar, wan king kong to die alr so sad, still make king kong fall from the tallest building in new york.. -.-" so mean right. sighs. a very very good film! imma gonna watch it again and again and again and again. lols. (((:

SIGHS.
well recently, jus recently, he called. uh.. and den we talked. and.. well basically talked. ok, i remembered him saying, "everyone around me has become so holy except me." suddenly i felt my heart drop as in that feeling.. and i started getting bored so i did funny stiffs dat i normally wont do.. as in to like start qouting from the bible while i was on the phone.. cos i was flipping thru the bible BUT before i could finish my qoute, he said, dont come and bible me now.. or sth like dat lar.. den he said not in the mood. and i was, totally disappointed, i mean, u dont have time for God? sighs, this jus shows one thing, he changed. totally. im totally disappointed man. sighs. and den we continued talking.. it sounded awkward tho.. like im talking to some one i dont kno.. weird but i do kno him dont i? yes of cos i kno him, but why dat feeling? i dunnoe. sighs, we used to talk bout everything under the sun, but this time its like i've nth to say to him, but i kno deep inside, i got pentiful loads to tell him.. yes i wanna tell him, of cos i wanna. but not this benjy, nope definitely not. the benjy i kno doesnt call me a flirt. he doesnt brand me that way. he doesnt avoid me, he doesnt ignore me. oh well.. sighs.. its different now nic, ppl change, circumstances change, time flies, love fades.

merry x'mas!
x'mas is here! i gotta very very long wish list. haha. those on these blog are jus 1/4 of my oringinal wish list. haha! oh well. x'mas is a time i love but hate. love x'mas of cos i do, who doesnt? haha! but every time, i'd spend it alone. alone as in ALONE. well, not literally but yeah.. alone. hais! not that im yearning to spend it with some one lar, i dont have any one in particular in mind now tho.. well, i thot i would be very nice and sweet to spend x'mas with the love of your life. haha. oh well, this apparently doesnt apply to me. sighs, not only x'mas.. its my birthday, sighs, this year, i woke up and i found myself crying in bed. sighs, i think its cos i could have spent my birthday with that person. ok, i did, but he came with her. that wasnt wat i thot i wanted. sighs. oh well, as the chinese saying goes, "hao ma bu chi hui tou chao." well, meaning, good horse dont eat grass that's behind. lols. ok it means, we shouldnt/must not dwell in the past nor to look back, nor to regret. i think its like dat lar. i dont wanna wake up next year on the 9th of june and find myself crying again. sighs. OF COS, i kno, God is with me. and im glad. i kno i shouldnt cry, cos i've God. (: