SIGHS.

there are STILL people coming to me and telling me, why dont u give him another chance? afterall, u gave mark alot more chances den u did to him. and as i was thinking bout it, ya arh, why not arh? afterall, he's a great guy. but after considering for a long long time, i decided, it is best not to dwell in the past.

well, indeed i MUST admit that He's a very nice guy. (: and of cos i kno how much he loved me. of cos i kno i mean i can feel u kno. does lil lil nice nice stuffs jus to make me smile. nice guy right? he torlerates my temper very well, altho some times i kno i go beyond the line. im sorry, but ask mark. he knos. =] wahaha. ok, out of point. as i was saying, he's a nice guy, so why dont i give him another chance since he loves me so much?

well, firstly, i did consider giving him the chance ok, but he wanted to do his O's so he sorta rejected or so to say, pushed back. so i was like oh..kay. nvm. i wait. but he nvr came back until a few days after O's ended i think. and he indirectly asked for a patch, i wasnt quite sure bout it, cos after all, we've been seperated for quite a period of time alr so i was really not very steady as before. so i was pondering bout it. AND i came to realise DAT he's already infactuated with some one else i kno. so i was a lil cross upon knowing this lar. i mean i felt cheated can. like he alr crush another girl and stil came and ask for patch lar. sighs. so cos of this i was quite mad at him for a PERIOD OF TIME. a while only lar. haha. well at least he's not like mark. (: and i thank god for that. cos it took me like ONE YEAR to heal the wound lar. now, its completely SEALED. but along came another. sighs. i guess it'll take time to heal olso.

and then, well because u kno, when we were together, his mum kinda objected us lar. altho she's very nice, but im stil a lil afraid lar. and his mum was kinda jumpy and all, well i guess its because of O's.. now dat O's over.. we might have had chances but.. this is life nicole. (:

and lastly! he's gotten kinda close to joanne and gang so i thot i dont wanna spoil them or like interupt em or wat so eva. mayb its nth lar. but i thot i should stand aside since i gave my chance away. well, to speak the truth, i do feel a lil sour seeing them being so close lar. i dunnoe.. mayb its because im me bahs. i am a lil emotional lar. so its like everytime i break, WELL I ONLY BROKE 2 TIMES, den i will have this lil sentimental feeling dwelling in my heart. that is why mark had SO many chances. haha. he jus kept trying and persisting. lols. but i want to think it as benjy's a gentleman so he doesnt force me. and i respect that altho i kno and many others kno that if he had persisted, we could have be and will be together again. oh well. thats it. yepp yepp. ((:

hello mr nice guy LIM. if ur reading this, im sorry ohkay. i kno i've said sorry alot of times alr but im super really really sorry kays. pls.. well.. dont treat me so cold can? sighs, if we're meant to be, WE WILL BE. ok? trust god ya? i'll stil LOVE u man! hehe. righty benjy! ((: thank you for everything ya? heex. =]