the world's turning

those silly smiles, are facades for you.


the entire world's turning, and im still here.
everyone's mugging, and im still enjoying life.

somehow, i have this feeling. as i feel less burdened,
i actually feel so much more frustrated in me.
i tear over almost everything these few days.
i know and i can see, that it's taking a toil on Baby.
i try to suppress it, but it just comes on me stronger.
this feeling, it feels like im... stressed up over nothing.

no, friends have never been free to hear me rant,
neither is my boyfriend free to listen to my cries.
if i ranted at them, all they could do is to keep silence.
and when im free, they are tied up with everything.
when im not, they have all the time in the world.
and when friends and Baby finally have that lil time for me,
that precious time became time for argues and whatnots.

school, other friends, work, hockey and everything else.
except time for nicole.

this probably would sound so effing emo, but it doesnt really matter now.
i feel lonely. =(