Post Holidays Mortem

565 days of pretty loves. (:

Gerlaine flew back with Krispy Kremes and it was YUMMY. (:

Met Jialong, Jon and Cheryl and had Sakae at SunPlaza.

Easter! Easter Eggs! Wheee!

Oh yes, this week is rather free and easy. LOL, I'm still freaking full after dinner today and i am so tired, even though there wasn't PE today, so i think imma go to bed, and pretend that i don't know that there's homework to be done.

Wait, did i forget to do something?

LOLOLOLOL.

p.s i love you stupid boy. (:

p.s.s i don't even know what the heck is a mortem. LOL.

=(

Caught Spiderwick with Jack at Causeway 2 hours ago. And it's 2:37am now. Was generally not too bad. Now, all i hope is for PSP to come back to mommy safe and sound. ):

these words..

I made this music player at MyFlashFetish.com.

Don't go changing, to try and please me,
You never let me down before,
Don't imagine, you're too familiar,
And I don't see you anymore.

I would not leave you, in times of trouble,
We never could have come this far,
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times,
I'll take you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew,
What will it take till you believe in me,
The way that I believe in you?

I said I love you, and that's forever,
And this I promise from the heart,
I couldn't love you, any better,
I love you just the way you are.

I don't want clever conversation,
I never want to work that hard,
I just want someone, that I can talk to,
I want you just the way you are.

I can't think of any other words that describes the sweet love i have for you now. I would love to bolditalicsunderline the whole lyrics, just to tell you how true this is. It's been almost 600 days, and this heart never did settle for anything lesser than you are. It's almost impossible to tell or show you the feeling that has been in me for all these days, I'd rip open my chest and show you my heart. I've said all the words, and I've done all the sweet things. I'm running outta words and things to do and say, but that doesn't mean that I don't love you anymore. Because this heart, does nothing but loving you more each day. So please don't ever think of giving us up, because I know that you and me, together, we can brave all storms and walk through all that may come in our way. So every time you think that times are hard and I'm not making things any easier, take a while, listen to this lyrics and we'll be better again. Jilly❤. (:

I slept the WHOLE day. (:

Life's too good to be true.

I'm not even kidding.

stupid odd shaped birds

okay, maybe I'm just tired. really very tired.

Just in case he reads, JON CHUA FORBADE ME TO GO TO BED YESTERDAY NIGHT. And just so she reads, HAYL WAS MAKING ME HYSTERICAL THE WHOLE TIME. Hence the reason for the lethargic-ness.

My muscles are aching, it's been a long time since i felt this way. I guess yesterday's training was a little tougher than usual, tomorrow will be another tough training.

And today is so *(&^%$#@*&(.

I think that Comfort SHOULD make every cabbie take and pass the Singapore Map Test. So that ALL the cabbie will be competent drivers who knows every area in Singapore. It's so irritating to meet NUB CABBIES, who try and pretend to know where the place is when they actually don't. If i weren't so tired, this entry would have go on forever.

i think imma DJ max and then go to bed. HAHAHA, bye.

i have an issue

Disclaimer:

i don't know if you guessed who i might actually be talking about in the next few minutes, i don't know if who you think i might be referring to is who i am actually referring to. i don't know if i am actually directing this entry to anyone. So if you should accidentally chance upon this, and you think that you might feel offended by what i am about to say, then i suggest you rollover the huge red X sign on the top right hand corner of your window and click it. (:

Now, now. I don't know if it's just you, or the whole world seems too rich to bother about the not so well to do. Or at least being a little tactful, in what you do or what you say. Of course, it's not a crime to splurge however you want to, because you have the ability to do so.

I personally, do not think that jealousy spurred this entry.

I suppose i have quite a lot of friends who are quite well to do, but i don't particularly have any issues with them, because they, from young, were taught that they must work for what they want. Not to depend on anybody. Oh, not to mention that they have this added value of humbleness in them, which makes them friendlier than some other people.

People whose parents who forgot to teach their kids humbleness and to work for what they want, is often spoilt and arrogant. I dare say this, based on quite a number of experience with friends who are as mentioned. I guess it's not their fault, they are born with a sliver spoon in their mouths. Prolly 100 times more fortunate than the kids in Third World Countries.

Maybe there should be a universal law, stating that people whose income which are above 10k a month are required to adopt a child from the Third World Countries, or to donate 10% of their annual income to Third World Countries.

[Starts Edit]

Now i entirely understand why the Real and Pure form of Communism is so idealistic.

[Ends Edit]

I think that there should be more people like Angelina Jolie and Bratt Pit.

Alright, i know i am off topic.
But heck, these spoilt brats, they'll never learn. They are too proud to learn.

There, now i feel much better. Ta-ta!

agenda

it makes me happy. (:

MATH EXTRA LESSONS

INTL HISTORY EXTRA LESSONS

TRAINING (:

webcam is fun!

sometimes there's a need to embarrass oneself.

alright, to the grandma's now.

bahbye. tsk.

nuff said.

I'd say...

❤STEP UP 2 is HOT. (:

it's a Must Watch.

H1

I'm pretty satisfied with my results, although not perfect or good.

Math E

Chinese B

Chinese Orals Dist

I didn't expect me to pass Math, or to do so well for Chinese. So I'm quite satisfied with my results. Jack didn't do as well as expected for Chinese, but he got a Sub pass for Math. That's considerably well done i guess. And he's gonna retake Chinese, or at least that was the last decision of the last conversation we had.

Oh, I'm gonna retake Math. (:

Today's quite eventful i suppose, FunDay, Alevels, Jack's match. I don't know, quite a lot of things happened. Which left me tired and listless. I think ima head down to lalaland pretty soon. Meet the parents tomorrow, Mum's not going, as usual. Most prolly gonna catch Step Up 2 tmr.

I can't wait!

jillyboy (:

too tired to try typing an entry. bahbye.

hauntingly beautiful classical ballet

Giselle In The Park.

It's performances like these that takes my breath away.

Jilly, imma book tickets for this. =X

temptations never fails

Movies on my list:
1] Atonement ❤
i like sappy romance flicks, sue me.

and of cos keira knightly.

2] Fool's Gold
Kate Hudson. nuff' said.

3] Playboy Cops
Shawn Yue.

4] Juno
i pay to make me laugh. it's quite a long synopsis. click and read.

5] Charlie Willson's War
Their efforts contributed to the fall of the Soviet Union and the end of the Cold War, with consequences that reverberate throughout the world today. shouldn't it be Gorbachev? i'd like to see what parody there is.

6] August Rush
The incredible story of a modern day Mozart.

7] STEP UP 2 ❤❤
do i even need to tell you why?

8] Definitely, Maybe ❤
will it be on par with P.S I Love You?

9] The Orphanage (If Jack is willing of course)
i need to excite my life

that's $6 x 9 = $54 x 2 = $108, WHOA. =/

i think jack and i could get by, if not there are always OTHER ALTERNATIVES CLICK. (:

wait, why am i even telling you why? oh wells.

my heart's bleeding

I don't want to live a lie
What can I do.


it's indeed the hardest thing. but im not looking back, unless i feel its all worthy again.

diet

Tuesday PE Wednesday Training Thursday PE Friday Training.

i think i lose 0.5kg a week.

elated, dejected.

I PASSED HISTORY,

FIRST TIME IN THREE YEARS.

I'M FUCKING PROUDA MYSELF.

Now lemme hear the applause.

*claps claps claps*

Thank you thank you, you're far too kind.

/edits.

brother is young and not sensible. he's rebellious because you kept him too close, under your umbrella of protection. brother's friends are really bad influences on him, they led him astray. now it'll be really hard to bring him back. sometimes, i feel it's useless to care about him, cos he doesn't care at all either. but then again, because he lacks the attention he needs at home that's why he seeks the attention from friends who are apparently bad. when i see him get scolded and beaten by my mom, i feel the pain. it's not that i don't care, but no matter which approach i try to make you listen, brother, you just chuck everything i say at the back of your mind. maybe you need to grow up on your own, falling and standing on your own. but don't take too long brother, it's your O's this year. you prolly think it's no big deal, but it really depends your fate and how successful you are gonna be in future. you need to think for yourself brother, which priorities are more important. mom cares too, that's why she holds you so close, so afraid that you might go astray. all your mistakes, she's forgiven you know. riding a bike brother is not wrong, even if mommy doesn't allow you now, it doesn't mean she can stop you when you are older. but what you just did, jeopardised your chances and the trust mom has in you. you need to gain her trust brother, doing all these breaks it.

the bitchy hormones are raging

This is my cousin Jonathon, i like his T-Shirt.

His school doesn't have Rubgy, and it's some water polo league tee.

so i tried to make a simlar one, it turned out like this.
isn't it cool? if i feel bitchy enough, i might suggest a jersey like this.

This is Salmon Karaage, my favourite Sakae Dish. (:

alright, byebye.

Jilly <3

Like a true classic, we've stood the test of time.

school's alright today i guess, skipped mother tongue as usual, for sakae today. =D

DJ Max is the sex lah, it's so freaking difficult that it's so intriguing. hurhur.

i have no idea why every sentence of mine are so random and don't link at all but hey, that's the way it is now. cos i cant really spare more cells to make it link, all my cells are on Jack's psp now. weird, but i don't care.

i just realised i have retarded smart fingers which cannot tell which button is which. and furthermore, DJ Max showed me how dumb cute boyfriend is. if you ever have a chance, you should see how he plays.

oh, and the way he conjures that:
those who can play DJ Max well can do Math well. people like Jon.C and Yours truly are so good in Math, and are quite 1337 in DJ Max. however, people like Eugene.O and Himself suck at Math because they don't have the talent to play DJ Max. and when he masters DJ Max, that's when he gets his A in Math. or so he claims.

and after much consideration, he abandons DJ Max and said:
jack says:
i think jeanne d arc is fun
which i suppose is denial.

i hate pop ups. they are so irritating, and there's nothing i can do to BLOCK them, it's no use even when i use the stupid pop up blocker. i wished i could burn the pop ups like how i burned my Chinese materials.

i have a busy weekend coming ahead. (it's not even halfway through the week and I'm thinking about weekends, oh wells) anyway, Saturday's car wash and and and grandpa's birthday. Sunday's Jayden's birthday. great, after sakae today, we barely have money left. HAHAHAHA.

actually i prefer long wordy paragraphs, cos it makes YOU angry and pissed off because there are so much words and you have to read them to know what happened to me today, if not i don't think you'd even bother reading until here. but, today's short sweet paragraphs cos I'm like dysfunctional, some psychomotor retardation shit. no, i'm serious.

tired properly

benjy army airshow church greg mel jack marcus joey towned grandma's walau eh school vball notice board did not do anything tmr again math teacher sucks car wash saturday IT presentation sucks school tiring cant wait trainings psp games more happy cant type properly all messed up bullet point lumped together paragraphs short long blank diction imagery structure rhyme friends minus divide plus multiply differentiate integrate very bad bored procrastination thank you see you bye bye

/EDITED.
JACK GET HOME FAST PLEASE.

P.S JILLY <3

it's forever and a day

❤ supposed to go Liquids today, but changed our minds.
❤ chomped down 5 packet of maggi mee, 6 eggs, 6 hotdogs and a huge mug of Ribena.
❤ had a bit of a rough patch, but it's rather smooth now.

❤ wanted to head down to the airshow but decided not to.
❤ expecting church and grandma's tmr.
❤ things will turn out a lot better for jon and cheryl in time to come. =)
❤ gonna nose dive on to bed now. cheerios.

❤ p.s i crazily love you darl.

poem

It's Friday night.
It's 3am.

I'm not sleeping,
i wonder why.

/EDITED.
okay, maybe i think i know why. i've been thinking about how far jack and i have gone together. all the weird funny stuff we did, all the overheated arguements, the cute pictures and all the other stuff we've done together. it's been really long huh, 500+ days.

and although we all know that you are sucha fucktard nice boyfriend most of the time all the time, i still love you anyway always. (:

P.S i love you

If there is any other movie that can be compared with A Walk To Remember, it would definitely be P.S I Love You.

i couldn't even recall how many times i teared. And how many times i sniffed and sobbed. It is definitly touching and it's really a very good movie, it could probably mark the start of all good movies to come in 2008. or at least i hope, and benjy, if you're reading, you have to watch P.S I Love You. there's finally this other movie which i think is one of the best love stories, apart from A Walk To Remember.

P.S I Will Always Love You Hunny.

watch my heart crinkle and wither

i said it wasn't me.

and because boyfriend has unknowingly became a part of me, and that he never believed me or to stand on my side. the one in the mirror tells me i need to lose that part of me. the other part tells me how incredibly sad she is, like a knife stabbed in her chest. because he doesn't trust and is not willing to fight with me against unjustified claims which was cast upon me. in fact, he suspected me. it's not the first time he did that anyway. i hate to compare, but i know there are so many people who's already standing on my side, without me having to explain the details to them. because they trust me, and they are my friends. boyfriends, are just fucktards.

Jim Brickman & Martina McBride - The Gift

Jim Brickman ft. M...

Winter snow is falling down
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on
Like a fairy tale come true
Sitting by the fire we made
You’re the answer when I prayed
I would find someone
And baby I found you

Chorus:
All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I’m thankful every day
For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep
What I’d give if I could keep
Just this moment
If only time stood still
But the colors fade away
And the years will make us grey
But baby in my eyes
You’ll still be beautiful

(chorus)
(piano solo)

Chorus:
All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
I can’t find the words to say
That I’m thankful everyday
For the gift

wtf?

this is cool shit, i got scammed by this stupid Onion News Network. super cool spoof they have there. too much free time and resources to waste. zzz.

My Valentine(:

Happy Valentine's Darl.
❤❤❤

Pre valentines (:

Hun and i headed over to my house after the papers to put the games into my RED psp. and then we cabbed to his house, and he bathed and all. and we made reservations with Plaza Market Cafe at Raffles City. and we had our pre-valentines dinner.

i'd put up the pictures if i wasnt feeling so tired, and if my head weighed lesser. i'll put it up tmr together with the new pictures if there's any. aight? (:

tmr's Jumper with Jon and Cheryl. coolios.

jack says:
why we die together?

nicole's says:
othello is gonna kill us. he thinks we snatched desdemona cos iago told him so. let's elope!

jack says:
lol. roar theres no garskin in sg

Jack's like stupid, Othello doesn't even know who Garskin is. Wait, who is Garskin? =.=

it's like, exams are over. hmm.. (:

this is a drowzy entry, look everything's ljfasdhoejgifa(*&^%$#67823743 spinning. Bahbye.

the "i" post

i believe in Karma.
i will not stoop to your level.
i think anon tags are getting boring.
i didnt sit for chinese and econs paper.
i had stomach flu, tuuuummmmyyy-chooo!
i am having history paper in about 6 hours time.
i think i will be pwned by it, so watch my head roll away.
i got my super duper red hot steaming PSP with my red packets.
i have a super blocked nose, like an elephant got stuck in my nostrils.
i love boyfriend and hope he tells me where we're going this Valentines Day.
i like how this post slides down from the top, and how colourful this post can be.
i am going to sleep and i dont care how this sentence will spoil the structure.
i hope tmr's topic would be about traditional and non traditional ideas.
i think it is quite unlikely, which means superultra gg to jack and i.
i really have to admit that my history really really really sucks.
i really am going to bed now, go i'll miss history paper too.
i am glad that, that sentence didnt spoil the structure.
i know that this looks lame and weird and funny.
i hope the longest sentence isnt the spoiler.
i dont know which colour i havent used.
i am saying goodnight and bahbye.

"Chu Yi"

that's all for the First day of the New Year. =)

the very last minute

with the help of boyfriend, i got myself a set of new clothes for New Year. (:

p.s i'll be expecting the psp in about 3 or 4 days time. i can't wait.

Dear Hello and all your counterparts(:

All these anonymous taggers, made me realise that, they are of the same calibre. Like how they are unable to spell properly, or to read and understand fully the prominent stuff on the blog. They are out to spite, which, unfortunately, does not affect me. Then again, when have i ever felt offended or inferior to what they like to say about me. Calling me bitch, materialistic and all. Comon, tell me something i don't already know? Like something new, i don't know. Oh yes oh yes, sometimes i feel really reluctant to reply your tags, cos i never wanted to stoop at your level. i firmly believe that i stand on higher grounds, compared to you of cos. And yes, maybe i could be thankful cos you make my blog more interesting than it already is. I would think and type more if i thought you were of grave importance and that you are worth my time, and apparently, you're quite far from it.

Anonymous taggers, it would take a lot more than those senseless accusations/claims/insults/whatsoever to make me flare up or cry in some corner alone.

As far as we all can see, i never walk alone. =)

we have a problem

new year's coming. i can't wait, to get my red packets. there're a lot of things i need to do and buy.

☆☆☆PSP Slim in Red


☆☆☆Sony DSCT2/G
if only they have red instead of pink. zzz


☆☆☆iPod Nano in Red

☆☆Shopping
☆☆Indulge in good food with Hun.
☆Something else, til i think of somemore.


then again, my red packets are only 600+ max, hardly possible to get all i want. zzz.

Dear Jack,

HAPPY 17th MONTH-a-VERSARY.

Loves, Nicole.

i'll always be your girl.

the sun session.

FOR PHOTOS CLICK

HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE.

(Find It Yourself. xD)

It wasn't really a successful tanning session, but we all had our fair bit of fun. With the camera, shopping, volleyball, gossiping/bitching and the perfect company of the right blend of girls.

Tanning again soon. (:

all the fun

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to win the game.

For ours is a game of volleyball. =)

hardcore

It's back,

BITCH & RANT, HARDCORE.

oh and, strictly friends only. (:

a little more than half a decade.

This is what she showed me,

BEST FRIENDS CAN BE REPLACED.

6 years, it's no big deal, haha.

it's kinda hard.

it has been a long way since the first day until today. there were much sweetness and bitterness, both happy and sad, we've been through it together. it's not easy, i must say. to maintain and love in a relationship. then again, love has never been easy. it takes a lot to keep a relationship going, sometimes, too much for one to bare. we wouldn't have lasted this long, if both of us are as headstrong. this love, has taught me much. from how to love to making necessary sacrifices, compromising and giving in. although i admit, i hate it much. but i needed to,

i just can't imagine me without you.

Imagine Me Without...

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life, you're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Oh, you know it's just impossible
Because of you
It's all brand new
My life is now worth while
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard my calling
And you rushed to set me free
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Chorus

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Chorus

I can't imagine me without you

its here its here!

They are one of the reasons why, i look forward to wednesdays and fridays.
They are people who would go crazy, and play like little mad children.
They are the ones who will do hardcore bitching like noone has ever done.
I Love My VolleyBabes.

FOR MORE PICTURES,
PLEASE CLICK HERE. (:

girls are love (:

that, is for starters. there's more to come, there below.

but first, i must say. these few days has been school and volley. (:
school's tiresome, but inevitable. volley's da love, but only for that 3 hours.
been rushing assignments, til unearthly hours into the early mornings.
and after i am finish with my assignments, it's drama time. =DDDD

and now, for the main course. (:

another 499 to 1000.

we'll be together

McFLY - The Heart ...

time passes utterly fast, too fast for memories. within the blink of eyes, benn and greg are enlisted now. greg's in tekong, and benn's a commando. now now, shouldnt i be proud?

ohoh, benn got a call from the pilot recuitment office for his interview.

benn. with the double N 722435 cream of the irish says:
but i'll probably be able to fly you around in first class

and i get to fly first class. (:

compromise and sacrifice, is prolly all love needs.

Another year over, And we're still together,

It's not always easy, But I'm here forever.

differences

there are a lot of things jack and i can never come to terms with.

and, i fucking hate it.

he's too busy for me anyway. heh.

rainy days

❤ Library, History, Pictures, Mugged.
❤ Eat, Drink, Laugh, Talked, Eat.
❤ Tiffs, Made Ups, Tiffs, Made Ups.
❤ School, Home, Sleep, Rain, Loves.
❤ We're always better together.

The Heart Never Lies

McFLY - The Heart ...

Some people laugh,
And some people cry,
And some people live,
And some people die,
And some people run,
Right into the fire,
And some people hide,
Their every desire

[Chorus]
But we are the lovers,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies

And some people fight,
And some people fall,
Others pretend,
They don't care at all,
If you wanna fight,
I'll stand right beside you,
The day that you fall,
I'll be right behind you,
To pick up the pieces,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies

Another year over,
And we're still together,
It's not always easy,
But I'm here forever.

[Chorus]
Yeah, we are the lovers,
I know you believe me,
When you look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies,
Cause the heart never lies, yeah,
Cause the heart never lies

i secretly wish..

it happens when you've been together for too long.
he's always the reason for the frown on my face.

he doesnt wanna pay attention to me,
and when i find other people to talk to,
he'll just get jealoused and pissed off.

that's why it's so empty.

who doesn't long for someone to hold,

who knows how to love you without being told.

this isn't fair. and i'm not happy like i should be.

i'm not saving myself from tears, because i hope things will change, although i know it's impossible. Because my boyfriend, he's too busy to realise until he reads, if he bothers. He, doesntcare about what i think or feel or say. lol, all he ever does is to say sorry. one day, i might feel so sick and tired. and we'll go our seperate ways. )':

hush, go to bed.

a picture speaks a million words

We've been through much thick and thin, too much to just let go of our hands. I like how we talk about our future, about marriage, children, house, and all the adult stuff. You make me feel like a little girl all over again, like i'll never have to worry about being alone and scared.

We'll be strong, like how others have said.

iloveyou sweetpork. (:

owned

after knowing the respective teachers for each subject,

I'm not ready for school.