sighs

this is weird..

and so out of the blue, he came and said,

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
i havent gone about telling you how happy i am for you and jack yet
yes
i am happy for you
=D

i love my jack says:
hmm
thank you
but,
are you angry?
i feel your..
hais nvm

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
why should i be?
i mean
ever since we broke up
all i really wanted for you is to be happy
obviously i couldnt do that
so
yes
im glad he can

i love my jack says:
you could but you didnt wanted to give us a chance. i held on, but i realised that youre just not gonna make things happen. and i didnt want to think bout these anymore.
and the feeling, eventually.. faded i suppose.

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
i knew they would
and that's partly why i didnt want to do anything

i love my jack says:
you did it on purpose didnt you
hais

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
you could say that
for the greater good
and see
you got a nice guy now

i love my jack says:
i could tell

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
(:

i love my jack says:
why must you do the things you dont want to
i dont understand lah.
i mean isnt it very painful. to make decisions like that

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
what matters is

i love my jack says:
why torture yourself like that lah.

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
it worked out in the end didnt it

i love my jack says:
i feel..
very disappointed.

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
sacrifices have to be made my dear

i love my jack says:
i know.

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
in war

i love my jack says:
but,

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
someone have to die

i love my jack says:
sigh
you never change do you
thank you.
i dont know what to say.
but, you dont have to try to make me angry with you, or to make me hate you.
because you know its not possible
just so you know, i'll always be here, as your very very good friend.
and you dont have to ignore me lah

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
nono
i was bathing
and
yes
thankyou
i appreciate it
truly
btw
there was never a thing going on between me and jack
as in
jacklyn jack

i love my jack says:
i know. i figured.

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
much less cheryl
so
ya
and you can tell your jack
if he doesnt treat you nicely
i'll come after him with my brac 4.

i love my jack says:
((:
he treats me super nicely.

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
i should think so

i love my jack says:
((:
you know i am a girl so not worthy of your sacrifices

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
and i am a boy so willing to make them for you
bah
the world's a weird place

i love my jack says:
your gonna make me cry lah

•benn. with the double N one day you'll know says:
think guns and roses
dont cry
you know the lyrics

i love my jack says:
yeah i know. hah.

yeah, the world is a weird place.

and sometimes, i wonder.
what's so good bout me.
i am a girl so not worthy of the sacrifices i recieved.
i dont understand.
and, why do people only treasure what they lost.

JACK, is someone i'll learn to treasure so deeply.
i'll never take him for granted.
i'll never break his heart.
because i love him soo much.

after talking to benjy,
i felt like crying.
tears of disappointment.
tears of disbelief.
why must anyone put themselves thru such pain,
just so i'll get over him and start a new.
i am not even worth it.
benjy had purposely spite me with jacklyn,
said things he never meant.
did stuffs he never wanted to.
just so i would forget about him,
and get on with my life.
why Lord, why. i dont understand.
how could anyone hurt themselves this a way.

thank you benjy. ((:
i'll always be your friend.
always always always.
i promise.




i so love jack. muahs*