hmm.. rightt.. my previous posts are obviously, lost.. i mean.. i cannot bring them here.. maybe its a good thing. well.. start anew.. (:
start all over again. from scratch. from nth. frm lonliness. in side me, its empty. broken. empty. empty. empty. great. im empty. haha. yay! blank blank blank. im empty and blank. boo.. i dunnoe wat to blog. im empty.
hais.. nowhere to vent my frustrations. boo. vent it on mysef. yes. i should. haha. eh.. yesterday night sucked. bloody night man. stupid thunder. made me cry. boo. mark accompanied me lar.. but.. only till 11pm.. he had his girlfriend to accompany. im like.. jus another outcast. haha. mark is nice. no wonder i loved him so much. haha. eh i stil do kay. my kor kor. haha. i think. lol. he's mr nice guy. unlike some other ppl who.. asked me whether the stupid thunder freaked me out not and started laughing.. or the other which ignored me dat night. which was yesterday night. mark's nice. mark's nice. mark's nice. hmphs. stil asked me to be careful of slippery floor. unlike the others. called me a bitch. and the other who claimed e nvr let go. ): hmphs.
speaking of mark. yes. mr nice guy. he and gwen ok le.. well.. be it due to my persuades or what so ever reasons. sometimes i think dat imma real stupid fool or what.. why am i helping someone who broke my heart patch with someone who broke my relationship. am i really helping them or do i have some other motives? if i had any motives, wat are they? if i did not have any, then why? do i not remember that they hurt me so deep? i mean one my best friend, the other the guy i lovED. com'on girl. u kno they hurt u. why are u helping them? i thot u wished to see them die? i thot u wanted to break them up. why arent u doing so?
argh! damn it. i suck. i dont even kno wat i want. i dont even kno wat im doing. boo. girl girl ur such an ass..
right. now. i need no guys. im miss independent. cos guys are real jerks. big dorks. fat liars. they nvr keep promises. nvr ever ever. they lie. they pretend that they care when they dont. they make empty promises just so that they can break it. and they do it intentionally. they said they'd rather die den to make u cry. but i think they'll gladly die a hundred times to see u cry. they are saddistic asses who think that they are always right. guys sucks. (well except for those relly nice ones) they keep insisting that they didnt give up so that they can in turn hurt u deeper and much more painful. in conclusion, guys are egoistic shit and they are all the same - male chauvinist pigs. (which they deny that they arent).
done. now i feel a lil wee bit better. i still feel lousy. i have nobody.. boo. amen.
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