Couldn't be more apt

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are but I

Im with you, Im with you

I'm looking for a place

I'm searching for a face

Is anybody here I know

Cause nothing's going right

And everything's a mess

And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me

Won't somebody come take me home

Reality stings like a bitch.

I've been sitting alone a lot lately, and I tear when images of what could have been repeatedly flashes across my mind, cos I know it would have been awesome and my life would be fantastic, that I could be so much more than I am now. And that sucks cos it ain't never happening.

Change, good or bad?

OMG YOU LOOK TOTALLY DIFFERENT PLEASE.

Skype with Joelle!

Hi, I'm skyping with Joelle and this is one of our conversation:

Joelle: How's Jack?
Me: I don't know, his phone is confiscated!
Joelle: Huh? Which phone?
Me: The phone without camera.
Joelle: Why no camera?
Me: Because it's the rule there.
Joelle: Why? Because they scared the army guys take photo of their bed?

Ah, that's funny.

Here he is:

I haven't been posting pictures of my Pudding lately, so there, a really cute one should please all of you. I have no idea why is it so grainy, prolly the bad lighting or maybe it's my bad editing of the colours. Kkthxbye.

We're miles apart indeed

According to Google Maps,

Jack and I are 35.418158 miles apart,

and 8 hours 36 mins of walking time

away from each other.

Really, we are way more than 8 hours away physically 

judging from the speed I walk.

And I'm not gonna be mushy

and elaborate about how close we are in our hearts.

Miles Apart - Yellowcard

Days before Jack enlisted, we went to Wheelock Place for Sushi. It's weird how we used to be able to eat for 3 hours, but now we can hardly last 30mins. Nonetheless, sushi was good and we loved it. Here's an eye's feast for you:

And finally, the boy I'd give the world to be by my side right now.

I miss you boyfriend. ):

Photos taken with Canon S90, edited with Aperture 3.

One track mind

I miss you crazy much.

Didn't take a plane but...

I've been to Wendy's, have you?

I'm gonna blog about my ideal birthday, not that anyone cares.

Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You

Everybody needs inspiration

Everybody needs a song

A beautiful melody

When the nights are long

'cause there is no guarantee

That this life is easy

Yea when my world is falling apart

When there's no light

To break up the dark

That's when I

I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home any more

That's when I

I look at you

When I look at you

I see forgiveness

I see the truth

You love me for who I am

Like the stars hold the moon

Right there where they belong

And I know I'm not alone

Yeah when my world is falling apart

When there's no light

To break up the dark

That's when I

I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home any more

That's when I

I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me

Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me

All I need

Every breath that I breathe

Don't you know you're beautiful

Yeah yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home any more

That's when I

I look at you

I look at you

Yeah

Whoa-oh

You appear just like dream to me

Then there are the things that constantly reminds you of your not so glorious past that you want to forget so very badly

Now that reminds me of a lot of things.

I'm the saddest girl right now, Jack had his phone confiscated. ):

9 more days til I get a hug.

I love rings, do you love big chunky rings?

Something just struck me, and it's something that I've never been able to tolerate. You know how sometimes you have certain friends who cannot really speak decent english? I have friends like that, and funny how these people like to speak in english. I abhor shitty english, I'm not even hinting or saying that I have perfect command of english, but I am confident enough to say that people can understand me without getting annoyed or trying so hard to understand what I'm trying to convey.

I'll pass on the occasional mistakes or bad spelling, that doesn't really bother me as much. Then there are those friends who cannot really differentiate than/then or few/little or much/many, I can't help it but to correct them when I notice. Mistakes like such are fine, but when I go over to read friends' blogs, I feel like stabbing myself in my thighs and chest and head.

I hate to say it but it seems like I'm judging, on second thoughts, maybe I really am. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I just cannot stand it. Maybe because I'm a literature student, because other dudes in class seem to be having the same problems, oh wait, so do my lit teachers. Do you have this problem?

Hold on, after all these rants, I don't think it's a problem anymore. This is me, deal with it, people with shitty english. Ha ha!

Visitor from Australia

HI GERLAINE!

♥

Your sweet moon beam,

The smell of you in every

Single dream I dream

I knew when we collided,

You're the one I have decided

Who's one of my kind.

- Hey, Soul Sister by Train

Bulleted.

I have been doing this way too much.

1. My Macbook died on me the day I bought my Macbook Pro.
2. I miss my boyfriend, but it's manageable at this point in time.
3. I am very hungry, but when I actually do eat, I can't finish my food.
4. Epicentre terminated me because I didn't turn up for work.
5. Previously they begged me to stay when I decided to leave.
6. I need to bring my uniform and lanyard down to the office before I can get my pay.
7. I feel fat like an elephant, but working out is too tiring.
8. All my data and files are in my Macbook, i feel like dying.
9. Basically, all I do everyday is depicted in the above image.
10. I want to go have Dim Sum at Yum Cha.
11. Mom bought us two new Wii games, Cooking Mama and Resident Evil.
12. I can't find my PSP, it must be around somewhere.
13. I'm gonna look for a job, any good ones to share?
14. I miss Jack, a lot.

That's all for now.

Nothing can be hotter than the weather in Singapore.

When the weather get as hot as it did this afternoon, there was only a few things I would die for. A cold bath, or lie on the snow out in the cold. I'd prefer the latter.

There's a reason why the above you see is called a snow angel, because the heat is too bloody hot and only a devil would survive it. As I've repeated over a billion times, I'd rather die frozen than die burnt.

Feast day today, not fun at all. I like being a kid, so I can head over to the game stalls and do nothing but play with needing a valid reason. Now that I'm all grown, I have to help everyone do everything.

Greg looks like a caveman. Mel looks pretty. That's pretty much everyone I saw today. Where is everybody? =/

I braided my hair, not traditionally but I still ❤ it.

I watched Youtube, and found the easiest method to get braids without stabbing myself. That's to braid just the front and leave the bulk of the hair flowing down. Not too bad, my arms did die a few times. This is gonna be my look tomorrow!

Damn it, I'm too fair. I look like hantu.

I ❤ braids but they make me feel like ☠

Her braids are awesome!

I'm so ashamed to say this, but I can't braid my own hair! No matter how many Youtube videos I watched, or how many times I try, I just can't braid my own hair! My fingers will get tangled up and my arms, my arms, they feel like dying every time I try! Why is it so difficult to braid my own hair? Why? Rawrrr!

So close, yet so bloody far.

All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them.

- Walter E. Disney

I'm afraid my dreams might have to take the backseat for now. From the way things are now, I prolly just have to accept second best. Although second best kinda suck, I guess it's better than not having any shot at it.

I'm not giving up my dream of living there, neither am I giving up the kind of life I have always wanted. I will chase it, just not now. I'll think of something.

I'll just have to burn the letter, so I feel better. 

I wish you're here with me. I have no one to talk to about these! I miss you, love.

He's a soldier now.

This jacket is so awesome, I want it!

Okay, so Jack's serving the nation and I'm a bummer. I'm so bored, I could stare at my lights for hours, and sleeping sucks. Somebody, go shopping with me!

Hate to love

Things I hate about my Boyfriend:

1. Doing the things he’d previously claimed to hate
2. He watches naruto
3. Friends and Hockey ranks before me, always
4. He games like there’s no tomorrow
5. He thinks that there’s no need to keep spending time together because there’s forever
6. He is not romantic at all
7. He said I’m not the world to him
8. He spends money on speakers and monitors and gadgets but scolds me when I buy bags and clothes and accessories
9. When he sleeps, he sleeps through fires and wars
10. I've always believed but he always disappoints
11. ...

I can’t imagine this list would end.

Following suit

Everyone has a colored berry because I changed mine first.

It's kinda annoying, really.

Shutter Sounds

I'm gonna be away for a couple of days, I doubt I'll be getting any internet access. Pictures and ramblings will be posted here: ShutterSounds instead, since iWeb allows me to post entries offline.

Anyways, I've already settled the things that have been weighing down my mind. I'm not even sure the last sentence made any sense. I'm really excited to fly, although it's only to Sabah. I'm flying there to support my boyfriend. (:

Post-it® notes

Hear ye! Hear ye! All my awesome friends who used to sit beside me in class, have you heard of the Post-it® “How You Use It” contest? Apple iPad's the first prize! How cool is that? I'm definitely joining the contest! Here's how you join:

HOW TO JOIN POST-IT® “HOW YOU USE IT” CONTEST:
1) Take a picture/video of how you use your Post-it® Super Sticky Notes
2) Go to http://www.howyouuseit.com.sg/contests and submit your photo/video!

(Pls register/login as a member before submitting)
3) Stand a chance to win an Apple iPad, Nintendo Wii or iPod touch!

Post-it® notes are my favourite and must-haves during school days! Well, even now I use Post-it® notes at work and at home. Here's what I use them for...

In school, every piece of my school notes will definitely have Post-it® on them with extra notes. If you don't see any Post-it® notes on my papers, it meant that I haven't read them yet. My notes were decorated with Post-it® notes in every colour available! I've left school for awhile now, about 5/6 months? I've dug up my notes, here it is:

Post-it® notes are the reason why studying is fun.

At work, Post-it® notes are very crucial! I kid you not. You see, I'm in sales and that means commission are really the bulk of my salary. I, in fact all my colleagues, use Post-it® notes to label our sales code on our customers products. That way, we can keep track of the items we've sold. Oh yes, we use Post-it® notes during stock-take too! Here's how we use Post-it® notes at work:

That number of course, is my sales code. (:

At home, I have this box Post-it® notes of different shapes, colours and sizes. I doodle on Post-it® notes and use them as reminders as well! I definitely use it to leave messages for Jack and my family members. I used to have a whole board of Post-it® notes, made them when I felt really angry and disappointed.

Here's one:

By the way, this is the Super Sticky notes, premium Post-it® notes!

Look at my collection of Post-it® notes. The yellow and blue ones, with lines are the premium Post-it® Super Sticky notes. Mad sticky I tell you!

Apparently they have this new Die Cut notes! Look at them, those shapes are so cute! I'm gonna get them!

I have a friend, her name is Anita. She's like me, a huge fan of Post-it® notes. I'm gonna get her to join this contest too! We're all big fans of Post-it® brand. I've tried other brands, but you know how other brands always fall off, or how it's so difficult to write on them for god knows what reason?

3M's Post-it® Super Sticky notes is still the best, that I'm sure!

Glee & Good.

I made a bet with Boyfriend, saying that I'd draw an elephant on him if he couldn't meet me at my pillow at 11am. (read: wake up at 11am) And I ended up sleeping through 11am all the way to 1pm, and he left me this note on my Macbook. Of course, he didn't get to draw an elephant on me, because only I can win.

Anyways, this is my pinkberry and I'm darn proud of it. Jack changed the housing for me, after destroying a couple of things, my berry looks good. All in all, I spent about $30(?) on the housing and keypad. Payment by Paypal or debit/credit cards. It took about 7 days to reach my door.

Here's the link: TrueSupplier (:

OH GOODY!

Oh yay, Jack found another game to replace DOTA! Some HON shit, which of course is similar game play and purpose (read: no purpose) Great.

I keep making myself feel uncomfortable, but then again, I cannot resist the yummy food! My tummy is feeling so bad right now, it can explode anytime! I need to learn to stop making myself feel so shitty.

Andrew is mad awesome. (Andrew is the service centre guy for Apple, he is nice) He helped me out with my battery, otherwise I'll have to spend $200 odd to replace my battery on my Macbook. I'll treat him to Haagen Daz once I get my pay! Helped me save loads!

Visit www.blackberrysauce.blogspot.com and fund me, at the same time buy yourself some awesomely useful stationeries. Friends get discounts! I think the next batch of things for sale would be more interesting, to me at least! :D

Work hasn't been going very well, nothing to sell means no awesome sum of commission at the end of the month! ):

OMG, I forgot to bring my things needed, I have to delay IDP's trip again!

Gargh, I hate myself. Fuuuuu!

K bye!

Too little, too late.

Dear Unidentified Person,

after reading the first comment you left, I've pretty much singled out a couple of people you could be, not many speak like you, or rather type like you. And after reading the second comment, I'm pretty much quite confident to say I think who you could be. Albeit knowing me for so long, you obviously haven't been in my life as much as you should have been. It's such a shame really, your life would have been awesome if you were not forced to shut me out. Judging from this, you don't really sound like you have any say in how I live my life, do you? But I do appreciate your occasional concerns, although it's not justified.

Much love, Me.

P.S: And I've never hated you, as much as I have been trying. Hating you doesn't work.

Do you remember?

You know you love me

I know you care

Just shout whenever,

And I'll be there

You want my love

You want my heart

And we would never,

ever, ever be apart.

I must confess that I've been a bummer these past few days. I think I'm quite enjoying it actually, because Jack decided to be really nice to me (shortly after I took down all our photo frames =X) and be a bummer with me. All we've really done is watch TV, eat, surf the net and sleep. Oh, the occasional board game. It's nice really, when we're not fighting. Everything is like rainbows.

I've gotta pack in a few days time, heading for Kota Kinabalu for Jack's game. And then he'll be compelled to serve the nation. (Aside: while I was typing this, he was talking to himself/Dugong) Also, I need to get myself to remember to go to IDP and settle everything I need to. And next would be Hong Kong in June, I really wonder if I can save enough for all these considering the rate I'm working now.

Jack and I just came back from supper, it was a long walk but we talked, what about? I honestly don't remember anymore. My memory is failing me. Jack has super memory, he's been boosting about it ever since I met him about 3 plus years ago.

I have to go clean someone's tomb tomorrow morning, I really don't know whose tomb I have to go clean, in the least offending manner possible. I can't even remember cleaning anyone's tomb at all. Hmm...

Music saves me from the world.

I have a lot of questions in my head, I bet everyone else too.

Hi Anonymous, 

#4 really prevents you from commenting.

Comments need to be moderated by me before it can be published.

P.S: Oh, by the way, PUN is spelt without "T".

I've forgiven you of your bad English.

I'm whiney now, I don't give a shit.

If I stood in front of a magnificent, magic fountain with my last coin, I believe I'll be wishing for a better me that he'll appreciate and love, more than he is right now.

Because whatever I am now, obviously isn't that good enough for him to want to start trying to want this as much as I want it. I have to cry myself to bed, not because I lost to another girl in trying to gain his attention, but because I lost to a stupid game and a few good friends.

And I thought years ago was bad enough, with him so obsessed with hockey and that few good friends. At least I could still sit and watch all his games, and I know so well that those guys are friends that Jack will never lose, even if it's 10 years from now. Friends I never have.

I may sound fucking pathetic here, but when Jack stops paying attention to me, no one else is. Oh trust me, I know that's not true, but he's the one who matters.

Right now, I sound like a bloody clingy, madly obsessed girlfriend. But truth is, I haven't seen my boyfriend for 3 days after our fight, which I honestly cannot recall what was it about and I have 21 days before he's serving the nation full time. And you know how hard it is, to have your boyfriend in the army for those of you who've gone through this shit. Oh lucky me, mine hasn't even started. 


And may I add that he's alright about not texting or calling or talking or seeing me at all these past few days. And damn right is this entry gonna make him start texting me and meeting me for awhile till the next.

Oh you have no idea how this magical fountain is gonna change my life.


Please don't comment if:

1. you've never been with a boyfriend for more than 3 years.
2. you've never spent almost everyday with your boyfriend.
3. you have no idea how these feel like.
4. you're a guy.

Cosy up now.

Hi all, here's my crib where I spend (almost) everyday in.

Oh and my awesome coloured nails.

Okay, bye.

Everything's good again, except you.

The loots I mentioned below this entry has arrived! The diary is thicker than I've thought it to be though. And, and, and my internet connection is back! Plus the lame MioTV, I prefer Starhub's cable tv more, really.

Now I can't wait for my other shoppings to arrive. Nothing can make me happier than to receive my shoppings at my doorstep. :D

Shopping Addict.

Hello there, I just bought me something, again.

They are so cute, I can't resist it. Haha, thanks to Mel Ng. She had this link on her blog, so I thought that there wasn't gonna be any harm just buy browsing. Boy, I was wrong. 

Here's the link: http://www.cottoncandy.sg/catalog/index.php

I hope somebody buys something like me. Hahahahahahaha. 

Work's been annoying and tiring, but if I don't work, I won't have money. On my job, I meet the dumbest people, ever. No, really. I don't know how they can come up with such stupid questions and concerns. Really.

Perfect Breakfast.

My perfect breakfast will definitely be hotcakes(or if you'd prefer to call them pancakes), with overflowing maple syrup and strawberries and blueberries. Ah, sex in the morning.



I don't know, but I think Google Images just fucking read my mind. Look what I found shortly after I typed the first paragraph:



It fits my description of a perfect breakfast!

No shit, I'll marry the man who'd make this for me every morning.

That aside, look what all the smart people did to try and earn more of my money:

THEY MADE MOULDS FOR PANCAKES! 

Above are the Outer-Space and Farm Pancake Moulds from www.williams-sonoma.com. And of course, as I am so very nice, this is where you can purchase it: CLICK HERE 

But because they don't ship internationally yet, you can buy it through Vpost. Go google it. (:

My blog tells me that it is very contented.

Yes, indeed. I'm growing out of pink and red. Probably something less complicated. White is good, for now. And thanks to:

my blog can change clothes like I do.

Some skins are free of charge, and some are chargeable. You can even write to her if you want a blogskin that's tailored-made for you! How awesome is this?

http://myblogmakeover.blogspot.com/

I know y'all cheapos, try out the free ones first. (Like I did, haha.)

The Truth.

I know it's kind of stupid, but I actually tried to wash my face like how girls in advertisements do it. Something like that:

And you know what? DID NOT WORK. You probably need to repeat this action 3285 times to make sure that your face is cleansed of facial foam. I always knew this is a scam!

This is really, the correct way of washing your face. (I hope.)

Courtesy of www.wikihow.com

Now you learn something new, thank me.

When the air we breathe becomes the air we choke.

Hi, I'm back. Wordpress didn't survive very long. After all, this is where I grew up.

Work in less than 8 hours, sucking the life out of me.

Kthxbye.

New Year, New Start.

treasureechest.wordpress.com
Bye.