Do it!

BUY BUY BUY BUY
BUY THEM AWAY.


STASH STASH STASH STASH
STASH THEM ALL UP.

Urgent:

Needs.

To.

Drag.

My.

Ass.

To.

School.

I want you beside me when my dreams come true

This is where I want to end up.

I've finally decided to not be lazy and put up a banner for this boring space. I like it, it's nice. (:

I spent today with History and Music. There so much to do, and there's so little time. I have about 2 months to make my dream happen.

I wish, I wish with all my heart..

Blogger's working properly again!

This is my big-pimple, greedy cousin. Her name is Joey.

You-know-who & You-know-who

Okay bye.

Emotional Note To Self

Daughter: My sandals broke in the middle of the shopping mall, so embarrassing.
Mom: What time are you coming home? Don't give me crap.

Maybe this is why I dislike my mother, a lot. Other girls at my age usually have problems with their boyfriend's mother, I can simply name a handful right now. But I have problems with my mother. Mother and I, we're never really close. Because the way I was brought up, it forbids all the friendly connections, the heart to heart talks and whatnot. Honestly speaking, I don't regret this at all. There's nothing much to be upset about. Dysfunctional families, I've seen way too many. It's too common in our society right now or even back then in the early 60s, I don't know. So much so that about 3 or 4 out of my 5 Literature textbooks require me to examine such broken families. Fasting, Feasting and Fistful Of Colors are apt examples.

In all, you can say that I have a mother who doesn't love me at all favors my brother more than me cannot offer me anything more but concern. Well, you can just say that I have a mother.

I just want to fast forward the next 2 to 3 years of my life here, in this crazy sunny island. Then I'll go away, and never come back. I hate the life I have here, it's torturing in every ways. Oh, you probably don't know how badly I want to leave, because your life is pretty awesome right now, with your awesome mother who's like a sister to you, and your bunch of crazy girlfriends who'd stick with you come what may, and life treating you like you're queen.



I. Just. Want. To. Leave.

Audrey Hepburn

I think that she's a very pretty woman. (:

Verdict

I refuse to talk to her anymore. And I mean it.

Demand & Supply

Reason for the Law of Demand: (Downward Sloping Curve)

Substitution Effect of a price change

Increase in price of good caused consumers to switch to relatively cheaper substitutes.

Substitute Effect: The effect on quantity demanded of a change in price arising from the consumer switching to or from alternative (substitutes) products.

Income Effect of a price change

When price of good falls, consumers will be able to afford more of the good with their given budget/income. Purchasing power increase.

Income Effect: The effect on quantity demanded of a change in price arising from the consumer becoming better or worse off as a result of the price change.

Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility (Alternative Explanation)

As a consumer consumes more and more of a particular good, the extra satisfaction (utility) from the additional unit will diminish. Because additional utility diminishes, the consumer is only willing to buy more of the good if the price is lower.

Monday

I've got the Monday Blues, and I have a hard time dragging my ass to school because my bed and comforter and air-conditioning is so totally awesome. Mondays, urgh, kill me. ):

Poor Thing

This is why Mr Aircon hasn't been friendly to me these days. Mr Aircon is sick, he's got a cold! Now now Mr Aircon, get well soon, we can be friends again! (:

Get well soon Mr Aircon!

Pop Rings & Vanilla Coke ♥

Some people can just amazingly unfriend some of their friends who accompanied them through their worst days, in and out of school. Oh, and without telling you why. And they go on and on about stuff on their websites, so coincidently, those stuff, are stuff that are somehow or rather related to you. And they totally pretend that you needed them, when it was actually the other way round. They needed us more than we needed them, if you get what I mean.

Honestly, Jack and I didn't have to befriend such people, and just let _____ be alone. I'm not looking for a fight or anything, I just thought that you know, you cannot just unfriend someone like that. Especially when we sincerely treated you as a friend.

*If you think I'm talking about you, come and fucking confront me in my face. Stop your chicken-y antics. If you cared enough while you were still my friend, you prolly should know better, I love confrontations more than chicken-y stunts. It really didn't mean that we are oblivious to it, just because we don't react. Get real. (:

Anyways, there's this rocker girl that I know of, she's don't look very friendly, and yes she is an extremely angry kid. She has this the-whole-world-owes-me-a-living face, and she doesn't like people very much. I secretly wish that she would rock to her death with her mat boyfriend. (:

I've been very whiney these days, must be the lack of sleep. Seriously. Heh.

On a lighter note, there are two crazy assed movies that I want to watch. It's cartoon, but I love it anyways, more than spooky horror films.

Please get over the fact that I once dated your boyfriend.

No, I'm not in a bitchy mood or anything at all. Really, I just want to prove my point. I don't really know what I'm proving here, but here goes nothing...

Below is a print screen of my EX-Boyfriend's Facebook page. I've actually blurred their names and faces to protect whatever privacy they have left. Not to mention that only doofus won't know who my Ex-Boyfriend is.

It reads:

xxxx xxx i really should be sleeping.

July 20 at 12:53am · Comment · Like

Nicole Sze

Go to bed you doofus!

July 20 at 12:54am · Delete

xxxx xxx sorry only xxxxxx can call me doofus.

about an hour ago

Here's the thing, I commented on his facebook status. And if there was/is ever this rule to not post anything at all on your Ex-Boyfriend's facebook wall, I'm so sorry I unknowingly broke the rule. For the record, this isn't happening for the first time.

The last time, he had to come and tell me to get over him because I commented about what we used to be in a random note. What a joke.

So, as always, in my defense, here's my reply:

Oh yes, I still don't want to lose a friend like him. Please get used to the fact that I'll always be around, until he decides to un-friend me, again.

Yay, we're all going prawning on Monday together! Awesomeness much, no?

I'm feeling normal, even after this entry. I don't hate you, not like you're gonna read this anyways. Please, just get over the fact that once upon a time dated your boyfriend, 5 years ago. TYVM.

Okay bye.

Me and Mr Darcy

What else can I do on a lonely Sunday afternoon?

What is wrong with Blogger?

☠ I have a guitar, idling at the corner of my room, collecting as much dust as it possibly can.

☠ I need to make money. Please help fund Jacole's bank account. Desperate need for kaachiiings.

☠ Something is seriously wrong with blogger. I'm typing in this tiny box at the bottom corner of my screen. Something is seriously wrong.

☠ Swimming with YAYA in about 11 hours time. Shoo fats, shoo!

☠ My floor is miraculously clean. Thanks to BF♥ (:

☠ Jack and I have officially ran outta places to go together. Singapore is just too small.

☠ I cannot wait for Prawning Monday! (: With M&G, Benach, Annabellaaron(?) and Jacole. Awesomeness!

☠ I dislike blogging in such tiny box. I might develop claustrophobia, speaking of which, I feel breathless and sweaty and anxious and faint-y and ....

There is something wrong with Blogger, right this moment. Not conducive to blog at all.

Things we sometimes forget.

I think that this post-it note is awesome. (:

Until next time.

Hello.

Please pardon me for the lack of updates, I am, apparently down with severe blogger's block. This update is to inform my readers of several insignificant things as listed below:

• I have been nothing but elated these past few days. It must be the fact that my fuckingmenses is ending/has ended.
• I am feeling happy because I bought myself apparels as well, and will continue to buy some more because it obviously makes me happy.
• Jack sleeps like a log.
• I passed GP with a less than fulfilling grade.
• I need to get back my History paper, even though it's done shittily because I did only 2/4 essays for both papers.
• I hate my new time table, 4 blocks of 40 mins lesson every day.
• When I pee, I count the number of seconds I take to finish peeing.
• I like to wear oversized tees to sleep.
• I am the fattest woman on earth, anyone who is or appears to be fatter than I am is not counted.
• I like eating spring onions, I steal them from the kitchen to munch all the time.
• This month's ice cream flavour is Venezia Gelateria's Chocolate Mint, all thanks to Jack's little sister, Josey.

That's about all of my insignificant updates, goodbye.

Whatever happened to Never Say Never?

Smile tho' your heart is aching
smile even tho' it's breaking
when there are clouds in the sky
you'll get by if you
smile through your fear and sorrow

smile and maybe tomorrow
you'll see the sun come shining thru' for you.
Light up your face with gladness
hide ev'ry trace of sadness
altho' a tear maybe ever so near
that's the time you must keep on trying

smile what's the use of crying
you'll find that life is still worth while
if you'll just smile.

Listening to her makes me feel all better again.

All's well.

☮ So, I sat through my last paper for Prelim 1. For what it's worth, I mugged the whole night, caught about an hour's of sleep before dragging my ass to school and regurgitated every thing out. It was alright, just that I didn't study enough to finish the paper. Will not MC often anymore, MC-ing makes me miss classes and that sucks because I always return to school clueless. ):

☮ Lots of people didn't turn up for papers, looks like Jack and I aren't the only one. History's top scorers missed History paper. I think our teachers are gonna be so disappointed. But, it makes no sense sitting for the paper if one feels totally unprepared. It's 3 hours, and I'd rather spend it sleeping, who wouldn't right? If you're a teacher, and you're reading this, wait. What are you doing here? Don't you have papers to mark? Heh.

☮ And the flea is about 24 hours away. I'm so excited I hope I earn money from all my nonsense at home. Kachiiing! I need to dig all my rubbish out soon, so people can buy them off me. (:

☮ Jack is coming over in about an hour's time. It's super cold in here, I'm not gonna share my blanky. Hence, the picture.

☮ All of a sudden, I miss playing volleyball. Ah wells, I guess I'm not the only one. =/

☮ I want to paint my room white, it's sherbet green now, and it looks gross. I hate my room, it's too small. No matter how I reposition my Queen size bed, there's always no space to walk. I'm gonna get beanbags too. I'm so sexcited. :D

☮ I'm gonna catch the zzz monster now, see y'all. (:

Bad Stomach

Okay, i went to the doctor today for __ because I decided to ____ _____. And the doctor diagnosed and warned me that I'm prone/or might already have Helicobacter Pylori. I need to go to Mount E. to do gastroscope and urea breath test. Sounds scary, I'll pass. (:

I wonder if this has anything to do with my monthly killer menses cramps.
Anyhow, I'm looking forward to Nasi Lemak at Chong Pang for dinner.
Okay, good night/morning people.

P.S Good luck to all you taking your papers tomorrow. :P

To my wonderful man:

When i picked you up

for our first date baby

well your pretty blue eyes

they were drivin me crazy

and the tiny little thought

that was so amazing is

they were lookin at me

i held open the car door for you

then you climbed inside and

slid on over to the other side

i thought my oh my

sweet thing

the moon is high

and the night is young

come on and meet me

in the backyard under the cotton wood tree

it's a good thing

am i wishing?

oh come on sweet thing

won't you climb on out of your window

while the world's sleepin

you know i need you and there's

no way i'll be leavin

till we're kissin on the porch swing

oh my little sweet thing

yea

i know i'm gonna see you first thing tomorrow

but i just couldn't wait

so i had to borrow uncle jake's mustang

it's his favorite car

so i can't stay long

standin here feelin like a

love-struck romeo

oh all i wanna do is hold you close

steal a little more time

is that such a crime?

Sweet thing

the moon is high and the night is young

come on and meet me

in the backyard under the cotton wood tree

it's a good thing

am i wishin?

oh come on sweet thing

won't you climb on out of your window

while the world's sleepin

cause you know i need you and

there's no way i'll be leavin

till we're kissin on the porch swing

oh my sweet thing

Oh my

sweet thing

sweet thing

sweet thing

sweet thing

oh my sweet thing

the moon is high and the night is young

come on and meet me

in the backyard

under the cotton wood tree

it's a good thing

tell me i'm not dreamin'

oh sweet thing

won't you climb on out of your window

while the world's sleepin

cause you know i need you and

there's no way i'll be leavin

till we're kissin on the porch swing

oh my little sweet thing

oh come on

sweet thing

sweet thing

sweet thing

sweet thing

oh my little sweet thing

yes you are!

All's well at twilight

Would you believed that I took these shots in our boring sunny island?
With my crappy old 10.0 mega pixels camera?
How would these shots look like if I shot it with my DSLR?
Where do you think this place is?
A picture speaks a thousand words?

These shots are so breath-taking.
It would have been more awesome if you saw it yourself.
Goodnight you beautiful. (:

What I wanna say is that they don't really care about us.

I have two papers tomorrow, economics paper 2 and literature paper 5. Pray for my survival please thank you (I don't know a single peeweeshit about anything related at all)

Sometimes, you are so good at something, you get complacent. Like how I used to be so awesome in Math, but I got complacent, stopped practicing as hard, and then all the "knots" started forming, until I gave up on it because there's simply too much to untie and it gets really frustrating. So today, I came to a conclusion, if you're good at something, don't stop doing it. Else you'll be forced to quit.

So, I've finally finished One Tree Hill seasons 1 to 6. I'm glad I watched it, because I liked it. (: That sets me thinking, what show should I watch next? :D

These 6 days, or so. Supposedly for me to MUG like a cow, but I've been late-night blading, catching up with FRIENDS, and SLEEPing much. Serves me right, I deserve to fail, everyone, please fail with me. Thanks. Lol.

I'm so looking forward to my flea, I need money. I'm gonna sell all my nonsense at home. Please buy them off me. Thanks. Bye.

I'm crying every night.

Well, I'm not taking that feisty post back, because I felt what I felt. But I suppose he made it up to me in the end, like he always does, and I love him for that, really. Although he can be a shit face of a boyfriend most of the time, I do know that he never meant to do all those things he did, or not do, on purpose. Because if he did, we won't be 2 years going on 3. But, that does not give him the rights to keep doing every thing he did, or not doing anything at all.

Now, people, albeit all the horrible things he does. Jack is not the reason why I cry every night. THIS, is.

Good night y'all, while I return to sobbing on my bed.

I HATE THIS MAN.

I WANT TO EAT...

I'd run away with the one who'd bring me to eat these for dinner.

I've got so much to tell

You know it when I start typing in points.

☠ Well, I've been away for 4 days, for all you doofus who didn't know.
I went to Malaysia - JB, KL, Genting, Selangor. It wasn't exactly fun, but I adored the food I had. Hated the walking, and yucky bus seats.

☠ I knew of MJ's death while I was on my way up Genting.
The radio in the cab kept repeating(reporting) MJ's death. It came as a sudden shock, it was bad news. But no, it didn't crush my mood.

☠ MJ's tribute was played on BBC, Jack and I watched it in our hotel room.
So I told Jack while we were watching his live concerts/performances on BBC: "MJ's death makes me feel weird. It's like, it's a different death. Like MJ has just become Elvis Presly and The Beetles and Frank Sinatra." And that feels weird to me, I don't care if it doesn't feel that way to you.

☠ I'd upload photos, but blogger won't let me.
I wanted to show all you people who read, which version of MJ I like best. But oh wells.

☠ I'm having my Economics Case Study & Literature paper tomorrow.
I'm so totally not prepared for it, at all. And I don't mean it like those people in my class do, they who say that they are not prepared, but have mugged the who holiday. I've no shitnitz about how to survive my paper alive and not feeling awfully guilty for not studying at all afterwards.

☠ MJ is awfully talented.
I hearts his moonwalk and anti-gravity. He's one of a kind, definitely. His death, our loss.

☠ While we were in the cab in KL, the cabbie told us that Singapore MIGHT belong to Malaysia again.
At that moment, I felt my life was fucked. Jack's sister told me: "I don't want to be a Malaysian." That cabbie must have been dreaming too much.

☠ I was shopping online about 10 mins ago.
There's so much I want to buy, zomg. I wish money grew on trees, I wish I was borne with a silver spoon in my mouth. Ha!

☠ I want to go to Hong Kong/Taiwan/New Zealand (:
It's our end of year pact. I'm gonna make sure this will be my new motivation from now(after exams) onwards.

☠ I don't procrastinate, I'm serious.

☠ Facebook is getting boring.
But it's a great place to store photos, ha!

☠ I've decided to be fair.
After 20 years of being tanned, I'm quite curious how I'd look being fair-skinned. But I think I'll look hideous. And besides, I cannot abhor the sun cos I play volleyball and swim and run and do everything under the sun. Damnn..

☠ Why does the clothes on LJ sell so fast? !@#!#%$@#%
They launch a brand new collection, but by the time I visit it, every thing is sold out. Fuck that shit. Oh wells.

☠ I'm happy I got to eat at A&W.
The moment I stepped into Malaysia, I've been looking forward to dining at A&W. The legendary root beer float and curly fries. :D

☠ I'm quite sad though, that I couldn't find Krispy Kremes.
I looked every where, and all that I could find was Dunkin' Donuts. Dunkin' Donuts is all over the place in Malaysia. Phffts.

☠ If you're going to KL, you've gotta visit 1 Utama.
It's awesomely huge, and there's every thing! From big brands to small little shops. And not to mention, there's F21 there! :D

☠ Jack and I are touring Europe in 2 and a half years time.
Our secret saving plans, I hope they follow through. (:

Okay, I'm gonna stop here. It's not abrupt because I informed you. Okay bye.

3 guy friends.

& I've concluded, that it's way easier to be friends with some people, I know because I was their girlfriends and it makes it a lot easier to be there for them now that we're just friends.

& as for some other people, it's even easier to not be friends at all than to try and avoid awkward conversations on my part because I don't like them back.

& pretending to be best friends doesn't work for me, because you cannot just appear and tell me that you're my best friend. Nope, just doesn't work. Needless to say, friends with benefits? Not interested at all, sorry balls.

I wished money grew on trees.

If money grew on trees, I'll be a very diligent farmer. I will make sure I yield bountiful harvest, because I'm way too impatient to travel the world.

and let me feel like I’m the only one.

I think that I have an issue, you see, it's quite simple in a sense that you know it's weird. Because there are all these signs to tell you that something is wrong in the correct way. When boyfriend doesn't talk to you, or rather take the initiative to talk to you anymore, when he doesn't want to meet up anymore, when he rather stays at home to game than to roam the streets with you. Oh, and when you start to wonder where'd all the I-Love-You gone to, so much so that you cannot remember if you're dating somebody. It kinda says things that you wish you'll never ever want to know. Call me paranoid, but my boyfriend has been like that for the whole holiday, how about yours? Thank god for photos, it helps me remember how my boyfriend looks like. I have this weird feeling that I cannot put into words, and this weird feeling is filling up every empty hole/space in me. And it kind of _____.

So, my boyfriend and I are dating each other from home now, how convenient. Like how I shop from home! Ah, the wonders of technology. Should I be grateful or what?

Honestly, I don't like it at all. ):

All things wonderful.

I am very excited about a lot of things recently.
I shall list them down, so I can feel more excited.

Here it goes:

1. Party
2. Malaysia
3. Flea
4. 00:18

Things that I'm totally not excited about:

1. Mid-Years
2. Start of school
3. 5 months left

Damn it, I just killed whatever wonderful mood I had. ):

Random words:

• I was in Xinya's room until 5am yesterday.
• Xinya persuaded me not to chop my hair.
• I think I will enjoy a job that plans events and parties.
• I want OTH season 6.
• I need to mug.
• I hate how conscience sneaks up at me, reminding me to study.

I'm gonna shop now. Ta!

One big step at a time.

Nicole is going to be very bold and chop off her hair sometime this week.

Nicole is a happy girl.

It leaves me satisfied and elated. (:

I am so tired I need to blog in bullet points.

1. Busy 4 days it has been
2. I hate standing for 8 hours
3. I think people are really stupid to think that 1TB will look small and compact.
4. Samsung's hard disk is so chic, those who thinks that it's too expensive has no class.
5. Rest in peace Aunty Nancy
6. I hope Aaron's a changed man for good. (:
7. I'm glad I saw MnG and Ben. (:
8. 10am is dread, 9pm is awesome.
9. Tomorrow's the last day of my crappy job.
10. I hate that fatfugly sow that I have to work with.
11. I just bought a new dress, online
12. I shop online everynight
13. My heels hurt like muthafucking much
14. I hate india people, they ask so many questions but never buy anything.
15. I hate stupid china people who haggles
16. I hate malay people for being so smug, wearing their fake Fred Perrys and not take my brochure.
17. I think this is the best time to apply the Primary school slogan: "touch no see, see no touch, touch and see must pay money"
18. I think people should come and browse only if they want to buy, in order not to waste all of our time and breath
    
19. I hate that I feel obliged to eat faster during meal times
20. Basically I hate working
21. but i need money
22. because i shop online
23. there are tonnes of things that I want to buy.
24. I need a sewing machine
25. I am going to KL end of next week
26. i have not mugged for my midyears at all
27. i've counted my coin cup, i've saved $16 worth of $1 coins
28. I just spent $23 on a dress
29. i'm good at saving, better at spending
30. I wish sleeping time was longer than anything else ):

Byebye. ):

Goodbye 19th.

The moment the clock strike twelve, I felt excited, not because it's my birthday, but because I can't wait to go prawning with my ♥s. Birthday this year, feels like just another day. And birthday this year, I got money. Sweet hard cash babeh. (:

Fairmont with J on the weekends. Coke Floats, Monopoly, espresso machine, pillow fights, HBO and awesome breakfast. I love hotels just cause. (:

No birthday plans this year, awaits 21st to come, eagerly. (:

Goodnight lovelys.

Because we dress to impress.

Sloppy tank top, bold coloured skinnies, camera bag that doesn't contain camera, and crappy Adidas slip ons. Oh, and that fake Subcrew cap, and black rimmed glasses with no degree.

Com'on, I mean, don't they find themselves hideous looking when they take a final look in the mirror before they leave their homes? Why must they make proper clothings look so unglamourous? Skinnies are cool, but not when they wear it like that! Camera bags are for cameras, cameras that they most prolly cannot afford. Not for them to contain cigarettes, and their nonsense mp3 and wallets, oh and that stuck-me-into-your-nose-i-help-you-clear-your-blocked-nose thing.

I didn't even have to specify who these people are, they've made it so typical, you prolly know who they are after reading the first paragraph. Don't these people have the least sense of fashion at all?

Yeah, I'm prolly stereotyping, but if they didn't make it possible for me to, would I have anything to stereotype? Okay rant over.

On the lighter note, we all dress to impress. Right? Right. I admire guys who can dress well because, honestly, they don't have much choices. I admire guys who dress well, and look hot as hell. Like.. Him. Alright, gawk. (:

His name is Andres. (:

D'You Know What I Mean?

Town-ed with Boyf. and I saw these many cute things. So sweet and adorable, Homg.

Anyways, I'm getting more allowance! And extra pocket money occassionally. :D Makes me very happy. More money means more shopping! :D

We decided to save up and go Thailand to eat and shop. That makes me glee.

Okay. Too cold and tired to continu....

Maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me.

Hello blogosphere, this is cute-ing the shit outta me.

Cameo and Baby is my puppies' names in this game. Dammit, it's a game. ):

It makes me want to secretly buy a puppy and hide it in my room, because Mommy doesn't want another dog after Earthfy. ):

But, Jack promised, when we live together, we're gonna have puppies and kittens. Our house will look like a Zoo. I want cats and dogs that must live in air conditioned atmosphere, so then I have to turn on the air conditioner 24/7. Woots, the evil warmness of the journey home from work will be chased away once I reach home. How comforting is that? :D

Oh, Wonderwall is my favourite now. ♥

Later! (:

Do it for me now.

I really had it with the rain and the tears
The predictable storm that has come every year
And it sneaks in from shore with the bat in it's hand
I’m tryin' I’m tryin' I’m tryin' I’m tryin' -I can't
You’re a thief and a witch, but I love you to death
You steal my heart and curse under your breath

Keep the beat yo.

This,

my friends,
have been rocking my world \m/
for the past 2 days.