I should be stronger, but I'm all alone.

"We don't have to change friends if we understand friends change."
- Alan Tan Zhan Lun (:

Ironically, challenging this space's title, she's actually feeling vulnerable. And, that whole "there's no such thing as friends" feeling in getting the better of her, because every time when she believes in having friends again, she gets let down.

See, the thing is, that she strongly believe in giving her all, to her friends. To be there for them, have fun with them, and cry with them. So she gives all her friends the benefit of the doubt, only to realise that they didn't actually deserve it at all.

And friends who actually promised to be there for her no matter what, bails on her when she needs them most. Either that, or these people she used to call friends have changed, they're not her friends anymore. At least, not like when they made that promise to her.

Yeah granted, she's not the best of friends, but she's trying. Really. And, she's not like everyone else, because she cannot help being frank. She doesn't do hypocrisy, she just speaks up, for herself, for her friends, for what she thinks is just and for what upsets her. Instead of pretending, like what most people are so talented at. She's true to her heart, and her conscience. Because it doesn't leave her any regrets.

Only helpless, because people just come, and people just go. As they wish.

At least Peyton has Brooke, when all else fails.
I don't wanna cry, alone. But no one understands.

There was a time, so dearly missed,
when all was good and better.
When things couldn't get any better than it already is.

As you get older, times like these disappears.
(Or perhaps, cease to existence even)
Faster than you expect it to be.