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Just where did i go wrong? What have i ever done? Why does things always turn out like that? I dont understand, I dont know anything, I dont like everything that's happening now. I know im not the best, but i've been trying hard, can you see, do you know? even if there's no more love, just tell me in my fucking face, i can take it. But please, dont do this to me. :(
Papa God, take my tears away please? Make me happy like i once was, I'm so sick and tired of everything.
The heart hurts like it's been brutally ripped apart, exposing fresh blood and meat, like it's a piece of prey lying superly dead infront of it's predator. =( Can you feel the pain too?
imj, ilj, iwj, but im so tired of us. :(
From hereon, am i supposed to put on a smile that doesnt belong to me? Do i have to go through what i fear the most once again? These uncertainty, makes me fear everyday. It makes me wanna escape, and run far away, where no one knows. It makes me wanna do the stupid things i used to do, to push the pain away, to try and smile like a rainbow.
There're tears, but i'm not allowing them to fall. I can feel their pain, they are all eager to drop and let everything out. But im not allowing them to, they must be contained. Cos i know if i dont, i'll never be able to get over this. Maybe a part of me, don't want to get over this. lol, silly me.
Joelle's home, I must be happy now. Lol. Oh yes, they are all celebrating my birthday today, so joyous. Rofl. Byebye.
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