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Monday, September 28, 2009

Ya, of course.

My man isn't the most romantic man I've met, nor is he the most sensitive or thoughtful guy on earth but I'm happy with him. Just that sometimes, he forgets to care as much as he should, as much as I care for him.

My phone used to ring about every other 5 minutes, and I would smile myself silly at the texts that he sent. I would switch off my lights at about 11PM and snuggle myself in bed and wait, because he would call, and we would talk on the phone about everything until about 1 or 2 in the morning. We would go out and walk even if we didn't know where we're headed, without arguing about where to go of course. And he would send me back to my doorsteps, no matter how late it was. But then things started to change, and got boring.

Sometimes a relationship becomes boring because one person forgot to care(as much). People often wonder why does everything looked so perfect when a couple started going out together, it's really simple. Because the two were so engrossed with each other, concentrated on caring for the other. And as time passes, we get distracted by so many other things, and slowly, gradually, we forget to care.

Of course, it could also be the fact that one was so focused on getting the other, he spends the whole time, devoted to her in the beginning of the relationship, just to make sure that she's not going anywhere. And when he knows and is very sure that she won't leave, he stops caring and stops devoting as much, if not at all.

(Of course, not talking to you at all for one whole day isn't going to be tough for him at all. It would be best if you don't disturb his peace, it would be best if you don't even exist for that whole day.)

So i figured that how come some people cannot stay faithful to their spouse, it's because things got boring, one forgot to care because he thought that she should know that he cares. So he doesn't put in as much effort to care, well, because she should know. With all the talks about how you should know I love you, right? So she forgot about how it is like to be in love, to be wooed, to be spoilt, to be hoaxed.

So you tell yourself that you should return such behavior to him, tit for tat. And you find it almost impossible to do the same to him. Because if you stopped caring too, you know for sure that the flame will be distinguished. Naturally, if this other random guy comes along and expresses interest in her, although she's attached, she'll play along. Because this guy is reliving those days.

I should know, I was guilty of it, a little bit at the very least. I should know, because I've seen friends done it. I should know, because I miss those days. But, I should know better, to play along with any other guy again. Because it nearly cost me the love of my life, who ironically is making me feel lonely, very much by myself. Then again, I love him too much to make any silly mistakes like this again.

If my man is a time traveler, I wouldn't be so lonely even if he stopped caring, because my younger man would come and visit me. But my man is not, so I'm going to wallow in selffuckingpity, and I suggest that if you feel the same way, wallow in your pathetic plight because mistakes like these have too grave a consequence to bear. I'm pathetic but I have the man I love, bye.

Talk cock.

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