ending

Ending
the love we thought would never stop
now cools like a congealing chop.
the kisses that were as hot as curry
are bird-pecks taken in a hurry.
the hands that held electric charges
now lie inert as four moored barges.
the feet that ran to meet a date
are running slow and running late.
the eyes that shone and seldom shut
are victims of a power shut.
the parts that then transmitted joy
are now reserved and cold and coy.
romance, expected once to stay
had left a note saying GONE AWAY.
-Gavin Ewart







it is true. yepps.

same day of the week.
same bus.
same bus stop.
same road.
same people.

but..

the spaces that were in between us.
the different sides of the road.
the different feeling.



we walked on different sides of the road.
we seemingly sat beside each other, but deep inside,
we're worlds apart.
we're so near, and yet so far.



the feeling was so different.
but, in me, there is this sense of relieve.
for myself and for him. (:


maybe it is time for some one else to experience the love i once had.
maybe it is time for me to be alone.
maybe it is time for me to think back and reminise.
maybe it is time for him to recieve more than he had gave.
maybe it is a time where God wants my time alone with Him.


but, i've definitely found my love.




the sunset maybe beautiful.
but it has seem to lose its beauty and magnificent because of you.

but then again,
the beauty of the sunset,
changes with the different people you admire it with.
because every person is special and different in their own ways.

even when the sun sets,
it will rise again.
but, it is ANOTHER day.
meaning different things might happen and the people around you might change too.



you know when the sun sets,
the world will turn into darkness.
the magnificient sight before the sun sets,
is God's way of telling nicole that God loves her.
and that darkness,
is something nicole has to learn to get use to.
because she believes that her world.
will stay that way for quite some time.
she doesnt know how to let others enter her life anymore.
she trusts not the people around her.


it is quite hard to retain what you've lost.
sometimes, i try my hardest to forget the things that upset nic.
but the harder i try, the deeper it seeps.
the things i never wanna remember never goes away.
the things i wanna remember never stays.
i wonder why is this so.

however, love stays.
because i want it to stay. ((:


and sometimes, its not just about me.
sometimes, it takes more than one person to make things happen.


he can ask me a question,
and i'll ponder bout it before giving my answer.
but i realise.
that my answers are actually quite redundant.
because, with or without my answers.
things never change.



so i reckon that to him,
nicole is quite redundant too.


i dont know.
the things that he has done and said,
has made nic very confused and weary.
nic doesnt know if she should trust him anymore.
but nic knows that love is so much greater than all of this.























inside, the heart that used to beat.
is now raining and cloudy.
she is feeling very miserable.
she tries so hard to be happy everyday.
she smiles like for 24/7.
but.





is it what she wants?



































nope. certainly not.