Soft and Fragile.

Life, is so fragile. So soft, so unpredictable.

I was told by one of my friend that this friend** of mine, his* dad's blood vessel burst and was admitted in NUH. She urged all of us to pray for his* dad, pray that God will see his* dad thru this difficult process. When I received this sms, I was at work. So I thot in my mind, that I'll pray for his* dad. I had to look after the little children so I couldn't pray. So I thot I'll pray when my mind is free every now and then. So I did. I prayed. But I was curious, was it very serious? cos I haven encounter any incidents like this before, so I asked huifen and enqi. They said that it is very serious, and that most of the cases, the patients never make it alive. So I thot if I prayed harder, God will help his* dad more. But enqi also said that even if the patients made it, they'll become paralyzed. I guess there isn't a choice. At night, I smsed benjy and asked if my friend's
* dad was okay. But benjy said he left us and joined our father up there. Sighs, there was this pain in my heart, I didn't know why. Suddenly I felt that life is so unfair, so unpredictable. So fragile. Sighs. Then I realize, that God has greater plans for his* dad.

*I just hope that you'll be okay ya? I know it's hard, but you'll be fine. God loves you. (:
**for privacy's sake, I'll not name this friend of mine. For those who know, good for you. For those who don't, sorry I have to respect him. Pray for him and his family and his dad. Okay? Thank you. (:

talking about sms-ing, we chatted for quite a long time. Compared to the past few times we sms-ed lar. It was quite heart-breaking though. My nose was running, and my pillow was wet. Tough night yesterday. But at least he told me something I wanted to know, well, without me asking. But, he did ask me a question, I told him my answer. I so wanted to ask him back that question, but I didn't. I so wanted to know the answer to his question. But I didn't ask him. I didn't know why either. Sighs, perhaps I don't have to know and I don't really wish to know. Because what I don't know cannot hurt me. I was afraid that when I know the truth, my wound will expand. Perhaps that is why I didn't ask. Sighs.

today.
today is Friday the 13th. I never used to believe in this superstition. Not that I do now, but it was a terrifying experience.

first bad thing that happened did not happen on me, but on enqi. This little boy, crying non stop wants his kak kak. And just nice, when Miss Chew opened the door to let another girl come in, he ran out. And so coincidently, enqi stopped him. He cried and cried. And vomited on Enqi. enqi stinked.

second bad thing that happened was in the late morning, just before lunch time. I was teaching the kids BIG and small. So there was this BIG scissor and small scissor. Two girls snatch the SMALL scissor (luckily it was the SMALL scissor.) , and one got cut. Deep cut. She was bleeding profusely. the blood was dripping non stop. On the floor, on her hand, on the other teacher's hand, on my hand and on my jeans. sighs. She was crying non stop, we had difficulties getting her to stop wailing. She scared the crap outta me man. Eventually the bleeding stopped and her daddy brought her to the doctor's. her dad is so handsome. So young. So smart. Wearing what I believe to be the number one uniform or something, it is white in colour with loads of badges. And I think that he's with the SAF. He has plentiful of badges on his uniform. So handsome. lols.

what luck! Perhaps it's just a series of coincidences. I doubt that that superstition is true. (:

you guys watch love's concierge?
you know that rich hotel manager and that blur sotong?

they remind me of myself and someone else.

they got together but they broke because of some misunderstandings. the guy lied, and the girl cried. dragged for a long period of time. girl found a good guy-friend. good guy-friend is interested in blur sotong. guy-friend and sotong became close friends. but the rich guy mistaken that the girl likes that guy-friend so the rich guy backed away from her. rich guy saw how happy the girl was without him, so he let her be. the rich guy still loves the blur girl alot but he kept it to himself. left the poor girl alone to ponder bout when is he going to treat her good, when is he going to ignore her or ponder bout what the guy is thinking about. that sotong suffered crying herself to sleep everynight. rich guy stayed wishy-washy and never persist for what he want.

sounds familiar? sighs. fate. fate. fate.











i shall not cry. i shall not cry. i shall not cry!
*pouts* sighs.

NicoLe-