Town to walk

Jack and I haven't ran a marathon since last year, or two years ago? We finally got our feet to run the marathon, the SHOPPING marathon. :D

The Book Of Tomorrow

"I was watching a bluebottle yesterday. In an effort to escape the living room, he kept flying against the window, hitting his head against the glass over and over. Then he stopped launching himself at it like a missile and stuck to one little windowpane, buzzing about like he was having a panic attack. It was frustrating to watch, especially because if he'd just flown up a little bit higher towards the top of the window, he'd have been free. But he just kept doing the same thing over and over again. I could imagine his frustration of being able to see the trees, the flowers, the sky, yet not being able to get to them. I tried to help him a few times, to guide him towards the open window, but he flew away from me around the room. He'd eventually come back to the same window and I could almost hear him: 'Well, this is the way I came in...'

I wonder if my watching him from the chair is what it's like to be God, if there's a God. He sits back and sees the big picture, just as I could see that if the bluebottle moved up the window to the top, then he'd be free. He wasn't really trapped at all, he was just looking in the wrong place."


I wonder if God can see a way out for me.

Coming right up!

1. 21st party
2. Hong Kong

Please oh please.

Friday's Vesak Day so that means Jack books out on Thursday night. And hopefully he doesn't get chosen to do guard duty. We'll have 3 days together! :)

I could use a wish right now.

Isn't this beautiful?

If only everything in life is as simple and pretty.

How to be awesome?

Basically, go to this LINK and like the photo.

ORGASMIC

Oh my gawd, I'm seriously having visual orgasms while doing up this post. What a sweet creature, how can you even exist? You are sucha darling, are you real?

Crazy night.

While I was sleeping, I dreamt about Chuck Bass and vampires that looked like Bill Compton. It was a crazy dream, but in the dream, although I was sought after by senseless vampire and pushed away, I wish I never woke up.

I'm Chuck Bass crazy.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I'm gon achieve this, a jar full of dollar coins.

Jack and I caught Shrek Forever After, if you haven't watched it, don't. I don't know man, I mean if you're a huge fan of Shrek (read: I don't see what's so lovable about Shrek) then you've gotta catch it. But I'm not, and this is one failed animation. I didn't like it, don't ask me why, I just don't. We watched it because we were deluded by the deal GV was offering, the one about Hollywood Boulevard.

Last night was not all bad, after the movie we walked to Cityhall (we were at Dhoby Ghaut) and talked about stuff, good stuff, bad stuff, senseless stuff and all that stuff. Oh, we walked to Cityhall to catch NR2. I hardly get to spend time like that with J anymore, you know? Used to be around each other almost everyday, honestly, I don't know which I'd prefer more. We fight less when he's in camp because we don't have time to fight. But I miss him more, because we can't meet as often. Ah wells.

Saturdays' are best, Sundays too, just not when he books in, again. Other than that, Mondays to Fridays are just wasted days. I ought to find something to do, really.

Oh yeah, and I hate it when people strikes a conversation and after a few conversations, they act like we're best friends. I get that all the time, you know? I barely know _____, I've never been to school with _____, basically, I've only met _____ twice. It kills me to entertain _____. God help me.

I feel like I'm getting old, fucking fast. It's gon be my 21st in 2 weeks, someone once told me that once you reach 20, the years are gon fly by faster than usual. This freaks me out, I've so many things unaccomplished, and so many more I wanna do. Oh yeah, there's prolly gon be some party somewhere. Once that's finalized, I'll be giving out invitations. You'll receive it only if I love you. Aww. ♡

Kkthxbye.

Airplanes

I like it when this happens. (:

Glad cos'

Tan books out today ♥

HuiMin's 21st

♥

That's How Strong My Love Is

Some people they call me crazy 

For falling in love with you 

They can take me
And lock me away baby 

'Cause there's nothing
Those bars can do

 ❥

TGIF.

Funny how I feel this way.

guilty as charged.

I don't know what I was doing when I begun counting my blessings (read: I know it sounds like bullshit, but it just happened, so STFU.) that I started to realise my past has prepared me for a helluva life ahead and I didn't even know it.

For starters, all my past relationships; they taught me how to give and take, how to hold on to what makes you really happy despite the grumpy and messed up days. That it takes two of us to make our relationship work, one cannot love the other less, or more. More importantly, it taught me to remember the many happy times, instead of the few angry days. For all the ex-boyfriends, I don't hate you, in fact I need to thank you for helping me learn so much through the heartaches. I'm in a very happy relationship for 3 years and counting.

The fact that we needed to have CCAs throughout our school lives here taught me more than anyone can ever imagine. It started in Secondary school, where I learnt endurance, perseverance, survival and respect. All because I was in an uniform group. I wouldn't be as independent and asserting if it weren't for that. And during my recent years in school, I joined a team sport where I learnt teamwork and hard work. And that practice makes perfect.

And through my very unproductive school years, I learnt that one should never take the chances thrown at you for granted, that one will not always be lucky. Putting in that extra effort may be tough but it will prove to be fulfilling at the end, and it definitely feels better than regret, remorse and tears. Even if you reap nothing at the end, you can rest your case knowing that you've tried your best even though there was no results. It's gon' be very hard to change, but I know it'll be worth every effort and I will change my ways even if it kills me.

All the temporary jobs I've taken up may have been tiring as hell and the only thing I've ever looked forward to was payday, subconsciously, I've picked up new skills and learnt more than I thought I would. Although I wished I had taken up jobs that would boost my resume then, I'm glad I did the jobs I did. It showed me things I never knew possible, forced me to view things not just from my own perspective but from the people who're involved as well. Also, how kids never respond to threats but more so to genuine love and care.

And then there are the people you meet along your way who have inspired you, warned you and foreshadowed the path you'd want/not want to take. The people who've made an impression on you, those who made you feel strongly about something. Those who you aspire to be like, you'd model after them. And those who taught you something in your journey in life. I've met a lot of people like these, some I will remember all my life, and the others who i dread. They shaped our lives, whether you like it or not.

There may be more of these lessons I don't even know I had. Despite all the complains and the tantrums, I'm glad I've experienced all these in my last 21 years. There are definitely more lessons like these to come in my future endeavor, it just takes a moment like this to realise the prize we've achieved after all the bad times we thought we had.

In all, whoever told you that our experiences and history moulds us to be who we are right now is definitely a genius who counts their blessings more often than I do. So, who or what made you to be who you are today?

Ice Cream on a Cold Day

Have you ever felt like eating ice cream on a cold day?

Hi, I'm a bummer. I woke up at about 1735 hours, and all I heard at that time was thunder, rain and the sound of my air-conditioner. While I was enjoying the moment, it suddenly hit me that Jack's at fieldcamp. I hope it wasn't pouring like this in Tekong.

I feel like eating ice cream, really. I have no idea what I'm gon do for the rest of today. I miss Jack. Kkthxbye.

Bring it.

It's gon be another 5 more days til book out.

Meanwhile, I've gotta complete these things:

• Finish my new book.
• Make ______'s card.
• Attend Huimin's party.
• Look for jobs.
• Get Dead In The Family.
• Check out schools.

This woman beside me just flicked her stirrer, she sure was lucky because nothing splashed onto my berry and apple. I would have smacked her so hard, her ugly face will turn inside out.

5 days, how should I spend it?

Field Camp

Jack's gon be at field camp, I pray and hope he's gon be okay.

I resent NS.

Hi, I'm crazy over this guy now. Kthxbye.

When I saw you

It's like every bad feeling I had on Thursday night just went away.

You chased them away, ily. (:

Couldn't be more apt

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are but I

Im with you, Im with you

I'm looking for a place

I'm searching for a face

Is anybody here I know

Cause nothing's going right

And everything's a mess

And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me

Won't somebody come take me home

Reality stings like a bitch.

I've been sitting alone a lot lately, and I tear when images of what could have been repeatedly flashes across my mind, cos I know it would have been awesome and my life would be fantastic, that I could be so much more than I am now. And that sucks cos it ain't never happening.

Change, good or bad?

OMG YOU LOOK TOTALLY DIFFERENT PLEASE.

Skype with Joelle!

Hi, I'm skyping with Joelle and this is one of our conversation:

Joelle: How's Jack?
Me: I don't know, his phone is confiscated!
Joelle: Huh? Which phone?
Me: The phone without camera.
Joelle: Why no camera?
Me: Because it's the rule there.
Joelle: Why? Because they scared the army guys take photo of their bed?

Ah, that's funny.

Here he is:

I haven't been posting pictures of my Pudding lately, so there, a really cute one should please all of you. I have no idea why is it so grainy, prolly the bad lighting or maybe it's my bad editing of the colours. Kkthxbye.

We're miles apart indeed

According to Google Maps,

Jack and I are 35.418158 miles apart,

and 8 hours 36 mins of walking time

away from each other.

Really, we are way more than 8 hours away physically 

judging from the speed I walk.

And I'm not gonna be mushy

and elaborate about how close we are in our hearts.

Miles Apart - Yellowcard

Days before Jack enlisted, we went to Wheelock Place for Sushi. It's weird how we used to be able to eat for 3 hours, but now we can hardly last 30mins. Nonetheless, sushi was good and we loved it. Here's an eye's feast for you:

And finally, the boy I'd give the world to be by my side right now.

I miss you boyfriend. ):

Photos taken with Canon S90, edited with Aperture 3.

One track mind

I miss you crazy much.

Didn't take a plane but...

I've been to Wendy's, have you?

I'm gonna blog about my ideal birthday, not that anyone cares.

Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You

Everybody needs inspiration

Everybody needs a song

A beautiful melody

When the nights are long

'cause there is no guarantee

That this life is easy

Yea when my world is falling apart

When there's no light

To break up the dark

That's when I

I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home any more

That's when I

I look at you

When I look at you

I see forgiveness

I see the truth

You love me for who I am

Like the stars hold the moon

Right there where they belong

And I know I'm not alone

Yeah when my world is falling apart

When there's no light

To break up the dark

That's when I

I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home any more

That's when I

I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me

Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me

All I need

Every breath that I breathe

Don't you know you're beautiful

Yeah yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore

And I can't find my way home any more

That's when I

I look at you

I look at you

Yeah

Whoa-oh

You appear just like dream to me

Then there are the things that constantly reminds you of your not so glorious past that you want to forget so very badly

Now that reminds me of a lot of things.

I'm the saddest girl right now, Jack had his phone confiscated. ):