Where's my Edward Cullen?

So, we were in the middle of our argument, and:

nicole is not (: says (6:33 PM):
BECAUSE YOU ARE THE WORLD TO ME

nicole is not (: says (6:33 PM):
and what am i...?

jack says (6:33 PM):
not the world to me

jack says (6:33 PM):
but still very important

now I know what am I to him. I have never, ever heard anything this heart breaking before, in my entire 19 years. I'd rather hear the lies I have always been deluding myself with, than to hear this truth, the truth that crippled my entire being. With David Cook's Lie, and Ne Yo's Why Does She Stay,

I'll be dying of a broken heart on New Year's Eve myself.

Happy 2009 to me!

& I couldn't be happier being alone on New Year's Eve.

:(

eyes feast

A summary of 54 photos.

Tell me why

Why does she stay?
Why does she stay?
Why does she stay? Hey...

She hates that I don't do dishes
Even though I mess up the most
And she begs me all the time to help her
And I know I should but I'm lazy... so I don't, um yeah
She always considering my feelings
Thinking of me before her self
Most of the time, I'm so damn selfish
I don't even realize she treats me so well

She's so much better than me
I'm so unworthy of her
Why does she stay? Why does she stay? Why?

She hates that we don't spend much time
We barely see each other at all
She don't even nag me bout' always working
She just says I just wish every now
and then that you would call
I don't know why she's still here
She could have any man that she wants
Step outside of myself see how much she loves me
And all the things I should do
for her that I just don't
And I realize...

She's so much better than me
(so much better)
I'm so unworthy of her
(so unworthy of her)
Why does she stay? Why does she stay?
Tell me why? Why? why? why?
Why? why? why? why?

(She's in love, she's in love, she's in love)
And I don't understand, that I don't understand no
(She's in love, she's in love, she's in love)
Got to be a better man for her
So I take my time and do what I'm supposed to do
Because I just can't see my life
without you, you, you, you, you, you,
ohhhHhh... yeah

Why does she stay?

She's so much better than me
(so much better, so much better...)
I'm so unworthy of her
(so unworthy of her)
Why does she stay? Why does she stay?
Tell me why? Why? why? why?
Why? why? why? why? Why?

Why does she stay? Ohhh...
Why does she stay? Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Why does she stay? Yah yah yah yah

I'm sad, baby, I'm sad.
I don't fucking know, because I'm too weak to try leaving.

On the 3rd day of Christmas

After Midnight Mass with Greg&Mel. Bedtime Story at Cine :D
Took night rider back to Jack's and slept over at Hun's after the movie.
X'mas night at buffet with Boo. Notice how his polo spells E-A-T B-R-I-T-A-I-N. Lol. I think it's funny so you have to laugh no matter what. I don't care.
Oh look at my nails, I love them! Matchy matchy with my phone. Lol.
and then we had fun with the camera and our shadows on our long walk back to the station.

There, that was my simple Christmas.
Ta! ♥

P.S// I went to Jurong Point, in hope of getting the whole series of Stephanie Meyer's 4 books. But to my horror, it was all overrated-ly sold out. I don't believe it. Thank goodness for the new extension and Harris, I manage to get the first book. And I watched the movie online yesterday, it wasn't as bad as y'all have described. Prolly because I have yet to read the book beforehand, now I have really high hopes for the book. Bye y'all, Imma sink my head into Twilight until I'm at the very last cover. Till then, ta! ♥

2009; Fear

This is one out of 8 of my resolutions,
I will be determined enough to fulfill what I've set out to do.
I will, and I must.
❤

Boxing Day

☆ Bedtime Stor-ied with Greg&Mel after X'mas mass.
★ X'mas this year was just plain Jane.
☆ Had the whole Langkawi thing planned out.
★ I can't wait to spend 3 days 2 nights with G&M and ♥
☆ Watched Twilight online, wasn't as bad as expected.
★ Gonna head down to get the whole series first thing in the morning
☆ X'mas presents, overrated.
★ Edward is not hot.
☆ I know I'm being RaNdOm.
★ And I don't care. :)

Merry X'mas y'all, have a blessed year ahead and many more to come. :D

P.S/ I just hope next year's will be a whole lightyear better than this year's.

Christmas

This, by far will be the first Christmas I'll be spending without the slightest hint of smile in me.

Nah, lets not talk about it.

My X'mas

Decided to give resolutions another try, I'll attempt to stick to all of them in the new year. And at the end of 2009, watch me strike them all out one by one. :D

Ta! ❤

I feel good! ♫

Life's been treating me well. Except that I could do with a little more money. :)

♥ Attempted my first official Tennis session with J, A and S.
- Dang it, should have agreed to tennis dates with my ex-boyfriend while we lasted. Tennis is fun, but not as easy as you think it is. Grr.

♥ Gotten my paycheck of $240+
- For 3 days of fun at Sitex. Cool or what? But I can only bank it in on the 26th. Stupid people.

♥ Californication
- Finished 2 seasons of Californication. Awe-some.

♥ Heroes S3 & Pushing Daisies S2
- I can't wait for the rest of the episodes to be on air. Urgh.

♥ Baking Sessions
- Once A's oven is up and running, baking starts. Woohoo! Baking roxzxzx!

♥ More tennis sessions
- Boo and I have decided to invest in new Tennis equipments, from Mustafa. That place FTW yaw.

♥ JB on 5th Jan
- J, A , S and I will be making very good use of the extra holidays that MI has bestowed, not, on us. We're going into JB for one helluva fun day, pictures definitely. :D

♥ Langkawi
- I still am looking forward to it like yay!

♥ Hong Kong
- I'll need every cent I have, and will have.

Okay byebye. ♥

Eight Hundred & Thirty Eight Days. ♥

Hello yall!

I'm a happy girl.
Here's my random list of happy things:

✖ Hunny's Homee! [❤]
✖ We're going to JB [❤] (sometime soon)
✖ School starts 2 weeks into January [♥]
✖ Shopping for new clothes this Saturday with mummy [♥]
✖ My online shoppings is arriving tmr [♥]
✖ I saw Greg&Mel on Sunday at church [♥]
✖ G&M, J&N, (B&R) changed ❤trip location to Langkawi. [♥]
✖ I'm going to Popeyes with Hun (ahems.. again) [♥]
✖ Joelle's coming back from HongKong! [❤]
✖ I'm feeling glee in my tummy, can you feel it too? [♫]

A happy girl, indeed. :D
Ta-ta!

Awesome Day

Hello all! (Esp. Hun)

today is an awesome day! i feel loved all over. :D new phone, popeyes, tour around airport. only thing that was missing was not having Jack by me while I had my day. he'll be back in 3 more days! fast fast! :D So, pictures below. raw, unedited because it's taken by my new phone! :D

Omg? Mickey and Friends are coming to Singapore? awesome news to me! me loves minnie. :D

Here's my new phone. Admire it yall.
Sidekick 2008 (Gekko)

Okay, Byebye.

P/S: more for you at our secret place boo <3

Hello Jack,

I've something for you at our secret place <3

xoxo, Nicole (:

Boyfriend's Away

So then, as above. Boyfriend's away in Ipoh to play for Singapore in the Asian Indoor Hockey Cup. And as seen above, this is his prized possession. His jersey, couldn't get his usual number 12, so he got Nordin's number 14. (if you don't already know, Nordin is his coach) Awesome flag on the top left I must say. I'm super proud of you Boyfriend! :)

I was supposed to get my new phone today, but there was something wrong and it wasn't working properly like it's supposed to. So I'll have to wait til Boyfriend's back and then we'll make the decision as to do I or do I not buy the phone still. (note to self: i love the phone!) Will reveal when I get the phone, in the mean time, Slivita, you're not allowed to tag and announce to the whole world. Thank you :D

Someone, please date me out or something. Or (it's okay, i cant walk as of today) tell me the things that you can do at home alone. ): Damn bored, and today's only the 1st day!

Imma watch movies, videos, play games and sleep. Awesome life, i must say. :D

Popeyes was awesome, superultra deliciously. :D We'll go patronise Popeyes again when you get home alrighty Boyfriend. Please be safe. Loves loves. (:

Okay, Bye.

P/S: shall tell yall about my full marathon when my legs recovers. no link, i know. lol.

/Edited.

I need to clear my head. Seriously, and my feelings too. Yes, I reccomanded my girls to go for shoots, out of pure fun and bonding times and whatnot. Never will I encourage them to do sleezy shoots, or to urge them to shoot for adult magazines. I strongly object to that idea myself, I feel it's not treating yourself right. And, you call yourself a model after 2 shoots? I suppose, you need to open your horizons wider and see the world, babe. Maybe it's your interest, I dont know? No upright models will agree to damage themselves like that, by doing what i think you're doing, you're just devaluing yourself. No hard feelings intented, just a piece of my mind. If you even read this, that is.

More Photos:D

My awesome hair :(

Look at my awesome hair, just look at that awesome hair of mine.

I want that awesome hair of mine again. :(

I'm sad, very sad. :[

YeeeHaaaaaw